Was this awakening?

[- XF -]

A couple of months back I was in an extreme disagreements with my brother and the relationship between us was probably going to get damaged beyond repair. I was extremely angry at him and he was at me as well. 

I was upstairs in my room lying down. I knew later today this confrontation needs to happen. A strong sense of fear was making my heart beat faster and faster. I usually resist the fear and not let it control me but this time I let it in, faced it and wanted to see what can it actually do to me.

As soon as I stopped resisting the fear my heart started beating heavily.

In a split second it was like some curtain was lifted from my eyes. The extreme hate I had in me for my brother disappeared. Not just that, there was not even a single drop of hate or negativity left in me. What scared me the most was I was feeling the love in equal amount to everybody. It was like they were no longer special.  They were the same as all the other people. 

I thought it was some awakening but I was in no way expecting a shift in my perspective at that time. also it seemed none of my problems are actually a problem. but it also seemed like I as a person was going to lose everyone I cared about. 

This experience didn't last for much long. two three minutes and I slowly got back to my earlier self. 

Was that awakening?

[Leo Gura]

No

But it was a minor positive spiritual experience.

Awakening is so shocking it's like you've woken up from the dream of your life. Like you realize your entire life was just a hallucination and that you were never born and will never die.

No words can describe how radical it is. It is the most radical thing that can possible happen to you. More radical than getting shot in the head. You will be stunned speechless.

Don't worry, you won't miss it if it happens to you.

[- XF -]

12 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

No

But it was a minor positive spiritual experience.

Awakening is so shocking it's like you've woken up from the dream of your life. Like you realize your entire life was just a hallucination.

Okay. That make sense. thank you!

If you don't mind, I've one more question that came to me at that exact moment it happened. 

Why do I need awakening, If that means I have to accept Everything that Made me or Makes me who I am, was actually not real?

I felt a detachment from everything at that moment.

 

[Leo Gura]

Awakening is for people who want to understand the ultimate Truth about what reality is.

If you aren't interested in Truth, stay away from Awakening.

[- XF -]

18 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

Awakening is for people who want to understand the ultimate Truth about what reality is.

If you aren't interested in Truth, stay away from Awakening.

I am interested in truth. I've come across Actualized.org about 5 years back and have been a regular viewer of your contents ever since. 

What I am trying to understand these days is, After awakening how would the family life of the person would be? 

I've people depending on me both as a provider and a protector. so once I awake, If I start to feel detached from them, that will put them at an helpless situation. 

This thought put me at a difficult situation. I've been thinking I'd stop focusing on vertical growth and try to grow laterally. I'd greatly appreciate if you can shed some clarity on these situation.  

 

 

[Leo Gura]

@- XF - There are no guarantees of any kind. Truth is Truth. It does not necessarily imply any kind of action.

Generally speaking your love for others will tend to deepen. However, if your life and relationships are built on much falsehood and lies, realizing Truth may blow all that apart.

But if you truly love someone, your love for them should deepen with Awakening.

[- XF -]

4 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

@- XF - There are no guarantees of any kind. Truth is Truth. It does not necessarily imply any kind of action.

Generally speaking your love for others will tend to deepen. However, if your life and relationships are built on much falsehood and lies, realizing Truth may blow all that apart.

Okay. Copy that. Thank you.