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[KosmicGeng]

Watching this, but I am tired of being the light of others, most humans are ungrateful irregardless how much love they give you they are ungrateful, the more I opened my heart I clearly saw that

[KosmicGeng]

I did my meditations and my fuck you gratitude practices for the abusive love I exeperienced I deserve way way more

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this then contemplating with A.I today, it's still a horror what type of family the mother creates, she is not acting in a conscious way, and this post-modernism slows me down for their growth and they are not doing any type of help, just empathy and I am done with these empathy narcs sending lovebombing signals

[KosmicGeng]

Watching more of this
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

I can't come to the police station this morning to talk to them about my case, it sucks to not have a phone and everything is dependent on it, due to the panic of security I can't organize anything on the internet properly, neither properly apply, these people are the worst of the worst for their security needs panic and feel threatend, due to being black, and hide that with their pride and overzealous attitutde, they could've just given me an appointment to a later date, it takes forever to walk there, these people take everything for granted and can't get into the minds of citizen at all. 

Now I have to spend more money on all of the extra, stuff just to contact them, this digitalization is a gift and a curse, and this manipulation and lack of responsibility, when I take over responsibility is a horror, it costs extra money to communicate with them as they are stuck in stage green and are not developed enough to deal with me, I hate this country extremely for it's post-modern versions of digitalization and modern fears, it's the worst of the worst, ever since Trump & Elon propaganda & Maga this has been the worst experience ever dealing with anything monetarily, and my mother is not very helpful, just a skeptical traumatized survival interested manipulator and these people barely provide any real help, beside medication for the issues I have, and they don't help at all, I need rest and a new enviroment and again nobody really helps, also ever since this grooming and tyranny of Leo started my life turned worse for this fake love, that is not rooted in a God experience just trash human emotions for manipulative reasons to experience beauty and racism, while I am more beautiful etc. It's very annoying to deal with such arrogant and brutish creatures. 
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

I also get 0 tech support for everything I constantly fix, as they have no knowledge or intuition about anything, and I dislike not being on time, if I forget simple things, when my health is not as good I get no time for rest ever since this sensatinalized stage orange racism and viewpoints hit the world it's a huge waste of time, I fucking hate it

[KosmicGeng]

They can just make the appointment a bit later to healthier times, even with the best health coach I can't reach them and I trained myself more intuitively I am tired of this survaillance trash state in ger, and identity games it's fucking taxing it's efficient, but these people abuse everything I do meditatively I fucking hate humans

[KosmicGeng]

I am tired of this behaviour racism in survival, from modernity and racist post-modern insights that just focus on behaviour and just can stick to their modern/post-modern stages, there is no appreciation and abillity to help with lower stages, let alone these stages alone are dysfunctional in themselves....

[KosmicGeng]

Just making psychic abillity mentally ill and light energy is pathological in itself, the constant strategy thinking is exhausting if I get hacked and these people don't recognize circumstances and deny they are traumatizing themselves, for the god experiences I naturally have, I fucking hate humans, we're way beyond humans to beginn with... 

I can't have much joy a lot of anger, that pushes generally white light or non-dual states, I have a lot of them in my head, but not body, thoughtlessness and beauty & perception, but many are so stuck in their intereoception it's fucking annoying like love, emptiness is better, I fucking hate this run of feminism also and the modern independent women does nothing and just causes slavery I fucking hate it

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[KosmicGeng]

Then they blame and look for black money how fucking pathetic is that?!?!!!!! I am so fucking angry that these people are not diverse and can't include anything like I do my entire fucking life, and they call that manic? It's just fucking anger the only antidote is non-duality, satisfaction or sleep. I am tired of these human lies, and this fearful perception, due to having more physical powers, it's just fucking racist, no doubt about it u can't love deep enough to help survival, and claim your a good human and have that feeling inside your not

[KosmicGeng]

I can't really get over music that pushes me into the right states, I read so much, I am partially exhausted to give people divine light, that is a huge mistake these people are so greedy for my benevolent energy, I could hit them as hard as this song would hit your vagina or ass, excuse my language...

[KosmicGeng]

I also hate women who jealous that a man can release his energy in order to be in a true peaceful or more non-duality like state, and just crave life, like you don't even have an intention to end, it but gotta love survival ... like this Golden Ass Philosopher... it takes both to have true eudaimonia like GOD 

[KosmicGeng]

Anyhow, getting some inspiration and muse out of music, not only the beauty of women, at times makes me already so happy it calms me down, I fundamentally despise at times natural, I can't be as efficient with this trash technology of this building, I hate this rebuilding of the state, a car has more value than an appartment wtf is this? 

It's pathetic how they think about health I require cold water, I hate these logical incels at times, can't do anything intutively like a true scientist, this certainity cravings is like fake security for inflated survival needs out of vanity, not true vanity that is self-protective for the actual depth of needs, but not the vice of vanity itself... it's a huge difference.

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[KosmicGeng]

Looking more at this archetyper of monster/lucifer women in blue-eyes with "goodness" 
 

It's funny how the occult can help, but it's not god , psychdelics help to go there 100% even just weed and dance is enough anyhow.... I am more of a mystic, than an occultist.

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[KosmicGeng]

I am tired of women abusing my dragon virtue to dispell evil, when life itself is evil, you never had the existential insight to end yourself in a serious manner, and no life is worth living, but these repression experience makes me hate your entire species

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[KosmicGeng]

Fuck this child fucking pedophilic women, I hope she finally dies on her birthday happy fuck day you pedophile

I hope you eat your pussy like it has been cut-off u deserve it

Edited 59 minutes ago by KosmicGeng

[KosmicGeng]

Minimum level of russian I tolerate the rest should please cease or be higher or just leo, but shut your fucking mouth about work, I fucking hate the Ukranians for what they are and I know these pieces of shit since I was a child, despicable modernity!!!!!!!!!!

At times this orange/green underbelly is the worst of the fucking worst, the level of resentment is surreal, I am glad I had a different example, keep the resentment of us

I have way more right to be pissed then you, if your jealous of me and sense that go sing hum or watch a movie or smth. I don't know why the fuck these people are so jealous of Geng-Shen aura, it's so annoying, only because I am pure these people corrupt me since fucking day 0, if you continue to attack my universe I swear to god it will end BADLY

Just stay in your country and print some hidden money or smth. I can't believe they are so stupid to imperalize and expand, like hideous fucking rodents, can't even be a beaver or an otter, I am watching a bunch of animal science stuff

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[KosmicGeng]

https://www.reuters.com/world/middle-east/palestinian-americans-journey-his-west-bank-home-under-settler-siege-2026-08-17/

I feel the same with these russian and polish skeptical satanic mind, fuck this nationalism

Edited 25 minutes ago by KosmicGeng