100 days

[MaxV]

100

So, I've been looking for ways to become more active on the forum. I've been lurking for quite some time, occasionally posting here and there on more trivial matters. 
 

In 100 days, I'll be turning 35.

I've spent a lot of this year soul-searching. And the thing is, I'm about as lost as I can be.

Don't get me wrong. I'm quite content with certain aspects of my life, and some things are going pretty well. But there's this lingering feeling that there's still so much more to do, learn, and discover. So much untapped potential to explore.

Well, day one has already been a bit rough. My dad is currently hospitalized in Sweden after suffering a serious fracture. Thankfully, his girlfriend is there with him, and it looks like arrangements have been made for his return home this Thursday.

I'm posting this mainly as a way of holding myself accountable.

The goal of this 100-day journey isn't necessarily to undergo some massive transformation. It's more about observing myself, reflecting, and giving myself a few gentle nudges in the right direction.

I'm also picking up the Life Purpose Course (LPC) again, which I had been working on previously.

I'll be sharing more about myself over the coming days.

Let's see where this goes.

[MaxV]

99

So, I think it's best to introduce myself a bit in this post, as well as map out where I'm at (whatever that even means) at the moment.

If I really think about it, I actually find it both easy and difficult to describe myself.

I'd consider myself to be about as average as it gets, both in terms of looks and intelligence. I might even say that I'm lagging behind my peers in certain areas, although I also realize that a lot of these comparisons are made up in my own head.

But I've always been curious. I've always asked a lot of "why" and "what if" questions. Life in general really interests me, even if it sometimes takes me quite a while to wrap my head around certain things.

I came across Actualized.org in 2017.

I'd recently dated a girl I was head over heels in love with. I was still pretty naive, thinking that if two people really clicked, things would probably work out.

Oh boy, did I find out otherwise.

This particular heartbreak hit me pretty hard. I think my naivety made it even worse. It took me months to get over her.

At some point, I started Googling things like "how to stop feeling awful", and that's when I came across The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and Actualized.org, particularly the video about self-acceptance.

A lot of interesting things started happening after that.

The book itself clicked with me pretty quickly. And when I read about the "awareness behind thought", something happened. I experienced a subtle shift in consciousness, or awareness. It's a little hard to describe.

That marked the beginning of my journey into self-development and my growing interest in all these topics.

Tomorrow is going to be interesting too.. Hopefully i finally pass the driverstest for the motorcycle.