A interview with an enlightened Croatian nun.

[Dino D]

Hey guys, this is a long interview, its more like a short chapter.

This is a resource that the most of you can't get, because is not known, it's not commercial, and it only exist in croatian language, and evan in out country it is very rare that someone knows about this.

For translating i used google translate, but it think i did a good job, if some sentances dont make seasne i will try my best to explain it, just ask...

I would also like to say that she talks often with christian terminology, and maybe her understanding is a bit colored with christian theory and maybe she never heard about non duality and the typical non dual knowledge/sources, however I think its still a bautifull interveiw worth reading. So here we go:

Conversation with Edit Majić about Conversion, Call and Life in the Monastery: It is necessary to blindly believe in God and God will overcome fear, to everyone in their own way

 

In the middle of December, our portal brought exclusive news about the former popular Croatian actress Edita Majic, who shocked the local public several years ago by entering one of the strictest religious ranks in the world. Although her entry into the monastery of the bosomous Carmelites in Avila seemed to many as a (pre) radical move, Edita's sister decided to give her life more to Christ in the form of desert life (like a hermin i think). Given the great interest of our readers (as well as the general public) on this topic, we have decided to pass one of the rare, if not the only, interview with Edita published in the last few years, which seems to us deserves more attention. The conversation was originally published in 2013 in the Susret magazine in two parts, and with his sister Edit was led by his brother Dražen Marija of the Eucharistic Jesus Mercy (Dražen Marija Vargašević), a Carmelite monk and one of the founders of the desert-missionary Carmel of Mercy of God on the island of. We believe that you will enjoy this important and rich conversation that, unfortunately, has been relatively unheard of in the Croatian public space.

 

 

- Praise be to Jesus and Mary, sister Edita! Thank you for your willingness to share your experience of God and spiritual call with our readers. Many of you were known as a theater actress, and perhaps even more famous for your decision to leave the acting call and fully devote yourself to God's religious vows, here in Ávil, at the first monastery of the rebuilt Carmelites who founded the St. Theresa of Jesus. The readers will surely be pleased to get acquainted with your testimony. Can you start telling us what you generally do in life: to go ahead, to discover new things, to act as an actress? What made you feel in your heart and led you to artistic achievement as an actress?

 

From today's perspective I know that what God was wearing through me was always Him (today i know that in my whole life it was only God that was acting trought me). In every situation of life, I was in all my search (God was always there, in me). His presence was there and he was with me and He led me, but at that time I did not know him and I did not know he was present. In my heart I would feel the desire for learning, creating, for art, for beauty, for love, for truth, for the purpose ... All of my ways were actually the search for all that. In the end, they were seeking only Him, because in God I found an answer to all these questions. Not only to the ones I have mentioned, but to all the existing ones, which will ever be set up and ever set by anyone.

 

- So then the wish for God was anonymous, you were not aware ...

 

I was not even aware of it because I had no idea of God at all, I did not know him. I remember when I was like a little girl going to English at the University of Split, maybe I was nine years old. Another girl asked me, "Edita, do you believe in God?" No one ever asked me that. I could not say "yes" or "no". I said, "I do not know." That question then left forever, and perhaps from before, but then it was set. And even though I did everything outside life that I had chosen, I tried to find the answer to that question in my heart: "Who is God?", "Is There?", "Who Is He for Me?", " Do I believe in God? "But in order to believe something, one must know it; and to know something, or someone else, first you must love; and that he may be loved, he must first receive the love to be able to repent, because we are not the creators of love. Only God is love. A lot years later, maybe twenty, the Lord gave me this love. Then I could finally meet him and love him. I thank him forever on everything ...

 

What did you do to the good in that period? Which are you satisfied with that time? Is this just a search?

 

Yes, here's an excerpt. I was a middle school of art. It always seemed to me that what attracted me so much that I would go about it - whether it was music, art, foreign languages, for a while I even trained jumps in the water - they were all like some of my love, let me joy in all this. However, once reached, I would see that there is not much further in all this. In every achievement and play - the joy of the first premiere, the joy of the first bet, something you will do, the joy of being able to give something nice to you - always attracted me. However, after one role, what's next? The second role. After the second - the third and the end of life, I will not say unedogled because end of life ends this sequence. And what I wanted to apologize, when I was one in sixteen, at a high school, we were standing in front of the school, and we talked about what we would be in the future as anyone saw their life. I do not know what happened to me at that point, I said seriously: "If I see that all this makes no sense, I can be a nun." Everyone started to laugh, like, what stupidity I said! However, I was surprised by what I said with certainty and with what belief that the truth was what I was saying: Wait, this could really be, but where is that?

