26 and new to dealing with STRESS

[Brandon Nankivell]

Stress.

What a funny thing.

Although I've had minor encounters with stress, I've never had it like this before.

I feel like a complete newbie to stress.

I've lived most of my life without it.

And that's been intentional.

Why the hell would I choose to live a life with stress?

Some might say stress is good. Stress is required to achieve big goals etc.

In my experience so far, even moderate stress has impaired performance.

I'm with Sadhguru when he says why the hell you'd basically stress yourself instead of coming from a place of Joy!

I do great when I'm coming from a place of joy!

Anyway, this time is different.

It was invoked by a situation where I had made some poor decisions upon leaving my previous house rental. Didn't tie up some loose ends. Moved into a new home, previous property manager got called and she lost her shit due to some of my poor communications.

Currently dealing with a situation where I may get evicted, and it's also very difficult to communicate with someone who is in an emotional whirlpool with resentment being unleashed on to me.

There's also higher order consequences of being evicted from my current place, to the point where I'm juggling 2,600 different things, something I'm not accustomed to.

In good ol' Brandon fashion, I turned straight to Osho for wisdom on stress, myself too, can't remember which first but whatever. Both are super helpful, since Osho feels like a clone of myself in some ways, just a few steps 'ahead'.

Part of me thinks stress management tactics are bullshit - like breathing etc. Alan Watts and Osho say don't try and do stuff to address it. Just let it be.

I feel like I've tried both though.

Letting it be. Breathing. Exercise. Lavendar scents. Tackling the sub-issues head on to come closer to resolve.

The best thing that's worked so far for me is tackling the sub-issues head on to help me come closer to a resolution.

It's only been a couple days (feels like a couple weeks) so hard to judge if letting it go is really doing anything.

I think it's worth spending more time on just letting it be.

Meanwhile gonna keep addressing the sub-issues as that is the most effective thing so far.

Can't be assed committing to updating this journal given the 6 billion and one things there seems to be to do, although that doesn't mean I won't.

On the flip side, what a great opportunity this is!

The likelihood of encountering another stressful situation in life, even if I do the best in my power to mitigate it due to good lifestyle design, is likely. So I'll be better prepared for next time if I continue to make love with stress and learn more about it. Or maybe just let it go. I don't know yet!