The journey to oneness and everything in between

[Adamq8]

So i figured that i would start a journal which will cover a wide range of topics and personal things in my life.

I started my spiritual journey for real about 2 years ago but ive always felt the mystery of Life and Existence and was always curious since i was a kid.

My mother told me  that when I was a kid i was so afraid of the dark cause there was people in my bedroom staring at me, thats what I said to her and she thought that I was a physic kid. But that is ability is long gone.

Ive always been extremely good with people and sensing there energy and understanding them and somehow could see connections between peoples behaviour and thoughts and upbringing. 

The only problem ive had is that people never really understod me,  and unfortuneatly that got me into a lot of trouble to with teachers and authority. 

I have always been a hardcore rebell which has lead me into a lot of trouble with the law and drug addictions and bad friends. 

Since i was 14 i sold drugs and did drugs everyday and that went on up until i was 22 and what happend at that particular time is a topic i will cover in another post in the future. 

All I can say is that it was life saving for me and I went away for a while. 

Now im 26 , living a good life with my own bought apartment with my cat and my girlfriend

I have a fulltime job and im exercising about 3-6 days a week consistently. 

Also doing meditation almost everyday even tho i feel that I want to be more serious about meditation cause it has really expanded my awareness alot. 

But it feels like I find excuses to not meditate, like I dont have time or i cant get time to be alone and so forth but this is just an excuse cause we make time if it is important.

So one goal i have for this year is to meditate 30-60 min minimum everyday.

One thing ive noticed since i started the spiritual path is how much unconciousness there is in the world and how it is in day to day life.

I dont know anybody IRL who is interested in the deepest question we can ask ourselves. 

Like :

What is existence?

Why are we here?

Who am I?

What am I?

And so forth.

People just go on living their life not interested in this sort of stuff, im not saying that it is bad , I just feel that it is sad to see alot of people suffering thanks to the beliefs society has brainwashed them with. 

But now i feel like I should focus on my own journey and accept the aloneness in this journey. 

And accept people for where they are in their life and development. 

But self actualization and spiritual development is a lonely road to walk that is just the case, atleast where I live.

One day i do feel that earth in general will turn to spirituality cause alot of our citizen is unfufilled and lost in their life.

Spirit is what is missing in todays society even tho ive noticed alot of more popularity in spirituality the last year, I hope it will become something that is not tabu to talk about and that we become an open minded society. 

But I wont hold my breath for it.

 

 

Edited January 28, 2021 by Adamq8