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[KosmicGeng]

This is interesting I watched half of it, I have a different opinion as quantum science is not quite touching the depths of A.I, yet but in 1-2 years it will most likely even great a deeper depth of technology present, I presume this will go very fast but 2028 will be the starting point most likely

[KosmicGeng]

First session doing a pomodoro with Obsidian, very powerful, but I did only 25 minutes, and I am still learning in the process while doing it, procedual thinking is my strength and putting procedual thinking into memory, I could even now test some knowledge, but I want to see if the Zeigarniceffects kicks-in and I already share so much I should keep some stuff that I do private, as people really craved my knowledge the more serious I got, besides these lucifers whores, and I am done with fake lucifer whores, if you're not asian, I am very biased about this, there is enough energy, and these peoples fires is sick, a true fire monkey on the day and not month, I've had plenty of these acting like they are the true monkey, but they abuse your face and tear you down for their nefarious purposes, it's a shame I ever interacted with such a person, because I valued beauty etc. but this person just hijacked my nervous system, with this bullshit overdemoniring looser energy, that has nothing to do with equanimity and balance, and these whores love to disturb that, I frankly despise white fire monkey women in the month as of now, or other patterns I see, your fire is sick, you only go for glory and might, and this has nothing to do with GOD, and your the most egotistical, envious monkey even by element, and you claim your spirit, but your not AKASH?!

[KosmicGeng]

MUST WATCH WATCHING LIVE

 

[KosmicGeng]

I could study and do more, but this gaslighting Yi-Chou shit about food and just oxes in BaZi are fucking satanic my entire life, I faced this issue and me and my mother faced serious setbacks with this shit degenerate greed, and power over strength mentality, we're more strength oriented while these oxes manipulated more and more, the same with my grandma, to some extend she steadily was unable to be of any guidance, and just pushed her anger onto others, instead of perspective, if she was allowed to explain the perspective, but some are so feed-up I just often think they don't know what they are explaining but seem quiet satanic. 

It's extremely disgusting, when I went eating with my mother we faced serious issues with all of these people my food stopped tasting and these fuckers sit around for my taste buds to test, but I fucked them up volutairly as they are so fucking greedy about food, they never suffered the issue a Ji-SI faces and imo they are disgusting creatures, that don't realize how fucking psychic eating alone is, fuck them at times, and their pain perception, just fuck ox children in BaZi fucking assholes. 

Edited yesterday at 07:13 PM by KosmicGeng

[KosmicGeng]

It's fantastic that this white african gaslighting exist I now have way more debt, and I could not work myself through, but fuck success, I fucking hate Yi-Chou wife beater guilt tripping

[KosmicGeng]

Watching an anime and cooking, I barely have food after this  exhereidation from my aunts side, and I invested everything I could into gaining more competence in cs & with women, and building my own life style, and working out, I heavily dislike some things about stuff, but most of my money should go into proper food and nutrition it helps me the most, but I also have to speed-up, I should've not invested into going out, I went to out to often to know it's not good, and meeting a girl online, was fine for what it was, but the secrets such a whore can save is just purely pathetic and it shows me they deserved to be kicked out of their pro leauge and fantasies about life, I can't be an inspiration to a whore that is utterly corrupt, I am very glad Leo is still different, even when I utterly hate parts of him following him now for 10 years, and seeing the issue, of  bashing the monkey for ones own benefit, bash the fire monkey, but leave me alone, fuck this fire monkey, consciousness, I saw enough of it in China, idk if it's actually just lucifer, and the water monkey actually is just an incarnation of ahriman, as the water monkey has an issue of dignity interconnecting it with the queen of cups and what these people act like from observation I charted close to 1000 people to understand psychology more, and hidden dynamics of this including relationships, also to have an upperhand in certain things. 

