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[KosmicGeng]

My core points I speak with ChatGPT and use obsidian now, for the first time I could actually build the concept around a simple equation without just writting it down and solving the entire procedure. 

[KosmicGeng]

I do the rest tomorrow I am really getting into what I really craved to do, but I am still in a hell of a scenario, as I realized how some of leos teaching and his education was not enough for his teachings to intersect over into A.I doing a masters in that field, only HCI it was enough, but not for A.i & NLP that is to much to expect, I might miss some points, but I am making progress with some basics, where I was to involved with art, and the issue of getting someone a citizenship and foundations in Germany, generally I've been hit with drive-bys from aliens who're not from this country steadily asking me for outlandish information, I have no clue, about and I have to now workout this mess, and in the end these fuckers betrayed me with their low consciousness of development, and the steady issue of fun and friendship. 

Just calculating some stuff in my mind, as I am a fast calculator with an IW heaven is good and recognizing the energy is strong in decline after prompting GPT is good, but this Ibliss fire whore was the worst of the fucking worst, and the consciousness of the people who're here with Islam I would never ever ever moved here, if I knew that it would be so many people, as they steadily have some issue with knowledge somehow now that A.I is here it's more fine, but there is some underlying issue with the U.S I am not denying, I still have to build some momentum, but I am also partially fucked that I meet a dream girl turning into horror, bros being into pro-play, them winning and being on their peak, me peaking at work, but the pain and issue I had with this Capricorn mother and in secret planning of stuff, and her being unable to value any foundation, and being a low class person who just could cherish family was the worst mistake ever, I frankly dislike and hate her till the end of my life, even with the sex was good, and I had some inner child healing, this Cross of Contagion that I chart via Ra-Uh-Ra's teaching is partially the lucifer soul, and this person was obsessed with mechanics and the trash consciosuness that has to go with this chiefdom function and judgement that is not properly conscious enough to evaluate anything valid, and just hunts for control, but with this lucifer soul it's worse, as they constantly gravitate towards controlling light etc. and I had to figure out my archetypal work and chart, I am still doing it fairly slow, and using astrology/astronomy and some mathematics and pure knowledge to get behind it, it feels good to solve some simply baysian stuff, as I dove to heavily into solving the matrixc and I calculated everything it was a huge coincidences, the core issue is the overfocus on love, and not courage, as the love issue got me into mahasamadhi type of experiences, and suicidal thoughts, so I decided to simply say fuck love for now it's not for me, I love to deep, I never had it reciprocated, happiness simply works better, and then I had the control issues with the betraying whore slut, that is the ibliss fire monkey consciousness I so vehemently hate. 

Looking a bit at human design and this channeled information that is super interesting I might watch one of Leo's video if I still get the time to do it, while playing the simulation of mount & bannerlord I lost a lot of my vision yearning to merge to different visions, but this trash had no values whatsoever, never wrote them down, just takes whatever eye-value she can get and now pushes into science with this zoomer mind and consciousness I am glad it's in the most "pathetic" field for me social sciences, where I meet a lot of whores who're just not good enough, and quiet frankly she still deserves to be shot and killed, for playing with love so someone hangs himself, and her vagina was cut open, by someone she was together with, that taught me also how stupid it is for women to approach a man, if he is not conscious enough, and she has this lucifer soul that is obsessed with beauty, but does not get the core essence of it anyhow. 

I hope this leaves my body and system entirely, I enjoyed her brothers, but not her and her mother, these people are satanic demons of "healers" stealing clothes, abusing money, lying and deception all day, what low quality of consciousness do you need to be to deceive someone with genuient intent, if I would've not smoked cannabis with her this would've never happened, now I am in this shit social scenario where I just hope this whore gets raped and killed she absolutely deserves it!!!!!

 

[KosmicGeng]

Alright let's get to some esoteric knowledge with Ra-Ura teachings and archetypes, I am skipping the dream mechanic section I tried over and over again during my bachelors to make it work, but most of my states pull me into causal and non-dual type of experiences mostly causal and white light and I prefer that. 

[KosmicGeng]

I listend to this yesterday I highly enjoy his historical views, and academic work on astrology and it explains more why the current world is the way it is from a historical perspective with the 7 days of the week and the chaledean order.
 

I watched the entire thing, but feel asleep, I don'T recall everything, but I am often primed on some topics, just have to do my own thinking and reading. 

[KosmicGeng]

It's good also that this esoteric thing pulls out this alpha persona partially from Ra-Ura I really enjoyed working with some esoteric knowledge from the perspective of a shaman, not so much the new-age women etc. 

