Surrendering is the ultimate path to mastery

[erik8lrl]

I have been singing everyday for over a year but never really getting better. I'm not taking courses and just singing for fun. However, today as I was singing "Lover, You Should've Come Over" by Jeff Buckley, I began to feel more and more deeply towards the song. I suddenly lost my sense of self, and I was in total surrendering. The singer and the song merged into one. (Of course, at the moment I was not aware of anything, only afterward I realized) My singing suddenly got better, so much so I can sign super high notes easily with chest voice. I was no longer having any problem with any notes, and I still don't have any problem now. Is like something open up in my voice. When I reflect on it, I realized that I can always sing like this, I was just too afraid of singing. When I was young, I had bad experiences that caused me to fear singing, and my ego rationalized it. I will always have a "logical" excuse not to sing fully. Like is too loud or I'm completely off tone. So I realized that the ultimate path to mastery is not hard work, but is surrendering.

The reason why we need hard work is that we are afraid of ourselves; we are so scared of losing our ego. This realization connects with a lot of other theories on art, such as the theory of wholeness by Christopher Alexander. Stating that things that are most whole/beautiful are things that are generated to create and enhance the wholeness of everything else interacting with it. Thus why nature is so beautiful. I think if we can surrender ourselves and surrender to wholeness, we will enhance the wholeness of everything else around us. And eventually, through infinite causality, reach the entire existence. I just wanted to share this great insight I gain today. Much love.