Bipolar Disorder & Psychedelics (video & writing)

[BipolarGrowth]

I’m not the only person with this message. I know it goes against a lot of common ways of thinking, but this is my story. Demi Lovato came out on JRE to say basically the same thing — drugs saved her life. Also, I’m sorry, but Demi Lovato is unquestionably more conscious than transphobic people. Spiral dynamics is fucking real. Anyway, people don’t understand that for the mentally ill person to ever become whole they will need to have psychoactive experiences. For Demi and other less spiritual people, other hard drugs and activities get chosen. For a lot of us in this community, we choose God as our drug. We have to be careful with that. Whether you’re taking substances or not, consciousness work is dangerous. It’s as serious as strong drugs. But the people brought to consciousness work or anything of the sort could not live any other way. It is what our souls yearn for right now. Maybe for some usually less dedicated folks, they fizzle out and return to a normal sober life without any intentional consciousness work of any sort. That’s rare though. There’s no God-Realization anonymous out there. Once you’re in, you’re probably never gonna be out in this lifetime if you actually go deep. 

Anyway, here’s the video I made about my experience and opinions on bipolar disorder & psychedelics. I think people are framing the CM situation completely wrong, but I can’t expect the neurotypical master race lords of eugenic brain chemistry control to be beyond their ignorance. They haven’t lived it. You’ve chained down our natural states of consciousness because petty unawakened humans cannot Love for shit. I love how Leo mentions purple way less than anything else but beige or coral. This is stage purple integration to develop a healthy relationship and respect for the mad. That’s all I’ll say about the CM topic. Don’t ask me about it. I get that it’s possibly not an accepted position here, but it is my truth. 

? Bipolar Disorder & Psychedelics - Should You Do Them? ?

 

It’s a weird warning message. Don’t come near this deeper stuff unless you’re ready to commit for life. The people here usually need to be experiencing this aspect of life though. If I never had a manic episode or had mystical experiences and remained as depressed as I was, I would’ve killed myself for sure. Yeah the treatment has a mortality rate, but it is low. The common side effect of this treatment for this existential yearning is to destabilize your life. It’s ugly. Society hates it. Everyone judges it. But you’re not dead. So many more make it through the hard times and find balance and benefit than the amount who struggle to where it isn’t worth it. We have to be cautious and aware of the dangers, but we also can’t just stop consciousness work. That’s absurd. You cannot regress from this for long. You’re beyond the event horizon. 
 

I have so much more to say and wayyy more awakenings under my belt and dangerous experiences as well a year later after the video. The path very well could be meant for you, but you have to understand that this does have life and death consequences. Every effective religion or large spiritual system ever has created plenty of suffering and death. Way more than pursuing high consciousness work will. But just remember that if morality is truly relative in the eyes of God, as you come closer to God, he/she/it/you/us might lead you to go down a seemingly less moral path. This can test you to your core.

To be able to love the darkness, you must become a strong enough light, but the one who is balanced in both intense light and darkness is the true master. This one is the milk of life, this person. Their consciousness, love, and wisdom change the world. This is my goal. To become a positive light in this world to the best of my ability by integrating my shadow COMPLETELY. 
 

 

Edited May 22, 2021 by BipolarGrowth