Self prior to Survival

[trenton]

I reflected as far back as my memories go.  I did not know anything, but for some reason I spoke English fluently and could understand others.  I was 3 at the time of this memory.

I reflected as far back as I could until something popped.  Prior to this memory, I was able to exist without any notion of survival.  It was just one day for some reason everything existed when I was 3 and I began seeking to understand by accumulating knowledge.

It became a great inner peace when I opened myself to existence without any need to survive.  Death is never something thought of, and thus never feared.  This is prior to the first memory.  In seeking to understand the true self, I often run into things difficult to explain. 

1. Our not knowing creates the experience which we know.

2. Separation between you and any object is conceptual and imaginary. 

3. Deconstructing your current sense of self makes you closer to nothing due to separation being seen as imagination which thus includes everything.

What is it like to experience life without any notion of survival?