I am the mother of creation (psilocybe cubensis trip report pt 1)

[Bobby]

what: 2 dried grams of psilocybe cubensis

where: my girlfriend’s apartment in silent darkness

Welp, took my first trip! And what an experience it was. I learned a lot. Happened just a few hours ago, and I’m dying to share while it’s still fresh in my mind. Consider this a hot off the grill trip report. ;). I might make an updated version after I’ve integrated some more

1.) come up. Took the mushrooms whole with orange juice at around 11:30 pm. My girlfriend was about to leave to come home from a concert and her roomate was watching over me. 

Started feeling the effects at around the 20 minute mark. The first thing I noticed was that her room looked very pink- a nice salmon color. I listened to the John Hopkins psilocybin playlist and tried to relax as the come up was making me a bit anxious.

about an hour in and my girlfriend makes it home, just in time for the peak to begin. I hop in bed with her and proceed to trip as she falls asleep beside me

 

2.) the peak

before I get into describing the profound mystical experience I had, I would be remiss to not talk a bit about the visuals. It looked like I was in the damn jungle. My girl has popcorn ceiling and every single one of the dots morphed into an ant, all crawling around  holding little leaves the way they do. It was absolutely incredible. The closed eye visuals were ridiculous:  One image that sticks out is my own body, a lifeless corpse, spread out on the jungle floor, teeming with maggots and tiny mushrooms. Being digested by the earth and feeding new life.

Now for the awakening experience.

I went into a deep trance, to the point of not being able to tell whether I was awake or dreaming and having no sense of time or space. Any time the ego voice would attempt to assert itself waves of energy would mobilize to disintegrate it. I became directly conscious that I was God and that I was creating every experience through pure being, like Leo and others have described, but my mind interpreted it in a distinctly feminine way. I was, literally, the mother of creation and my womb was an emptiness which contained everything. I felt an immense love for my creation, an immense desire to comfort all those who hurt. And overwhelming love filled my being as I held all of existence within my womb. 

Truly incredible ego shattering experience. And evidence I think that you don’t need a high dose to have a profound trip.