Where I have come

[Guest SirVladimir]

Stages of my ego:

1) Completely unaware; started watching Actualized.org, 2017

2) More open-mindedness; the level of "Alright, getting interesting..."

3) Numerous degrees of "Oh!" and "How had I been that blind!"; still thinking conceptually

4) A lot of contemplating, influenced by ego's wishful thinking; "So I can be...!", "Nothing is impossible...!", "Magic everywhere!"

5) lmao. 

I've experienced a minor breakthrough after the latest episode. Feels like I'm contemplating/meditating at the back of my head almost 24/7. It always felt that way, but it's getting more distinct. I'm forgetting many more memories/thoughts before starting with Actualized.org. I'm 17. I cannot find the right words for the fantasy book I'm writing; my linear thinking is weaker - building up sentences, creativity. A lot of times I catch myself staring blankly around. I feel like I'm losing my mind. 

"I".

Edited October 31, 2018 by SirVladimir

[Dodo]

21 minutes ago, SirVladimir said:

Stages of my ego:

1) Completely unaware; started watching Actualized.org, 2017

2) More open-mindedness; the level of "Alright, getting interesting..."

3) Numerous degrees of "Oh!" and "How had I been that blind!"; still thinking conceptually

4) A lot of contemplating, influenced by ego's wishful thinking; "So I can be...!", "Nothing is impossible...!", "Magic everywhere!"

5) lmao. 

I've experienced a minor breakthrough after the latest episode. Feels like I'm contemplating/meditating at the back of my head almost 24/7. It always felt that way, but it's getting more distinct. I'm forgetting many more memories/thoughts before starting with Actualized.org. I'm 17. I cannot find the right words for the fantasy book I'm writing; my linear thinking is weaker - building up sentences, creativity. A lot of times I catch myself staring blankly around. I feel like I'm losing my mind. 

"I".

Lets contemplate in the heart