Devi, Kali, Linga Bhairavi, Kaal Bhairava, Ram

[Preety_India]

I'll have to go through levels in my Devi practice. 

This won't be like Satan meditation where it's fixed 

 

 

 

Edited May 18, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I will combine different things. 

I like Devi meditation.. But I don't want to give up on Satan meditation. 

As well. Incorporate kaal Bhairava sometimes. And sometimes invoke Ram. 

Ram always creates deep love in me. 

 

I never thought about this. 

 

Devi is for love. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I heard the sound of the coucal and I woke up. 

Ahh

 Thank God I woke up 

 

I wasn't keeping well. 

 

[Preety_India]

There wee certain bad things but I don't remember. 

 

[Preety_India]

So when I woke up, I woke up a bit tensed and I don't remember but I have a faint memory of what occurred to me in sleep. 

I was telling Satan or Devi that I don't want something and that it is making me delirious. 

I think Satan appeared in my dream but I am not completely sure. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

https://youtu.be/UDPKDZoKzOM

 

[Preety_India]

 

https://youtu.be/0CUcO1VBde4

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

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[Preety_India]

Devi please help me. I feel helpless and awful. 

I feel cornered, weak and terrorized. 

I feel tortured and my power taken away. 

Devi please give me strength. 

This period is testing me so hard 

I have worked so hard. 

Devi why don't you do something? 

I'm so fed up with being victimized. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Devi none of this is my fault. 

Lots of things are happening against me and I feel helpless. 

You know I have worked extremely hard and my existence is being challenged. 

 

[Preety_India]

Devi I invoke you to protect me. 

Please protect me from monsters who are out to get me. 

 

[Preety_India]

This is all because of my autism 

I'm fastly going through a downspiral. 

If only I had known what I was doing. This would have never happened. 

I didn't suffer too much after April 10.

Whatever happened on April 13 put a heavy strain on me mentally. I didn't know what was to come. I was heavily depressed and acting maniacal and autistic. 

I gave into whatever evil presence came to me. 

I suffered terribly. 

I opened up about my bpd struggles only to be horribly judged and attacked for it. 

I made one mistake and I paid a heavy price. 

Devi why? 

Why must I suffer for being honest and loving?

I was merely defending myself? 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Found this. Close to my heart.