On the subject of chaos (its sortve like, rare to even speak of)

[kavaris]

Maybe yous can help me figure this one out, cause i think, at the heart of what there is to contend w/  eventually,  is something thats free of everything, but its free in such a way that its chaotic, hence we are trying to take an organized thing, and start to introduce some landmark of an understanding towards chaos ...

The only little nuance here, being that we are coming from these organized lives, its sortve to take it for granted,  as if one can truly understand it, but its like, its this idea that we can only hope to cope w/ i guess, i mean, to even speak of it is illusive, but we must try and understand it, As its getting to the bottom level of existence, prior to layers and layers of having existed, or atleast, thats as much as i could even say to that.

I was more so thinking of it like, how to talk around it, Cause i hate to say this, but must people just assume theyve had some understanding of whats going this whole time, but the whole point is that theres like, a defeated sense to what it would be like to contend with whatever this chaos is (for now its just a feeling i feel is needed), to really accept however, and "what it is", that can be a catalyst towards understanding the self in a new way (and reality, as its created). I dont actually know like, how  (at this moment) , like, how we are to talk around it, but theres gotta be a way to feel it out, i mean, Are we here to spruce it up, like primp ourselves up? or are we here to challenge each other?

The video was just the first thing that came up w/ keyword "chaos".

[kavaris]

Continuing now...

E.g. the solution to a chaotic mind, according to kenji or menji watever his name is, is like this "Ambiance"?

Someone used this word recently, and i dont know where, but i remember thinkin, that word is interesting, Like, Yeah.... YEAH, Why is it Ambiance that we think is like, the key to chaos, like its a mode, a style maybe, but not a key... Its a way to be, to feel, but its not a key to open any doors, i mean, maybe it is to some people, And they can appreciate it, that much.

But like, what? Im listening to the video, so if he does say something that sticks out, ill be honest and say "woops, i was wrong, and i feel bad" sortve thing.

p.s. i got to @54:00, im done w/ that. We're on some different shyt on actualized, or atleast i am, read the first post here. kenji can stick it up his arse, as im not talkin bout complacency with anything at all, And if anything, im talking about the inner fire where complacency or urgency, etc , is made possible. thank you menji, goodbye.

Edited 5 hours ago by kavaris