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this and the anime on the side:

 

[KosmicGeng]

I watched the entire thing, what I can say briefly is how this interconnects with the yin-metal snake year the ex-gf was born in as well as the issue of my aunt being yin-metal snake day master and the issue of illusion, as they are the most "paranormal yin-metal", I could name more snake day masters as Leo is a snake day master, and it's been an issue with the illusions these yin-metal snakes spin, and I partially create the hyperreality but pull back vehemently in order to do consciousness work, but this "horse" attitude of many, just production, extraction & production causes a massive backlash, where many choose seduction over any productive logic, that creates abundance or value, I notice how charm/seduction can have value to get into certain fields and to make things not as dry, and to engage emotions, I learned that while presenting a lot of stuff, I am still not the best, and I have a lot of fear, but I just go through it instead of just presenting numbers & facts, and then being next with a few applauses, I did not really enjoy that, I was forutnate I presented my character and story, to actually fit the post-modern paradigm in one company I worked, at as it simply shows they pre-selected for skill, now I can present my character and life and see if I fit long-term, but the profit business of this Taurus Ji-Chou person, and that he grew up dead poor, and now is a millionair caused massive issues to me, as he was walking around with me making use of Geng-Shen business sense it happens all the time, these people just want to do business with me, but they give little time to see the production value of their system, and are hideous about their intentions, which causes not a favourable production logic oriented towards understanding a product, creating value benefits, and being able to sell something or provide value, being spirial dynamic and abraham maslow aware, but the exact production logic they run, causes the extractive capitalism where seduction is used to just push numbers, instead of engaging with what I learned in HCI, an inquiriy into then needs, and offering the serivces or ideas that can solve the underlying need or helps with that. 

The simulalcrum thing is something I never understood about students in certain classes, they just focused forever on creating an image or person and identity that fits the digital space, even when I studied and worked in it and used it, I never understood why they are so called towards hiding their persona online? I prefer my quietness, sure I am shy at times and I was a shy person, and I enjoy the privacy of not using my name all the time, but it was odd how they viewed the whole crypto-simulacrum thing, while for me the digial asset, is a real as a physical asset, to me there was no difference, ever since I got hurt online once, I can clearly also see, yes it hurts and the physical social domain is real, and we should care about it, the current issue of the left is the massive issue, that they all run to academia, instead of having any grit and sell their souls to academia, I made a deliberate choice after moving to China and living and working there and then working in a science institute, and said yes I am going to study this path I underwent, as I like and enjoy education, but I never liked the profit based thing, and I enjoyed entreprenurial topics when I was 16 or so, which makes it more obvious now with my IW Yang-Wood heaven stem in BaZi (interconnecting here again), what I clearly can see now with this totaliterian dysneyland and many Xin-Metal snakes being this totalitarain disney land, it's mostly just a form of escapism, with the option to enjoy the illusion, enjoying it fully is wise, like it's said in the Yi-Qing I read yesterday "Sich Genügen Lassen" is intelligent for simplicities sake, but the core issue of buying into the illusion and feeding it, is not good, the totalitarain disneyland I presented to the ex, with a lot of sex/cannabis/fun & games while providing entertainment, costed me a lot of time away from my purpose, but something was also amiss, mostly the core point of even having had a loving relationship, and the sex I gave her made her automatically also love her, as I was quite the G during that time, but she kept following the past, what if you would be at 26, and just inserting doubt, like a stupid monkey, instead of actually working on the situation, as this lazy fucking whoreass was not doing anything for her studies, just "pretenious care" for family, this is similar to a simulcrum of disney land, there is a lack of doing anything of value, and the relationship was just focused on impregnating here, as she abused black d.n.a and fundamentally the fecundity I have, she is a dirty fucking cum swallowing whore, and I wish her if she has children that something serious happens, so she actually knows what she is doing.

I am looking more forward to the other two videos of the blog, as I enjoy the ironic academic persona he has to pulls you into I felt drawn into when I was younger in academia, also usin Obsidian for notetaking is absolutely insane game-changer for me even just the 25 minutes. 