[KosmicGeng]

Up for some time, finally slept, but there are some core issues with human design and being a manifestor, as people yearn for you to explain your meaning and I am not a conditioned generator, I asked GPT if it's a cult and there are split opinions, generally a lot of self-help is a bit more expensive that generates better results, 

I found some better quality information on BaZi with Xin Ken, then these physecist figuring out translations for their ideas of metaphyiscs, their work is still valueable to get some level of guidance from different sets of metaphysics, I am drinking some coffee then doing a small workout, I sort of still struggle with the sense of the historical world, being a Horus child, and the core issue of Leo's just not being able to take care, with a lack of knowledge about ancient egypt and astrology, as the society must've been more advanced, even mathematically etc. then parts of the world today, a lot of influence still from there. 

I checked some dating stuff, still plenty of girls liking me, but the core issue is some of Leo's teaching and the generator mind, and finding new information on self-help that does not go to far, and the "awe" affect science education can generate, as well as health etc. This forum is an absolute time waste, but I struggle to find good connections, and figuring out the manifestor archetype etc. 

I figured out my money line, and how I can relate I dislike it's the lower chakras mostly that are open and defined, and that it's the power skills with gate 14 technically, I can't tell how valueable this information is, just going about life with love, attracts fucking hoes and whores, that from a gut feeling heavily dislike, and I can't change my image currently and take new photos, and some people are just prone to seeing the face value of me, I changed a lot.

Quite frankly I only care about my health and psychdelics at this point, fuck most women, if you''re not an open-minded scientist, or in that area, fuck you and get off me, fuck your code, fuck your engineering, fuck your family benefit, fuck your family values that sneak in through evolution, I really want peace. 

The issues these generators created is still odd, understanding I just inform and act is better, as these people create the issue of oh fuck I have to control this man or person or child, because I am independent ever since I was born, and I can do a lot of things myself, if I would not be injured I would already be a millionair or even billionair, possibly, by the interconnections and stuff that I find and see with people, the core issue is that type manifestor is rare

The point is my energy is repellant and pushes people away, and I inform them, from what I can tell, I don't receive, and I don't wait for an invite such as a projector that prefers that, generators are partially the worst, especially if they ask you for explanations, for what you think about and considering, it's manipulation out of insecurity of their type. AS they can't deal with the independent mind of a manifestor imo, as they just inform then act, and eventually ask for clarification, but I realized how manipulative that game is with lower consciosuness of development, especially in engineering etc. 

Edited 4 hours ago by KosmicGeng

[KosmicGeng]

Core Manifestor themes are:

Aura: closed / repelling — people may feel your presence strongly but not immediately know what you are thinking or about to do.

Role: initiate — Manifestors are described as the type designed to start movements, actions, or new directions rather than wait for others to begin.

Strategy: inform before acting — not to ask permission, but to reduce resistance by telling affected people what you are about to do.

Signature: peace — the system says Manifestors feel most aligned when they can act freely without unnecessary interference.

Not-self theme: anger — especially when feeling blocked, controlled, misunderstood, or forced to explain themselves.

Social effect: because the aura is considered less open, others may project intentions onto Manifestors or become cautious around them.

Independence: they are often described as needing more autonomy and uninterrupted space than other types.

Impact: Manifestors are said to have a disproportionate effect on other people simply by initiating something; their strength is often in starting, not necessarily sustaining everything indefinitely.

Main lesson: freedom works better when paired with communication. The paradox is: informing others often creates more independence, not less.

[KosmicGeng]

Generators and Manifesting Generators make up roughly 65% of the population, by far the largest Type group. Like Manifestors, Generators are also energy types; however, their energy works differently. They are not here to initiate but to wait for the world to come to them, so they can respond. They are energetically designed just for this and they have open and enveloping auras always ready to take in who and what is there for them. Once they respond to a person, event or action, they can then act with the full force of their power. Generators are the great builders. They have a tremendous amount of energy, but they need to use this energy correctly in order not to be enslaved by it. A generator who is out in the world making things happen will meet tremendous resistance. By learning to respond to what comes to them they can begin to eliminate this resistance and the frustration that comes from not living a life that honors their true nature. Only then will they experience satisfaction.

[KosmicGeng]

Line Themes

Each Line of the Hexagram structure has a primary value expressed as its keynote: 
1. Introspection 
2. Projection 
3. Adaptation 
4. Externalization 
5. Universalization 
6. Transition

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Manifestor

Manifestors are energy types and make up roughly 10% of the population. They always have the capacity to initiate and to act and they don’t need anyone’s help doing it. They are energetically designed to be closed to the other and in fact their energy repels or acts as a barrier to the outside world to protect their independence. It is this energy type that has become our cultural ideal of how to be in the world. We have all been told at one time or another to go out and make things happen, to manifest our intentions, and so on. However, this type of independent action is exclusive to Manifestors. And in actual fact, when we have a Manifestor in our lives, we resist their natural capacity to act because we are both afraid of their independence and of how we are impacted by their actions. When Manifestors act, they always impact those around them and each action creates a ripple of effects. To eliminate the resistance that Manifestors meet from those around them, they have a strategy, which is to first inform before they act. This simple act of informing builds trust and paves the way for them to move freely and without resistance. When a Manifestor is not living out their true nature they are always dealing with anger as a theme. However, when they begin to understand themselves and inform before they act, this anger turns to peace.

