Illusory Thought Exercise From Leos Video

[DizIzMikey]

 

I am shy in groups - I have been shy in groups and people have laughed at me because I'm not worthy and they hate me, but that's all in my head... I don't know truly if everyone hates me, evidently some people like me it seemed, plenty of chicks have shown interest, and that's fine with me, but umm.. I don't know how to function with a female, because well my wife made me feel guilty for looking at other women, but when in fact it is not an unhealthy thing to do..to look at other women because it relieves some of the stress from not looking, but when you look at another women, it is beautiful because you feel better than you do feel worse, so I shouldn't feel guilty for looking at other women because there is nothing wrong with looking, just as long as I don't touch because that's when my wife will possibly cut my dick off, and I don't want that, right now I had a healthy laugh that I perceived...perhaps you should laugh more like that. So I'm shy because I don't want my wife feeling inadequate, but at the same time I feel inadequate in flirting because I haven't done it in ages, so how do you talk to a women?... I don't know how to talk to women friendly, perhaps I should make "ugly" women friends in order to get over the hump of this instead of trying to search for hot friends because that will evidently lead to sexual attraction, I need to find an ugly girl to make friends with so my wife isn't set off? This is totally abusrd, because if a women is confident in herself she shouldn't have to watch a mans every move, but if one has suspicions of one cheating they should indefinitely question that, and find out whether they are or not because it means they can choose to be free of the relationship or move on, because if the two had an agreement, that agreement should be honored.

Anyways.. I'm shy because my wife gets really jealous of me looking at anyone else, she flips the fuck out like no one I've ever seen.. it was quite ridiculous how my wife got pissed when I was starring at another women, and man was it a horrible experience....I think I should be able to make anyone I want as a friend, and her not be so insecure about it, but that will take some personal development training for her to see, because I have found that every problem that is created by myself, is created from within my mind, so I shouldn't take what my mind says so seriously, and if I do have suspicions of someone cheating, than I need to do an IGGY and involve cameras to see what they are doing, because if it is a healthy suspicion than it should be further investigated, meaning.. healthy as in.....you shouldn't OVERLY flip out over anyone or anything, but maybe just a bit so it's healthy... Anyways... I'm shy also because of my past... I was never accepted by anyone or anything, or at least I perceived it that way. People in school use to bully me because I was different, and they never accepted me really for who I am, because kids raised back in my days I guess weren't taught how to deal with their emotions, and how to grow up and be healthy.. they were either ignored or taught wrong values that fucked them up, so when they have problems at school...they have problems at home, and if they don't have problems at home, they have problems at school because the ones who have problems at home bring there problems to school... So the basis of shyness is at home, the problem always starts at home, but now since it was a huge problem at homes for the longest period of time the schools have been infected like a plague or virus, and both schools and homes have to equally be cleansed in order for a healthy society to exist. In conclusion shyness started at homes, than the infection spread to schools which are like a plague that wont go away at schools because of the pass on from homes in the beginning.

 

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