Reflections about game feedback appreciated

[ValiantSalvatore]

I do run in some issues while attempting to learn game. From going out in my 100k city. The city does have a decent night life. Yet I see the same people over and over again. Which has advantages and disadvantages.

Competition is also rough. Military guys with a sh*t ton of money who all have a lot of status and girls are out for them. Spending money like if it was nothing. Not all of it is real etc.

Also there is a shit ton of battery. Recently someone got stabbed and my friend tried to revive the guy.

People start greeting me now especially guys as they all are looking to get laid and sort of this subconscious pact builds of who knows a good place and girls etc. Some guys just hug me and people really love to drink with me, which makes it difficult not to drink. Some guy gave me expensive parfume while I took a piss to even smell better.

A girl she was very unattractive spend me a drink last time. Bar keeper women keep flirting with me even if it's for fun and not the extra tipp. As well as starts leaning against me making physical contact. Mostly they are hot I seem to have a very comforting vibe. 

People ask me to go out into clubs when they re-open. The main point is I really do nothing. Guys just come to me think I am cool for some reason and wanna talk. 

I always also get these deep conversations about life in a 1 on 1 situation. Even though I think this is so superficial after doing psyches etc.

Mostly I never meet again with the guys. I feel should I ask for guys numbers? I basically have the option to be picky since I already know two naturals who get laid a lot. Yet these are my only options, yet they really go out a lot.

I like deeper bonds and quality wings in that sense, yet really nobody knows game here. It's just socialization and befriending women. 

Since people know each other approaching sometimes feels extra scary. As people pass by they are like fk it they'll come back the group comes back etc.

What can I do when I feel just sort of as a secondary character when going out?

I am mostly bored when I do not drink. I generally still lead drunk or not drunk. As people seem to have trouble making decisions where to go etc. What to drink etc.

I am so busy with myself I struggle to open up and let go. I can make an effort to just still talk to girls, yet tbh conversations come quiet easy to me. I really struggle rather to get laid and approach and deal with the whole modern mating ritual.

After being rejected I feel a bit scared approaching as I am the only one doing it. It all feels a bit to civil.

Also guys keep telling me their secrets etc. Which is odd.

How social do you guys think I am? I am not good at "external perception" or how others perceive me. 

Edited February 22, 2022 by ValiantSalvatore