I am a 2/4 manifestor this strategy often worked, the core issue is generators, also the point of projectors being a non-energy type is just odd from multiple perspectives, as their energy is still very penetrating. 


2/4 is not neccessarily the hexagram number, the numbers are about the gates for eg. 43.1 or 43.6 etc. idk this is quite complex. just posting and taking some mental blueprints, I have to buy the whole information to make progress, or invest time. 

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[KosmicGeng]

Not-Self Theme

More often than not, making decisions based on mental reasoning will lead to resistance and ultimately the Not-Self Theme of your Type:

Anger for Manifestors

Bitterness for Projectors (This was projected upon me, but mostly it's anger) 

Disappointment for Reflectors

Frustration for Generators

[KosmicGeng]

Open Center

In a BodyGraph, the open Center is white. Open Centers are neither empty or broken, nor do they need to be fixed. Open Centers are vulnerable to being conditioned. When a person with an open Center meets someone who colors that Center in, they amplify as a response. If you have a Solar Plexus that is white and you meet someone who is in a bad mood and has that Center defined/colored in, then in meeting them you will take in and amplify their emotional wave. This is not a pleasant experience. Metaphorically, you could say, that what is defined is the ‘student’ and what is open is the ‘course’ of study.

[KosmicGeng]

Penta

Penta is a transpersonal Form. A Penta aura is formed when there are three, four or five individuals in regular proximity to each other. The Penta is the coordinating aura of human reproductive activity. The genetic imperative is to make more. When two becomes three, genetic pressure is not released since maintaining a viable population demands that each couple produce two offspring. Genetic pressure in fact ends with the addition of the third child resulting in a foundation Penta.

Interesting perspective? 

[KosmicGeng]

Personal Destiny

The geometry of the Right Angle incarnation is Personal Destiny. This is a self-absorbed incarnation. Profiles with Personal Destiny are 1/3, 1/4, 2/4, 2/5, 3/5, 3/6 and 4/6.
 

Projection

In Profile Analysis, terms applied to the second and fifth Lines. The second Line is a line of Projection. These are the naturals who await discovery by others. The fifth Line, the harmony to the second Line, benefits from projection that it can best serve the need of the other. In the second Line case the projection is based on what can be recognized but the fifth Line projection is not based on what is recognized but what is hoped for or assumed.

[KosmicGeng]

Quarters

The wheel is divided into four Quarters. Each Quarter is composed of 16 consecutive Hexagrams and begins with a variation of the Right Angle Cross of the Sphinx and ends with a variation of the Right Angle Cross of the Four Ways. The Four Quarters are Initiation, Civilization, Duality and Mutation. 

I have Civilization apparently. I don't quite get the whole system, but it's very interesting from all the information I found, not just practical self-help etc. 

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Recognition

The main attribute of the Projector Type is a gift for recognizing and being recognized.
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Red

In the Rave Chart, red is the color code for the Design, the unconscious. The red in a chart is not accessible but hidden. Over time, these hidden aspects become experienced as traits. The only way to operate correctly at the unconscious level is in following one’s strategy.

Reflector

Reflectors are unique among all the other types in that they are not fixed in the way they emit energy. They are very open to the world around them. They make up a very small percentage of the population, only approximately 1-2%. Their gift is to be able to take in and reflect the energy of their companions, their tribe and their world. Given their extreme openness, they are naturally protected energetically to be resistant and to sample the energy around them. The strategy for a reflector is one that requires patience. For them to make clear and healthy decisions they need to wait out the cycle of the moon, approximately 28.5 days. When a reflector is not living as themselves they can live a life plagued by disappointment as they are so deeply linked to the energy of the other. However, the goal for them is not to be disappointed by the world but to be surprised by it and all that it has to offer.

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Role Gates

Through the principle of Genetic Continuity, all first Lines have a relationship to each other. They share a similar function in acting as the foundation of the structure. This can also be said of all other lines in that all 64 variations of each line of each hexagram have a structural relationship to each other. There are six primary Role Gates, 10/7/1/13/59/27. The Lines of these Role Gates provide themes for understanding the structural values of similar Lines in other Hexagrams. As an example the names associated with Profile are derived from the tenth Gate of Behavior. The Roles Gate general themes are:

10: The behavior of the self in the now
7: The role of the self in Leadership
1: The role of the self as a model
13: The role of the self in interaction
59: The genetic imperative to make more
27: The genetic imperative to nurture

I stop here, having some small odd problems with my keyboard I just fixed, I can't wrap my head entirely around the system, in order to work with myself, with all of the activations that exist and channels, what I found now what is colored red is simply the unconscious part that has to become active, and I have one consecutive line for two channels starting with the crown chakra moving to 3'eye into throat, and I only have of the role gates the role of self as a model, which makes it more clear in my experience, I was asked to work as a model multiple times, and was very interested into models, agents, a.i and artifical intelligence mostly from a "Gestalt" type of perspective, and knowing how this voids in my BaZi chart allows me to access this point and change myself into the person I yearn to be, the whole point is what does this design & personality imprint lead me towards, besides the previous work I did and meditation generally breaks me open to disregard this and simply see it was information, in order to improve myself. 

