My Journey of going to USA.

[PretentiousHuman]

Hi. My name is Louis Brylle A. Perez. 31 years old. Im from the Philippines ??. Im Single and a Nurse by Profession. Im an ambitious guy. I dont have that much financially. But i can get by with salary. Helping my family to pay the bills. 

I am a bit depressed and it might be because im not concentrating to what i already have. I dont know. 

My ultimate goal is to live and work at USA. Which has a very long process to do. I will update my progress on my spiritual, mental, physical, emotional aspects of my life here. ??

[PretentiousHuman]

Just woke up. I just had 6 hours of sleep. I should have slept earlier last night but i have done some extra curricular activities that should have not be done. 6 hours is not enough for me. Since im into body building and working in a hospital requires a lot of sleep. Will sleep 8 hours tonight though. ?

[PretentiousHuman]

I have an addictive personality. I tend to overthink too much. Tend to overwork too much. I know it from the fact. This is me. I have some self-destructive behaviors. 
But when i work out, meditate, sleep at least 8 hours, journal, and do any spiritual works, my mind is on point. I should do this more often. 
Will sleep now. 

[PretentiousHuman]

I dont know if im gonna pursue a relationship i wanna be with. Maybe i’ll just let things be. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Im currently drinking beer and eating chocolates ? right now. Haha. Good way to end up your night. ???

[PretentiousHuman]

December 25, 2019  12:53AM

It’s Christmas now here in the Philippines. And i have indulged myself to parties, meet and greet with my families and friends. Its an amazing time of the year when i can give myself a break from my daily routine. My so disciplined and too strict schedule is being on a halt. 

I thank myself for this moments when i can just breath and relax. 
 

Namaste. 

[PretentiousHuman]

December 25, 2019. 8:40PM

Self-Discipline. 

i again, ate foods that i know that is not good for me. Dairy products, sweets, binge eating, junk foods, sugary drinks and all. If im going to continue all of this, im the one who will suffer. Plus the unhealthy consumption of social medias will make me more depressed. To get a good night sleep is a must for me too. 
 

START AGAIN BROTHER. YOU GOT THIS!!! ???

[PretentiousHuman]

December 26, 2019 10:46pm

Contentment. 

I just had attended our Year End party for our Workplace. And we had fun. 
 

Sometimes Im thinking if I wanna go to abroad still where i have my salary now here in the Philippines that i think is enough to pay for my bills. 

I don't know. I think im just tired. I will now go to sleep. Goodnight bro! 

[PretentiousHuman]

December 27, 2019 7:19PM

Just Relax. 
You are too tense. You are thinking a lot of things that are useless. You are too worried and too panicky. Just relax and let the Universe unfold what is meant for you. 
 

You will get what you really need. Just relax. Deep breath, will you? ?

[PretentiousHuman]

December 29,2019 11:15pm

Self-Discipline. 
 

There’s a lot of things going on on my mind right now. Why don’t you just slow down and rest. Everything’s gonna be okay. That’s it. 

[PretentiousHuman]

December 30, 2019 11:25pm

Balance. 

Don't be too strict with your life. You can do it in whatever you do. Just give your self some time to rest and recover. It’s good to bring all of what you have but you have to slow down or else you will burn out. 
 

That’s it. 

[PretentiousHuman]

January 1, 2020 9:08am

New Year, New Me. 

 Stop anything that is making you miserable and not doing you any good. Start and continue doing what will build you and what makes you feel good. 
 

This time, it will all be you, only. 

[PretentiousHuman]

January 2, 2020

It’s OK. 
 

It’s OK when you feel sad. It’s OK when you feel happy. Take it all in. The good and the bad. What’s important is to always move on. 
 

Focus. Do what you think is for you. Honor yourself. 
 

Be You. 

[PretentiousHuman]

January 3, 2020 4:00pm

Fuck it!

Forget your diet, gym sessions, meditations. Do what makes you happy. 
 

Then sleep after. 

[PretentiousHuman]

January 5, 2020 3:32am

One of the worst day of my life. 
 

I don't know what to do. I have been in panic mode for more that 48 hours now. I dont know why this happened. Is it the seeking? But your name is what im always calling. Precious, what did i do wrong? Always needing some answers. 
 

Rest now oh turbulent mind. I cannot bear it anymore. Peace is what i need. Come quickly so i can have rest and tranquility. 
 

Peace is what i give to you. 

[PretentiousHuman]

January 5, 2020 5:06am

I AM my worst enemy. 
 

Will make a poem regarding that later. I am seeing now why. And it’s very liberating. 
 

Thank God. 

[PretentiousHuman]

January 5, 2020 9:14 pm

Not feeling well, again. 
 

My throat hurts. My head aches. My body pains. Is this going to persist? I have been drinking my vitamins but it is not enough. I need to see a doctor if he can give me more medications to feel better. 
 

Im sorry body to make you feel this way again. I will take care of you now. 
 

Bounce back bro.