Mostly Leo's perception and the psychdelic video I posted is way deeper, but this is good grist for the mill, with what is happening with Twitter, or any recurrent type of application.

I hope I can get back on track with psychedelic work, but that will take 2-5 years, and I might quit them all together, the more I realized how powerful my dna is as every chakra point in the crown chakra is defined when I look up esoteric stuff, just food, exercise and meditation helps me tremendously, but it has to be strength training, with endurance, meditation and the old psychedelic effects, still are there and can push me, especially music, and just going hard at home for a bit can push me to very deep states, anyhow. I will do the other videos tomorrow and first write a different post. 

[KosmicGeng]

What I instead want to focus on is not that hyperreality self-inflated yin-metal snake type of consciousness of being pulled into the illusion of money and grandeur with clicks and clicks over again, and the issue of being glocked away by the billionair friends of my aunt, is just the issue of buying even into the lifestyle illusion, it's the most pathetic choice I have seen to lie in such a circumstances to your nephew and I fundamentally despise her ever since, but at least get spent 50k for a boat license or whatever, and hide all of your bullshit in mini-dogs and thi neo-liberal post-modern hog shit, of anti-care and masculine hatred, and penis envy, and acting like a helpless yi-chou damsel in distress, as you're the "wife" for a yang-metal day master whicch I am, and I got fooled plenty of times, of her "open-ai" broken xin-metal mao chart, and this IW/IR pattern that I also have which is the luck pattern, that has to be pushed further and strengthened, you have to bite through, which is the wisdom of the Yi-Chou hexagram in a baby/nano nutshell, from the BaZi site I look at, but what I also see is this. 

I now miss a massive opportunity to become wealthy, due to this sabotage, and they just being pulled and befriending these billionairs for their fake choice of healing or helping them, there is nothing serious about that, anyhow it's part of my own fault that these things happend, but they also limited options massively, I stop here, and think for a while. 

[KosmicGeng]

I cleaned my laptop and fixed the flickering of the monitor using a different cable, not these hyped ones from the market, I don't even know where I have this cable from but it's finally fixed, now there is some new hope but the same issue of organisation and the complexity of the work I undertook, I have one very advanced job offer, that I would take as it's sort of like resident evil drug level research with ml, and I partially could've taken these lectures but got stuck in evolutionary algorithsm that are outdated, and less domain knowledge based and I am very good in domain knowledge and memorized knowledge, it's just I stopped doing, it after including more an american mindset of solving problems inductively, but that made me go for and create a lot of options generally speaking, I am going through the optionality now, as I wasted and still gained experience in the meanwhile I will most likely call all of them first and speak with them, that turned out well, I was able to capitalize quickly on opportunities, but somehow this smoking cigarettes and cannabis got to me, it's not very good if I can't continue to work on my infrastructure and health, and a lot of bias surrounding it with the think tanks within science, I am glad I also do well without it, but people also think without it I am crazy at times for the high gratitude energy I have generally I have 4 Yong Shens in superior quality and a lot of combos on subtle energy, i am learning about, but I have to mitigate everything with the cosmic centeredness of Yang Earth that is still not easy to build that level of depth, so I often use aids such as music, in a few days or weeks I should be recovered to go back to 30 minutes of meditation daily without seperating it, I was pushing 1h30, but the ex and her low consciousness fire monkey dipshitness caused a lot of issues. 

[KosmicGeng]

The person was obsessed with fame, and this bolshevistic tendencies and this Leo Astrology consciousness of luxury, but being quiet frankly a murdered, and I know I got one sleeping in me 2, that is not good. the constant fight for control of activity and what is fun, and a lack of overlapping interests, she lacked open-mindedness about technology vehemently, as she is obstructed by this gaia centric feminist beta cuckhold larry consciousness. 

