I Just Experienced the ALL/Self. My ego/character was afraid.

[Astra]

So I am pretty good at astral projection and have never taken a psychedelic as I am 19. However I have become pure awareness/void in the astral before. 

 

Recently this character/ego has had many insights and actually started to realize them for what they are. That all is imaginary, all is because I want it to be, I am, and I am imagining myself experiencing all imagined angles. Etc 

 

This morning after laying in bed for a while I realized I was “out of body” / in a parallel reality. So I got up and the first thing that came to mind is to say “zen guru” over and over. In the book of Thoth he said it is apparently a powerful word to say when in “astral”. 

 

I then saw my surroundings fade to nothingness/void and then I was looking directly at the nothingness yet I did not become it this time. When I looked directly at this void it made a loud screeching noise and I could sense its intelligence, awareness and power. It gave me the feeling that it was all powerful and could do whatever it wanted with this ego. 

 

In the tao Te Ching it says the Tao is radiant. That’s what this experience made me feel even though I was looking at void.

 

I am not sure if this was an imaginary “Self” within the higher “Self” but it does show me a glimpse into myself/my nature. 

 

It was like being a dream character looking at the dreamer, a piece of art looking at the artist, an instrument looking at the musician, a thought looking at the thinker.

Edited January 3, 2020 by Astra

[Stakres]

How do you know that that is you/your nature?

[Astra]

@Stakres True. I was really just observbing senses that I imagined.