 

Life went on its way over to see if it made any sense (laughter), thinking a lot about it ...: "What is life?" "Real life ..."; "Who am I?"; "Where do I come from?"; "Where am I going?" "Who wanted me to be?" "Right now and here?" "I certainly must not, because I have no memory of ever having asked me to be born. My existence is not the fruit of my will; nor to my parents ... What, then, is the meaning of my existence? ... What is the reason why it is really worth living? If it is only this external ... these few years of living as pleasurable as philosophies "go to and fro," (a saying that is hard to translate, it like in me, for me, under me-hedonism) and then disappear in nothingness, with the body devoted to the feast of worms in some cold grave ... then it is better it will not be at all ... No, there must have been something more; something really worth the effort; something that will end all the longing for the heart to the end and forever; something that will not go wrong with the end of this worldly being, something absolutely, indomitable, eternal ... or was it ... Someone? "...

 

But as I have already said: one show, the other ...; one painting, the other ... I've never been able to fill this up to the end. There has always been a void behind the show. My desire to donate to others, to do something nice, remained after the show just to pay off all the effort if at least one person liked something if anything in the soul changed something more ... anything too little too.

 

And then a bunch of things stirring up the side, a bunch of things that want to get you out of some of the good efforts that are just there because they're in your heart, somebody put them there. But the world, the world we live in, is trying to suffocate in us every spark of light. The world in us wants to suffocate every spark of light and goodness, invites us to selfishness, to hedonism, to fulfill our lusts, to neglect for another, to despise life, to despise everything that is good. I'm talking about the world in a negative sense, not about the world as God's creature, which is good. I'm talking about the world that surrendered the influence of the Evil, absurd, stupid, miserable, and miserable. I'm talking about a world that falls into ruin, into eternal ruin. I'm talking about souls who will die for the second time, about the souls who knowingly give up Love in exchange for a little transient terrestrial joy that is not terrestrial.

 

How did you feel you were loved by God?

 

It is difficult, it is impossible to convey words ... This encounter with God of love was a double one. It can be said that it once happened as a flash, an unexpected gift of his love pouring into your being, absolutely, violently, unequivocally, untenable, and ultimately ending. But all of these details I have been talking about and a lot of them, from birth to this point, were His calls, the hint of His arrival in His love, which I was quite unhappy to experience, to know. It was like a blind man from birth, whose eyes suddenly opened: the eyes of the body, the eyes of the heart, the eyes of the soul. Suddenly everything became clear to me. All the questions I asked had been answered. Through this encounter, through God's Word, through the Holy Mass I went to daily - sometimes two or three times a day at this beginning, though I did not know or respond to my own - simply He carried me, He pulled me by Him, He introduced me u se. I felt obsessed with His love, filled. Nothing was important to me, just to get back to what I received. My wish to be donated, which was in part in various ways, would be said, fulfilled, but not ... here it has now grown to an infinite scale. To be a gift, a gift for Him, a gift to others. To live for Him and for others. To die for Him and for others. Give it to Him and to your neighbor. Give yourself, forget yourself, be like God, not in terms of size and glory, but just the opposite: in the sense of goodness, humility, and this immense love. This can only be achieved if He lives through us, as St. Paul: "I live no more, but Christ lives in me."

 

Many encounter a meeting with the Lord as a powerful turn, conversion. Then it's a long way to go. It is necessary to slowly die for the world, body, evil and to be born into a new life, to become a new man. What in your experience you can advise those who have experienced God's love. How do you grow in it?

 

It is most important to open that love of God to believe in it. For someone who did not know God and has met him at once, the thing may seem strange. After the first enthusiasm, we can see the suspicions of the truth ... It is necessary to go forward, never return to the old age.

 

- Where is the spiritual call to that response to God's love, what does he mean?

