Journey to absolute selflessness

[Vynce]

This thread is about how I tame my ego and create selflessness and love. Because thats the ultimate goalless goal. The embodiment of absolute selflessness. However it's absolutely necessary to participate in this journey warm-hearted and non-moralistically. There is no should and should not. I just want to document my journey daily and see what factors play into selflessness the most.

Here are some examples how I want to measure this progress:

1. How much greasy, salty, meaty, convenient food have I consumed? 

2. How much caffeine have I consumed, to overplay my laziness/sleepiness? 

3. How much porn have I consumed?

4. How much porn-like media have I consumed? 

5. With how much media have I let myself get distracted?

6. How selfish was I against others? Examples are: Starring at them dominantly. Not looking at them at all. Being impatient. Being harsh. Not listening to others. Always thinking about myself in contact with others. Not helping, when help is needed. 

7. How much have I worked on my vision to let others participate in conscious work?

 

Selflessness can't be described in numbers. But for the sake of this progression thread, I want to include three parameters, in which I determine "selflessness", "authenticity" and "happiness" on a scale from 0 to 100. 

Lets start with today: 31.03.22

Worked out, but not to maximum failure every time. Got distracted way too much on my phone. In the morning, during the workout and basically the whole day. Watched porn, fapped and listened to music for myself nearly the entire day. On the other hand I did holotropic breathwork and started this thread. 

Selflessness: 32

Authenticity: 74

Happiness: 43