aklacor727

Limiting beliefs surrounding sexuality

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I am working on opening my sacral chakra, shadow work surrounding that, and trying to get in touch with the emotional blockages, etc...

I've had a decent amount of trauma surrounding being taken advantage of sexually,  and I know theres things I'm not conscious of that is holding me back from fully being able to be whole and free in my sexuality. 

I'm starting with trying to uncover some limited beliefs, but it's difficult.  I have uncovered one,  where I discovered a belief of mine that if I allow someone to do kind things for me (especially when it involves money) they will hold it over me and take advantage of me. This stems back to a friend of my parents when I was younger who tried to offer me money in exchange to let him touch me inappropriately, after I accepted money from him previously for him rewarding me for "doing good in school and getting good grades". ? But yea, uncovering this belief, where it stemmed from, and looking back at how I have unconsciously avoided people in relationships being generous toward me, I realized how it has paradoxically lead to me being taken advantage of in another way (as I continuously attracted people that were far more content with receiving rather than giving).

Other than the money and generosity thing,  I have some sort of limiting belief down there in me that I cant quite put my finger on, having to do with thinking I shouldn't emit sexuality. If I do, I'm gonna attract people that just want me for that,  n will toss me to the side when they're done.  I know a healthy balance of this thinking could be beneficial, as this is realistic at times. .  But for me, I think it's at an unhealthy belief level.  Basically, I just can't quite let go and be free to be the fully sexual being that I know is deep down in there. 

As sexual abuse is somewhat common....is there anyone in here that has had similar experiences,  and gone into the work of uncovering these sorts of things things, and can share some perspective?

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