 

A spiritual call is always a call from God. Spiritual calling is like faith, an undaunted gift. The Spiritual call is felt in the heart as a desire to be completely belonged to Him, to serve Him alone, to Him Himself eternally and perfectly loving, to please Him in all likelihood. The spiritual call is felt in the heart as a question, "Do you want me to ascend?" As a call to end it to the end, to trust in Him. For the spiritual call of the soul there is no power. A spiritual call is His work, like everything in us. He does everything. Ours is only a little bit, but it is important to him "yes" or "no". Freedom has also been given to us. We can always say "no," but to the soul who truly met God's love, I dare say, it is impossible to say "no" to God's call.

 

- How did you get it?

 

After the first encounter with the Lord, in the first months after the beginning of conversion - which is a lengthy process - the thought and the immense desire to be a nun, and immediately the Carmelite, appeared in me. In prayer I understood that in life I could remain without everything, but absolutely without all except God, without Our Lady. They are the most valuable we have. When we have God, then we have everything, because if something is, it is just because it is in God. If not, he would not have existed. That desire in me was bigger and bigger every day, and I was not sure if this was truly God's will or it was just my turn, my intent after meeting with Him. My whole situation as a actress was a bit peculiar because it seemed to me unlikely that God would like to invite someone who lived a life different from the one who lives a dedicated devotee to God ... Mostly, these doubts made me the greatest pain. If I believed in my doubts that God did not call me, my soul was immensely sad. When I believed in the notion that I did not have a vocation, these were the worst ailments. And in moments when I would believe that there was a possibility that God would call me, I felt like in heaven. That was how it lasted, through prayer, for five years. Besides doing this at the theater, I did everything as before. However, since my encounter with the Lord my life has changed: I would not stay at night anymore in the theater, I stopped going out, entertained in various ways, interrupted with some habits that did not bring any good, I devoted myself to some things that I might it should have been done earlier ... Actually, the setting of my life has changed completely. If I acted, I acted for Jesus. All I did, I did for God. Even so, the job that was no longer interested in me, as part of my work for God, had its immense value, just like everything else, because it is not so important what it is doing, but to do so in the love of God. In my soul I somehow knew that the Lord would give me the assurance that He truly calls me, that my desire is not just mine but that it is His. I highly recommended the Lady (in Zagreb I was with him daily in prayer at the Stone Gate) and St. Josipu (I went to my favorite saint). They helped me to seek God's answer. Finally, through the special intercession of Our Lady of Medjugorje, God made me understand that he really invited me to the convent, in Carmel, as I was in the first moment and felt in the soul.

 

How does God talk to the soul so that she can understand it clearly?

 

(laughter) So God has his own ways. God is proclaiming to each soul the way that soul can best understand it. God does not speak only in one way. God is endless. His words of soul are endless, inexhaustible. At all times, God speaks the way He wants and how the soul can best understand it.

 

- Are you talking about other people too?

 

It speaks through other people, through events, circumstances, over when we stumble, we want something and it is not realized ... or is realized (laughter). Talking across, seemingly, coincidence. It speaks through certain signs, something that soul can mean. He talks through his prayer through prayer, reading the Holy Scripture, spiritual revelation, holy confession, spiritual conversation, adoration of the Blessed Sacrament ... can speak even with his silence ..., silence ... In all this Enemy is active. He tries to imitate the signs of God's Word of mind. That is why this important discernment, a lot of prayers and spiritual guidance - so that the voice of God may be revealed from the one who wants to turn from the path, the signs of God from those who are almost like them.

 

- What is the main difference between one and the other?

 

The main difference is that when God says the soul, when you want to give some sign of your presence, your will, then in the soul the peace, the joy, the sky, the soul is love to all and to everything, the soul is immense in the soul, in the soul zest. Every tiredness disappears from the soul. The soul is all possible. And when it comes to the Enemy, then there is anxiety, fear, dissatisfaction, nervousness, sorrow, difficulty, hardness, deafness, malice, sadness, sadness and sorrow, which does not have to be revealed at the very beginning.

 

- What is the meaning of a clause for a person who feels the need to return God's gift to life?

 

So much, it means everything. The clause is God's wish. The clauses are the "King's Chambers" in which He brings souls specially selected to be completely His only and for Him. God's call to life in the clause is a call to the total omission of everything ... and even ourselves - from the love of God. The call to life in the clause is radical. He must necessarily live endlessly and without polarity.

