Rise UP

[Shari]

This journal will be a record of my efforts to become a better person wholly. I will talk about my goals, my fears, my motivations, my dreams, my conversations with my spirit guides, and anything else that has to do with my advancement as a human being in 2026. Today is day one. Tomorrow I will rise. I will not sleep in. I will make my appointments as well as commit to some serious writing for the day. I will watch what I eat and keep my living space clean. I live a minimalistic lifestyle, so it will be much easier for me to clamp down on things and focus. I will remain a vegetarian. I will call my mother faithfully every day as she wants me to. I will stick to my schedule properly. There will be no drugs, drinking, or smoking. This is my chance at becoming the person I've always wanted to be. I am almost already there, I just have to fine-tune things consistently, and my life will be complete with a humble grace. See ya.

[Shari]

Today I was walking down the street, and someone I recognized from my past was walking toward me, saying out loud, "Drugs? There's a school right there, and I found drugs?!" Apparently, he did find a larger baggie of meth (I could see from where I stood), and he was pissed. He never used frugs back then, and I guess he's still not practicing. Good for him. The thing is, if he had taken a different way, he would not have found the baggie, and I would have, no doubt about it. That is why I firmly believe that God arranged things to happen as they did, so that I wouldn't have the burden of finding it, wondering what to do with it, and possibly screwing up my sobriety. In hindsight, I don't think I would have used it, but selling it or giving it away is no better, right? I'm just grateful it happened the way it did (It still would have been a great fing, though, my addict mind is saying to me. Stupid, eh.).