The Authentic Path.

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Insight from a dream. 

 

Context: I have never enjoyed horror movies/games, and never understood why, never attracted to them, repelled in fact. 

was having a dream, which I wont go into the details of, basic premise, underground colony, zombie outbreak, not being taken seriously by the hospital wing, yada yada yada, scary, gory, violent. 

 

The insight was. (and on reflection this is the relative domain) what is horror? what is a nightmare? a disconnection from LOVE! Imagine a life cut off from love, with no hope at all to reconnect with it, people don’t take anything existentially seriously or care, everything you fear is right around the corner and being experienced now?

 

Yeah. That’s why I do not like horror movies. Imagine a horror movie, what is it? An expression of TRAUMA. Overwhelming, scary, sometimes gory and violent being, without Love. Its heart wrenching to think of a reality without love.

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What is life-purpose? love.

 

What is the most meaningful way I can show love to others? 
 

Music

 

How exactly do I want that love to impact them? 
 

To be seen, heard, and understood. 

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I see you, you’re struggling too,

To fill a hole that can’t be found,

I see you, you're fighting too,

A war that no one sees,

I feel you, what if no one understands?

You do, that’s enough.

Edited July 10, 2022 by Realms of Wonder

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Late at night, when the fog clears, an active mind and a tired body combine, maybe clarity arises.

In the early morn, a beacon of light shines into consciousness, with a message, a calling, a why. 

 

Play Music that guides people into breakthroughs of Love by articulating the wisdom of Reality.

 

Be the wake up call

Be the warm "hug"

Be the "Friend" in need

Be the radiance of love needed during hard times

Listen to their stories, hear their cries, understand their trauma, be with them when they struggle to love their self.

Articulate the barriers they face, by sharing your own life experience, distilled into the abstract lessons and wisdom that life was showing.

Be true, be authentic, share the authentic path with the world, by articulating reality in such a way, that leads them to recognize the love.

Be the Musical connection to love

Love disguised as Music.

 

It may be years, decades even, before that is the main, independent source of income in this life.

It may take years for me to bite the bullet and start the deeper levels of this work

• Contemplation
• Shadow work
• Building a successful independent Music artist business.

And that's okay.

Maybe it is slower than others, good! So many will resonate with the long climb, documenting that journey with music, people will see a trajectory that leaves them speechless.

By articulating my struggle, people feel seen, heard, understood. that someone "Gets" them and their struggle.

Play Music that guides people through breakthroughs of love, by articulating the wisdom of.... EVERYTHING.

Edited July 10, 2022 by Realms of Wonder

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Not knowing is beautiful, and uncertainty, like hunger before a big, satiating meal. Allow that hunger, it makes the meal even sexier  

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Love of Music means showing up. Being present with Music, here's a collaboration Music and I brought into being.  Enjoy!

Tears of Change: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1aiE_jXy0vnRTLh11JWgapljOrc6mk-O-/view?usp=sharing

Edited July 11, 2022 by Realms of Wonder

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There is a lot to this life, being on the brink of a new chapter leads me to wonder.... How far does it really go?

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Another dream, another insight.

 

I am on a motorcycle, driving through a rainy, dystopian future, I drive and drive, its dark, there is an evil vibe, seeing slave labor, a hopeless future. I arrive at a stop sign, there is a thin green "parking" lane in the middle of the road, its curved and I align my bike with it, and wait. I become aware that there are cameras watching me.

 

Suddenly the floor drops away and I find myself falling, falling deep into the earth. When I come too, I am tired, bruised, and know what to do, I have been here before. I look around and find a change of clothes, I walk out from where I fell, grabbing my water bottle (haha, even in my dreams I need water) and walk out, fining myself in a hallway, I look left, there is a low (3 foot tall by 8 feet wide) hole/doorway, I go through it and find myself in a shrine. A story is told through painting, it feels off, something feels wrong, doom, permeating the air, it’s a hate shrine to mom. I remember, a family enemy runs this world, I am here to defeat her.

 

I walk out, down the stairs into a large room where I meet her face to face, she is smiles, but there is  danger in the air, I start to feel sick, hungry, and she offers food. I take it, and as I am playing a game with my food, growing corn, eating it, I sense a dark presence approaching, it’s a demonic dog figure, twice as large as I am, white gleaming teeth, red eyes, I don’t look at it, even as it comes and sniffs me for fear. In my mind as I graze on the food, I think " don’t be scared" as I feel the breath, and then I remember that wont help, instead I say "surrender to the fear, breathe." and I do, I continue to eat, gaining strength, until I look up, it’s a huge, black dog, cruel teeth, and it shriek's at me "WHHHYYYY MEEEEEEEE!!!" in a croaking high-pitched shrill, it charges, and I catch it by its mouth, I know what to do, I have been here before.

 

In the dream when I reached out to grab its mouth, I did the same in real life, the movement woke me up.

