Success, but no stress

[Optimized Life]

On 10/07/2026 at 2:14 AM, Optimized Life said:

Try find strength once again 

Try let go all my regrets once again 

Try let go of the pain

It's all the fucking same 

But im still sain, justin pain

I dont think im to blame 

Just the cards I was dealt 

Stress from my feet through my head

It's a chain, I feel cursed and poisoned like lead 

I'm in pain, as i write this verse in my head

Yeahh, stress from my feet through my head 

Its medical, not recreational as I lift this blunt on my bed 

These are the rawest flows dont call me ted, talk no more 

Only chalk, chalk and flows that I draw   

I don't promote drugs only greatness, 

im not a role model but im chosen to be somebody dont mistake this

Not just another dude, an ordinary guy with some regular shoes 

Pleasant and safe, home insurance but no gold in the safe, married a 6 at 30, alimony at 40, 

Met her through work never learnt to be flirty

Never took a risk

Always did what his parents think 

Cosey home and that wine he drinks, with his bored wife who emotionally cheats

And denies sex 6 times a week 

That could never be me

That shit make me freeze 

Only 4 9s, and a dozen palm trees 

And a 4 by 4 in the cana isles,  in fall 30 degrees 

Only abundance im relentless 

Even when my family look in my eyes and tell me i cant and i know that they meant it 

And they know that money I spent it 

But I know i had to invest it

Insomnia life and stress got me restless 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited Tuesday at 01:20 AM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

I want so much money it overflows it frightening 

Weatherman make it rain but all this capital i make lightning 

Corporate charm but i know im a warrior im a Viking 

Core tennet of game is marry the game dont chase the fame, 

Notice the bad luck and pray but only find yourself to blame,

Same time elevate and dont fall to shame, guilt is a cancer that shit only inflame  

I keep vaping is it heavy metals that going to my brain 

Can I even feel the stress in my veins? 

same shit another night i smoked a blunt to heal the pain 

But im still logical and sain, i should quits the carcinogens and just mediate away 

Edited Tuesday at 01:40 AM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

Another night,

Smoked another blunt to numb the stress and the pain 

Another night but no more i feel the same 

Insomnia down but still sleep late 

Te, structure, goals, waking up early 

I think insomnia going now i have nothing to blame 

I think i need Te again 

Clarity, note book & pen, schedulling on sundays

Meaningful big goals but specifics, measured, Deadline

Move x y date z in bank 

Also input based goals/standards, aided by sunday time schedule

Output goals for the energy, motivation and dreaming LOA & deadlines, pressure make diamond

Input goals for grounding to reality, ensuring consistency, clear cause & effect progression, trackable self honest daily momentum and using the principle of minimum standards (not, "I would like to do x 3 hours per day but, doing x y amount per day is a hygiene standard, with no days off)

Time structure that frames every day, organized and mechanistic machine ENTP

Ofc daily checklist/review for input goals, especially simple task box icon checklist

Lets do this, build leverage i turn the crank

Yeah I wanna brake the bank

Insomnia going down getting back into professionalism 

I need a tailored old money suit to wear 

Introspective me is over for now, I am now mechanistic old money suit wearing money machine psychopath.

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Edited 1 hour ago by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

My tolerance to THC has become so high its now a futile compulsive activity 

No pleasure, not even noticeable sedation or relaxation anymore

It is just money and energy burning ritual at this point 

Has just become a meaningless, pleasureless autopilot habit  

And how boring would it be if i pulled a cool liberal chick or met some new friends who wanted to smoke up, in like some fucking tropical forest and i just didnt feel anything in that moment ... Everything has its time and place, smoking alone constantly is super lame and i knew this but tbh it was just a desperate response to chronic insomnia 

Still i completely forgot about and underestimated how powerful tolerance is with weed, and tolerance like this makes it extremely expensive because i'd have to reload 3-5x/week and still not get much out of it, then i'd also have to smoke a lot of carinogen just to get a fraction of the effect too so its unhealthy 

i will leave it for a month so i can enjoy it ritualistically again

Edited 1 hour ago by Optimized Life