Enlightenment 101 (Catch & Release)

[VeganAwake]

1) The ability to seek to death...

2) The ability to drop to death...

 

Looking back prior to awakening:

At the time I was a hardcore Seeker for around a year or maybe more...although I wasn't sure what I was seeking, I knew it would be found. I was seeking the truth, even if it killed me. It's as if I had shut off all external outlets to conserve focus and energy. I had also been harnessing my anxious energy to fuel my search, but I was starting to burn out. I remember thinking, I had to of come across the truth by now and maybe I had overlooked it. It seemed to be right under my nose but I couldn't grasp it. I started going back through the material I had already listened to and read for a clue to what I had maybe missed. If I remember correctly, I came across an Adyashanti video where he was describing how enlightenment was not a gaining process, but a letting go or peeling off the onion layers of everything believed to be true.

At that moment I completely dropped everything. I dropped it like it was hot. I kept letting go until there was nothing left. Everything started feeling light and free as if a huge amount of weight had been taken off my shoulders. It seemed like everything I believed in or thought I knew was null and void at that point. It was empty... like being reborn or something. The minds conditioned thoughts were still there in the background, but they just weren't being taken seriously any longer.

 

 

 

 

Edited September 16, 2020 by VeganAwake