 

In this frantic world, which wants to have more and more insight, possess ... the joy of life in the clause is one of the most powerful evidence that "only God is sufficient".

 

In conversion, living with God, calling ... prevails only the desire to do God's will to the end. Strangely enough, someone would think, "Well, God is somewhere big, far, unobtrusive, somewhere in the sky. What does he have to think about where and how? Is this or that space? "In the end, it is no different, but if God wants something, then it is not the same. God cares for us, the little creatures, his creatures, his beloved children, so that our hair does not fall from us, and that He does not know and does not want it. How would you not think of the space that wants us? After all, we are created as physical, spiritual and spiritual beings. He thinks of each of our dimensions and if we are in space he knows why this space, he knows why that time. He knows why separation from the world, and it is enough for He knows. It is enough for me to do it. I like what John the Baptist has said: "It is for me to be diminished, and He to grow." The fulfillment of the will of God is always and only to the glory of God. That's how it should be. If He thinks my life will be used for her glory in that area or in the other, so be it. However, it puts us in the heart and desire for that space, precisely for that life. It puts us clarity about the place he wants us, about the kind of life she wants from us. He worries about every small detail and if we know him, and if we are in constant contact with Him - and when I say "constant contact" I do not mean only fifteen minutes of prayer, holy mass, than twenty-four hours of conversation with God, friendship with God, life with God and God, He is closer to us than closest to him, closer to his closest friend, family, father, mother - why is it so difficult for us to ask what He thinks of everything He wants?

 

- When God's desire is recognized and accepted, in the freedom of surrender and repentance to his infinite love, what does the soul feel then?

 

Peace, lightness, breadth, joy, happiness that never ends. Everything I've just said and much more. Almost all right, even at the surface of the fury of storms, which can also happen.

 

- How to deal with these storms? How do you go ahead when you pressed?

 

Trust to believe, let him lead you, be sure that He is always with you, even if you do not feel it, knowing that He ultimately left it for your good. Be prepared to be patient, be ready to fight, be ready to take the cross, be prepared to do just the opposite of what the world is telling you, and that is that you must always be comfortable, that you must always be good, that you must always be healthy, that you have to be attractive and young, that you have to have everything, that you have to be the best, the most, the least, the most, and the most important ... And if you are a little winter, if you are a little hard then you should do it all to pass it. Simply, he repeatedly repeats: "Get off the cross!" You should be prepared to completely oppose the suffering; hug the cross. After all, Jesus is with us, He is with us. Our suffering and his suffering, united, have great power, purity, redemption power; because it is not suffering because of suffering but suffering from love. According to Him, to the souls. The measure of love is as much as we are willing to sacrifice for the beloved. After all, He gives us strength for everything and sooner or later again gives us light. And then there is a moment to make a decision ... in the time of peace, of course, because it is only then clearly seen.

 

- What do people mean by that road, friends, community members?

 

I think people are God's great fortune on our way. Every creature, every person, all that God gives us is a great gift. According to every person God puts close to us, we should feel immense gratitude for the gift of life to that person, for the gift of opportunity to love, to love God through that person, that God loves that person through us, to love that person in God and to ask him so, to approach him so close. And each and every person God puts on our way is for our good and for us to come closer to him, especially the people of our community ... Makar has people who want to prevent us in our path for a variety of reasons. But to those who love God, God turns to good, and also to meet with those people. Here I am speaking in general about the people God puts on our path. Certainly, as far as nurses in my community are concerned, I love each and every one of them for me a gift from God, unique and unrepeatable, and I also want to be for them and for God in them. And we are indeed helping on this path to the eternal homeland, on the way to Him.

 

- A normal, healthy young man has great desires, ideals. He wants to change the world, fix what is corrupt, what has burdened him and burdens him in his upbringing. How does the desire to change the world join the spiritual calling?