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this set, I never though the job-center would still hand out these opportunities, a lot of them pay beyond average, but the core issue is just the lack of integration of interdisciplinary fields at a university, I wanted to specialize only to see, that the most willing and advanced students also partially were more interested in the core point of making A.I more viable to human needs and to facilitate that, but the core structure is so soulless, the only thing that made sense to me is to focus on beauty, and that pulled me to a closer relationships with most professors besides shit 8's in the enneagram, many of them take this for granted and imo do shit work. 

No, idea if the set is good. 

[KosmicGeng]

Just contemplating more after this A.I mess hit, and I was not capeable of getting a research spot, and having this devlish gf, who just hated A.I for no reasons, why I get a lot of love and support from using the tooling of A.I in my personal consumer space, especially the NLP based stuff with ChatGPT etc. and Grok is better then what I could test for with DeepSeek, as it serves a more general purpose knowledge, and some advanced learning techniques, especially not being able to talk to DeepSeek and other newer chinese models, make them less efficient in sovling problems and helping humans from my POV, and I was working on scaling that with R & Cloude, and Anthropic will most likely do smth. at one point in that, but I have to see where I will go I waste a lot of time, as I require more peak health and I just focused on some core understandings, of my personal life first, after this psychosis with alcohol and cannabis, I can't really deal with alcohol, due to having alcoholic parents, gaming and masturbating or weed or just working out is better, but I have werid people around me imo. 

[KosmicGeng]

Interesting take, can't watch it all at times I just post. 
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

Claude is so fucking unethical that was the entire point,they had to revert back to modernism, as the post-modern students here could not up their language capabillity to a teal perspective, it was a huge issue, doing it solo as construct-aware person with an ibliss whore that just craves your dick for success during that time, but it took me everything to have a breakthrough into the strucutre. 

I wonder how this all went from watching hentai porn as a teen, in order to cope with society, to legit this whole Epstein NGO thing holy fucking shit, I bet I am on some kill list at this point. 

I also get weird death threats and messages at times I block everything, mostly when I flourish it's very odd. 

Edited 4 hours ago by KosmicGeng

[KosmicGeng]

I could workout in the morning, on coffee and do that briefly there is no other way to get anything done in that regard to get my body healthy, just doing a little I was a freaking monster. 

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[KosmicGeng]

Allright just stop at this point, I have to research some stuff I found on Wikipedia, as they also had some new idea to create energy, but I never looked that up from Sam Altman, I have no idea anymore what they are doing, using Anthropic for Coding is enough, but I saw it's limits going into the infrastructure, but I also had to understand more, as I did not entirely come from a super deep tech savy background, but psychology & computer science mixed with HCI, which creates the demand & supply for A.I to a certain extend. anyhowI stop again. 

[KosmicGeng]

I am doing some exercises and taking notes, what has bothered me in the recent years is the as long as your brown and you look brown everyone else can do it!!! We're all so relatably EQUAL AND must love each other, I fucking hated the psychopathic ibliss consciousness in this, that it motivates others, while I face the demons of years of opression and that survival perspective, while many just  fuck themselves up through the creative endeavours instead, of actually providing anything of monetary value to the other people, they so vehemently see as equal as. 

I wonder how I can get over that perspective still. It's the most pathethic survival perspecitve one, can have as it clearly shows me, you run on emotions and not values, and just this post-modern moral code, of we're all equal, which feminists vehemently abuse for their power, fuck these feminists. 

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this, working my way around the knowledge I actually wanted to build, but the place I am is odd, due to coincidences that did not really turn out well, but I also manifested it to some extend. 

I really miss learning, today was a good day to get back to studying, and also playing some video games and having fun, I had massive issues with fun, till I pushed myself with exercises and entrepreneurial mind, till I got injured, I have some issues with IOs users I can't take them seriously, there is a falloff in depth imo, and just they focus on executive intelligence, not really innovation but idk I have to see what happens.