Releasing judgement and cynicism

[Butters]

Ever since starting my business I've become so practical and utilitarian. For example my Muay Thai coach took me out for dinner and I immediately thought "yeah but I pay him 1000 baht per private lesson, he only paid 500 for dinner once so that's still not much". Or when service staff is being kind and friendly to me I immediately think "that's just their job".

Perhaps when I was younger I was really naive with this stuff, but now I feel like I've overcorrected. 

Same with girls. I just think "they're only into me because of these biological reasons". It's just annoying. Like I've fallen too deeply in love with my own rational mind. And can you blame me? That is after all what's given me this lifestyle. 

So put simply:

• Young me: naive, anxious, irresponsible.
• Now me: cautious, self correcting, rational 
• Future me: less rigid, gets shit done through pure magic. Proper SD Green integration.

Edited 16 hours ago by Butters