 

I believe that changing the world can best be influenced if you respond to God's call. When it comes to the religious calling of a monk, a nun of all gives himself to the Lord. So all its potentials, what it is, what it could be, what it was, what it will be, everything, everything, everything is for God. God is endowed to the end and God has it. I do not think anyone is worried anymore for the world to be God, but to God. God can do everything alone. He does not need us, but God wants us, God wants to serve us. That is why he calls us to be his little instruments that he continues to operate in the world and change the world; invites us to participate with Him in the construction of the Kingdom of God on earth. God knows how to use us. We do not need to ask too many answers. God gives us, at any time, signs that He leads us all. What we need to do most in the past is to cooperate with God's grace to do our best to change the very best of ourselves. Let's fight first against the evil in us; Let us first seek out our sanctification and the world will be better for one person; and then our example of joyful living with God and for God will have a special strength of testimony and will be an incentive to others that they too will choose to follow God's path.

 

- What then would she say to our young readers who are echoing in the heart of God's voice that He needs them on the path of complete devotion? Maybe it's not clear to them, but this question is always coming back, I can not escape it. They are afraid of them and live with that call. What would you say to them?

 

First of all I would say - as the Scriptures say: "Fear is a lack of love" - to open love, to believe in the end of God. Fear is not from God, fear of the enemy. The indecision is from the enemy. Annihilation is from an enemy. Fear is not true. The one who trusts God ultimately does not fear anything. It is necessary to blindly believe in God and God will overcome fear for everyone, to everyone in their own way.

 

- John Paul II he strongly said, "Do not be afraid." The present Holy Father repeated this by adding, "Christ does not take away anything from you ..."

 

... but gives everything. It's true. It's always a matter of fear for one's own person.

 

- A man is afraid he will not be accomplished, he will lose something precious, he will be bad ...

 

Yes, yes ... It may be afraid of mistakes and it seems like we make a mistake: "There is no back, we are wrong now and now it's over." How are you going to be, how are you going to be? Without fear! The beauty of our faith is that when we make a mistake, there is always more, there is always hope, we can always start from scratch. It's never ending, it's never too late. God always waits for us. Why not take the risk of God, why not try? If I can not do it, that's why. At least for a piece of humor I will be more humble, and that is already a lot. Success is not a measure of our value, success in the eyes of men, in the eyes of the world, in the eyes of ourselves, given what we think of ourselves and how much we love ourselves. Our success and our achievement is only so, if we faithfully do God's will. Only then will we be happy, whatever it is.

 

There needs to be a risk, to dive, to go. This is valid for a spiritual call, but it is valid for a double call.

 

Surely! Because especially young people today, before they get married and thinking of getting married, they are scared most of all for life. They are not sure of themselves - are they able to do it: whole life with the same person when problems come up and when this is when it is ... It is always the problem of all these fears that we rely too much on ourselves, too much to count on ourselves and knowing how good today we are today, we are bad tomorrow, the day after tomorrow who knows where I am ... we are dead creatures and then we are developing into fears. However, one must trust God, believe that He leads all. Decide to go with Him, give His life to His hands, put God in the first place, and then only give up to the other. And God will bless it, then God will guide it. His power and His love is the one that feeds the love of two young people. Of course, by the sacrament of marriage, because the sacrament has immense power. The sacrament is the one who gives us the strength to be able to stay with each other, but the sacrament is made consciously, from love to God and to the person I love. In this sacrament, spouses become one in God, and while living they can not be separated any more.

 

- What if a young man doubles between marriage and spiritual calling, attracting him a little, little else?

 

I can speak from my experience. The God puts us in the heart. While I was thinking about what God wanted, he helped me with a story about St. Francis. Ignatius. It seems to me that he said, "If we want to know what God wants of us, let us be in a position to observe our eternal life, to observe our life lived in a family, married or devoted to God in the monastery. What seems most appealing to us, how we would like to have lived our whole life, is what God wants. "And just the sign of devotion to a consecrated life or marriage is that desire that is in the heart that is strongly drawn towards a certain direction what God has prepared for us. I think this is the greatest indication of the vocation ... and the persistence we want this to be realized because the call is first felt as the desire, the need for the heart, the soul.

 

- Thank you again, sister Edith Mary of the Cross, or Mother Edith - here in Spain you are so concerned. May the good God continue to take care of his way. We pray to you all the readers and staff of this list at the beginning of their presentation, in order to be to the glory of God and to the benefit of souls. This your testimony and prayer support we hope are a great contribution to this endeavor.