Protecting Inherent Worth From Emotional Contrasts/comparisons

[Salaam]

Emotions by their very nature feel and manifest the way that they do, based on the contrast from 2 or more things with another and how it shifts you towards or away from optimal zones of health within a particular context. If your body is hot and your temperature is high, a cold towel will feel refreshing and pleasant as it brings you closer to the zone of optimal health regarding body temperature. In contrast, if your body heat is dangerously low, a cold towel will have a negative or repulsive connotation because it's shifting you in a direction away from optimal physical ranges and the inherent desire to occupy those spaces. 

It's the same thing with emotions and identity. If someone validates you and accepts you, the feeling you get in response is positive, due to the movement towards  greater social health and self-image as well as how it contrasts with both your conscious and unconscious standards and desires. If they reject and castigate you, the contrast is negative. When you look in the mirror, how you feel about yourself will be based upon the contrast between how you see yourself and how it compares to both your conscious and unconscious standards and desires. Other things come into play of course that influence these contrasts on multiple levels, but the point of this post is to focus on how we handle this feeling of contrast,

Using the looking in the mirror example, what normally happens is we look in the mirror and within a fraction of a second our body and emotions have associated how we're seeing ourselves with our conscious and unconscious standards of acceptable body image (plus level of self-prejudice, internalized history of self-image and how it relates to identity, emotional short-term memory stack, and many other things) which creates a contrast, which creates a feeling. We then get hit with this feeling, it immerses us, shift us, and creates a thought narrative, whether a single thought or chain of them, that expands and connects this feeling to other impressions and conclusions, that usually leads to a statement of identity status and reflection of self-rapport. I.E. you look in the mirror, see your body, feel negative towards it, because it does not match or meet the desire of how you really want to look and the unconscious standard you have for acceptance. So you repulse from that contrast and tend to think things like, "I hate the way that I look" or "I need to lose weight" or "why can't I ever look like xyz", which can quickly spiral into dwelling on what a person feels they lack, leading to depression, self-hate, and other self-destructive views and behaviors.

These contrasts are happening all the time, within a split-second, whether positive or negative, because we are constantly shifting in status and health across multiple tiers and dimensions and multiple inter-relations. However, if a person works for many years evolving themselves, they can eventually balance and harmonize these contrasts. Since, I'm fast and sensitive enough to feel these split-second changes I can create an energetic shunt, that shifts the flow of energy that propels the motion of emotion in response to these contrasts in a very specific way. In a way, I've created and internalized an emotional circuit that initializes in the presence of negative contrasts, which shunts the majority of the energy from those negative contrasts towards protecting the inherent worth of whatever it is I'm focused on.

So, if I look at myself in the mirror, I don't feel that emotional wash of negative contrast. Instead I feel a surge from the initialization of energy that would propel  it, but it then gets diverted like train tracks back into seeing my inherent worth, which creates a feeling of peace and a much more stable foundation from which to improve upon myself, if I still so desire. Basically, I'm teaching my body how to balance and handle negative contrasts, by feeling two different emotional realities at once and bridging them together, from a single circuit, to a multidimensional circuit, which I'm able to hold together via my abilities with connective tension. This allows me to not just improve my moment to moment experience, but also improve and shift my over-all patterns created throughout the history of my life, because this circuit creates a new filter that validates conclusions that are congruent with inherent worth being recognized and invalidates old patterns of behavior and thought that ignored such a thing and held only the negative contrast as an influence.

It's amazing actually, because the inherent worth of everything, from myself, to this moment, to pain, to other people, no longer gets superseded by the emotional cascade of change from one direction to another. It doesn't deny that change or ignore it, but it mediates and changes it, because it adds another base level contrast that precedes it and completely changes the reaction, feeling, and consequent mental narrative that would have occurred if I was still a normal human being who couldn't consciously direct and harmonize multiple deep level movements within his body.  Plus, over time it internalizes and becomes an automatic thing that naturally happens, so I don't have to spend all my time managing it, but rather, instead move on to changing and adding on something else which will also again becomes automatic. That's the beauty of having a true understanding and connection with who you are, you become the one who shapes and molds, rather than being bound by the whims of nature. You gain more self-sovereignty through a gaining of skill and ability, making a person more capable... people talk about self-determination, but they don't realize that our degree of self-determination is influenced by our degree of capability. A person who can't feel with as much sensitivity, who can't shift things energetically, and doesn't have the populated view of internal dynamics and inter-relation gained from such experiences, will not have the same degree of self-determination as someone who can truly do all those things.

This is probably too advanced and poorly described on my part for anyone to properly understand, but whatever. I wanted to share and writing about it will help me explain it better later when I address it in my book.

People talk about no-self and non-attachment because they can't handle the up and down of contrasts and change, but rather than running away or discarding who you are, there is another way. Addition rather than subtraction. Rather than destroying and discarding who you are, to get rid of your unconscious standards and desires to meet them, we can grow and change so we choose what is the primary thing these changes are connecting and contrasting with, which determines the kinds of feelings we feel. Updating and adding on to our systems, balancing them, so they work with us and under our direction.
 

Edited September 28, 2016 by Salaam