Triggering Relationship with Coworker/Manager?

[NatureB]

Hi everyone I have been having troubles in my relationship with my assistant manager Misha at work. We work together in a juice bar along with two other managers and one other employee. I get along pretty well with my two male managers, but with Misha, the assistant manager, I have a rocky relationship. It is like love-hate to a degree. The female coworker who has the same title as me, we get along decently well. But with Misha I get very stiff and nervous. She is beautiful and attractive and all that but I don't necessarily want her. I think these feelings come from something else.

My motivation for healing the things she triggers in me is that I know I will have to heal them eventually, and I don't want to have these same things popping up in my future romantic relationships. I think Misha reminds me of my mother in certain ways such as always talking about drama, staying on her phone, emotionally controlled lifestyle, etc. I have even talked about this with my therapist and she is almost exactly like my mom.

This is a good opportunity for me to heal some things and not carry them forward. I spend at least 12 hours per week with Misha, so I can count on being triggered that much.

 

I guess my question isn't really a question, I just need some empathy and validation. Have any of us been through something similar to this before? What was your experience? Thanks!