Don Aapo de San Miguel Journal

[Bittu]

Hey. I'm a 30 year old guy living in Helsinki, Finland. I took psychedelics as a teenager, and it was an awakening to oneness like no other. I had felt earlier that I was kind of misfit almost. I met a guy and he talked about taking mushrooms. He was unusually polite and generous, and really friendly with me. So I became friends with him and we started smoking weed. We had a blast and I was new to weed back then. We played Playstation and talked and it was a really epic time with him. That was the first time I heard of mushrooms. I ended up taking them later with friends. I remember still laughing very hard when taking them.  

I started to smoke weed more often and we had a group of friends back then. We experimented with many substances. The funny thing about it is that we bought stuff with bitcoin back then and one of the first times ordering hash from the Internet, we paid one bitcoin for a gram of hash. (10 euros back then).

We got into psychedelics and that is when the fun really began. We did LSD a few times and I really fell in love with trance music. I found out about Leo probably from a tweet back then, or maybe I was aware of him due to being in the self improvement niche a little bit by doing searches on psychology. It all started with RSDTyler and friends since I was a teen who was kinda socially awkward sometimes. I found out about Mark Manson's content through someone suggesting the book Models and I proceeded to download it illegally. I started following Leo quite a while ago, just a year or two after he got started with Actualized.org.

After my psychedelic experiences I was a little bit confused and trying to make sense of it all. Leo really opened my eyes and explained it really well to me. I had never heard such an explanation of it and what it really means. He is really good at explaining his trips and comprehending them I think.

So I started to watch a lot of Leo's content and watched it for a good few years whilst learning to meditate and doing sometimes psychedelics and even moving to Portugal for the legal psychedelics and did 5-MeO DMT in there. It was a wild trip, and I gave my friend some too and he became so meditative. Just silent. Myself I had a realization about life's dangerousness in a way - in the end we are here in nature and it's wild out there.

I took the Life Purpose course and started pursuing my LP as a musician. Took more courses on it and I started to make music full time. I became dad to my kid 7 years ago, I must have been 23 or 24 years old. Even then I had followed Leo for quite a long time. I just never got around commenting on it that much, since I was really busy watching the content and really mind blown at the same time like many of us are really mind blown due to Leo's talent as a creator and philosopher mystic.

So a huge fan of Leo and I always will be. Thanks Leo and Actualized.org people for all the wonderful content and love out there. You are the best.