[KosmicGeng]

Did a small workout finally, going slow my body is still weird, and I have serious issues, where I received little help,

I watched this in the background of my training:

https://www.actualized.org/insights/jean-lyotard-defines-post-modernism

The comment from Leo has more value then the entire video, the video just goes unneccesairly against what I read from Wilber, partially a waste of time without the comment from Leo on the blog. 

What I learned? 

Treating everyone equally based on their own truth, just causes injustice, as there is no universal truth, and post-modernism is only able to point towards with art, that is the essential of the video, at best, with Kants resiude of the sublime, being the core pointer. I worked out, be gentle with me, I did not really focus much on the video. 

[KosmicGeng]

Contemplating a few things of the past, before I start putting in some work, and the core issue of me being social and getting a gf, investing having studied economics in high school, and the issue of experience and exposure, what I learned is the following.

I really have to upgrade my level of security as soon, as I get more income, instead of just inheritance + working student and benefits from the state, as I realized how vulnerable certain systems can be, and I made the mistake to network to openly, instead of taking a bit more care of security and diving deeper into that, the core issue was the whole complexity of it and working in I.T, often feeling like you're 10 steps ahead while in reality, you're working out the 10 steps ahead in order to secure knowledge and stability, my core points of becoming and getting more value in dating was health, but with all the setbacks and the recovery and the types of work that I did, it's a gruesome process, and often times, I am more involved with the personal story of mine, and getting away from people who have no expertise, or degree in a field, and are just open in the world, this has not served me as a layer of security, as I am often involved in projects and topics that require higher levels of thinking or just the awareness of it, as it creates the most visible income for a business or requires a level and layer of expertise in tech, and I feel more at home, doing deeper more cognitive demanding types of work, not sales etc. I also was quite frankly more focused on working out, studying and going to retreats then getting laid and online-game and friends, they sort of meshed into each other for some reason I don't quite understand as of now, the physical exercises and the health I felt naturally let me gravitate towards more social and extroverted places, but I neglected the studying in the recent years, especially upgrading my knowledge, as I see some issues with the community and generally communities etc. 

https://www.actualized.org/insights/michael-oakeshott

I am watching this and replying on this, while playing some game on the side, then doing some data science work and reading again. 

[KosmicGeng]

I finished watching the video, I was sort of immersed doing both, getting intellectual capital from a university and working as a working student and doing voluntary projects in order to gain practical experience, my core issue is both are sort of enmeshed into each other, the more I work on the practical things and projects, or just even courses the practical knowledge comes in, and I don't demonize it I have an issue with people forcing me to generate income for them, while enforcing the expertise I am the worst at, creating user interface instead of working on the logic and backend, I visited sights where the people who worked in factories worked hands-on, and meet with plenty of partners, but in the end the time for coding was to short and the type of planning with sprints required an overhaul, where a lot of book smarts from what I did at home, as to be brought and presented as ideas in order to bring a level of change into an organisation to make it not only profit based, and the profit based capitalism sort of sucked the soul out of me to some extend. I'll watch the other video, in retrospect I did get some experience practically not as deeply as I wanted to, but some of it is definitely good. 

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this next then reflecting on my own life again a bit, so I get this done, I am more involved with Wilber and some other courses, I find some of the blog post relatively obvious, to what I experienced, and what I did, I never had the luxury to be seen as pure intellectual left liberal, it's often a mix of various biases, while I do a certain amount of practical work, what is missing at times is recovery & fun, that has been missing the most the recent years, as well as the core issue of bias in this post-modern way, were they are not involved anymore in being a bit more conservative and practically supportive, as I had with the chinese friend of mine, who was way more involved in my personal life for practical reasons, but some issues came up with lies & confusion about political opinions and the mass-simulcrum of negative echo-chambers of the online world, calling Xi-Jing Ping kindergarden president, and some information that had no basis or evidence, when I checked Wiki it showed the exact opposite, it created this conservative goes survival for bolshevistic tendencies, and modernists underestimating the complexity and outsourcing interesting projects, to just sitting there and not doing anything meaningful besides reading code bases etc. 

I stop here. I watch the video above first.