 

The insight is to surrender to fear, instead of resisting it, instead of fighting it, instead of trying not to feel it, feel it deeper, walk right through it, grab that demonic dog by the mouth LOL

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A Path With Heart: (New Rough finished Song) 

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1kI50zHxqFT82JgkhUkWJPY4FN4PJC6HO/view?usp=sharing 

 

Verse 1

The Good life is a few

High quality choices away

I feel so much uncertainty

As I choose to make my own way

 

I doubt myself in all the things I choose

Cuz what if it is just the wrong path for me

Even if it means that means that I gotta lose

As I learn to see what life can really be

 

Chorus 1

 

I choose The path that will grow me

The one that I am afraid of

I choose the way that will show me

The path with heart

 

Verse 2

 

What keeps me from making

choices to grow my whole life

Sometimes its fear that this choice is wrong

maybe I'm scared of how it will change my mind

 

I see the best choices that I've ever made

So grateful that I had to courage to choose

Also I see the times I chose to fear

And took that path of least resistance until I saw 

 

Chorus 2

 

I choose The path that will grow me

The one that I am afraid of

I choose the way that will show me

The path with heart

Edited July 20, 2022 by Realms of Wonder

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So Many: (New Rough Finished Song) https://drive.google.com/file/d/19fzXZYN40-npIOR0gMyLnrGnjY4RSww_/view?usp=sharing 

 

Verse 1

 

So many days

Feeling uncertain

So many years

unanswered questions 

So many tears

As I learn feel again

Even more fears

As I look within

 

Chorus 1

 

How do I face every fear

So I can love more than my self

Something has pulled me to here

To surrender to knowing myself

 

Verse 2

 

So many times

I had the answer

Only to find

More levels to life

So many lies

keep me from being

Even more truth

That I ran from in fear

 

Chorus 2 X3

 

How do I face every fear

So I can love more than my self

Something has pulled me to here

To surrender to knowing myself

 

 

 

 

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In a stage of boundary setting, advocating for my needs and wants, better communication, and truthfulness with people.

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Every conscious choice takes me deeper into infinity. Not the idea of infinity, not the story I believe it is, actual Infinity.

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Notes from DMT Experience.

 

Words can do no service to the actual infinity of my Self. DMT is a gateway to Reality, in new and unfamiliar flavors.

Watched the entirety of Leos "Poetic Description of God Realization" it’s a beautiful episode, I did not awaken, but the levels of consciousness reached were mind-blowing, I understand to new levels what God is, What Reality is, its LITERALLY UNLIMITED MIND. ANYTHING I IMAGINE IS REAL. That is a scary thought, or is it?

Great insight into life purpose.

To play music, showing why to love reality.

Music is MY flavor of God. Its the medium I choose to show people WHY to Love Reality, Their self.

Why play music, showing why to love reality?

If I was all alone,  no others, no people, just me and my consciousness, I would still do it, for myself, so that I deepen my love for reality, for myself, the deeper I love myself, the more authentic I am, the deeper of a connection I have with reality, the more authentic I am, Right? Authentic means real, true, truthful, genuine,  or… Reality. If I show people WHY to love Reality, they then have a choice, will they love it? Or reject it? Either way, I will play music, write songs, and be in a way that shows WHY to Love reality, to myself and to "other."

Really though, What else is there to do? Imagine if I had to live life without playing music? Life without music? A mistake. Not life haha.

WHY? Because I Choose Music as my Life. Not just my purpose, but my life.

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New song (lyrics) Heart That's Full of Love.

 

Verse1

 

I don’t have to have

All of the answers

To help you to feel

I don’t need to be

The man that I'll be

In ten years now

 

I don’t need to fake

Love in my being

To guide  you to heal

Everything comes clear

in moments stillness

All alone with this life

 

Chorus 1

 

Cuz where I am is who I'm s'posed to be

And what I see is more than enough for me

And who I am is all I'd ever need

And all I'd need to give, is a heart that’s made of love.

 

Verse 2

 

It's okay to be,

an unfinished project

With room to improve

On the path you'll see

So many that tried

Without the love for their self

 

 

We don’t need to be

Anything other

Than what I am today

To share all the love

That we have inside

To that which is, to who we are

 

Chorus 2

 

Cuz where we am is who we're s'posed to be

And what we see is more than enough to be

And who we am is all we'd ever need

And all we'd need to give, is a heart that’s made of love.

 

 

 

 

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Interesting experience of Love.

 

I get off work, and walk to my car, it is a peaceful, cool night as I approach the drivers side and look in the window, I see objects strewn about and my heart sinks. I turn on my phone flashlight and look inside, its a mess, everything from the arm compartment and dash has been pulled out and thrown all around, I look for my Bluetooth speaker, its gone, a rush of anger, "Who the fuck steals from unlocked cars!" Then thankful, "ah, at least I had my wallet with me."

 

I put everything back, only the speaker had been stolen, car starts up find, no flat tires, I start driving home, and realize. "if someone is desperate enough to go around checking cars to see if they are unlocked, then take anything of value from them... Then they probably need it more than I do." A sense of calm washes over me as I realize, if I was in their shoes, facing the same situation, I would do the same. I kept going with this train of thought, realizing, it couldn't be any other way! Whoever it was, they simply are not aware of the consequences of their actions, it is not personal, they didn't have me in mind when they took it.

 

As I continue to think on this, a radical thought appears, "Can I Love them?" A wave of resistance appears, but quickly fades as I realize, of course I can.

 

They are me.

 

 

Edited September 16, 2022 by Realms of Wonder