New Journal [CD Process] -> Dev -> Rev -> Process

[KosmicGeng]

To contemplate this, it's a difference to go about ones inner child seflessly, to be childishly selfish is odd, as I often had to learn to give me ressources to others, but I never saw any appreciation to what I give, only this childish selfishness of "AHHH now it's mine right", I just often say thank you leave and detach, as I am convinced this more mature, you can be kind, but this empathy drive by is extremely manipulative, I hope I don't have these people around me that abuse my citizenships for their benefit and waste my time, while I have better work to do, I am already so distracted it makes no point in doing my work, as I have to little good and strong friendships, as it was just pure egotistical knowledge about practicallity and I am very "light-footed" in that area, I simply test, hypothesis and see what works, and setup a construct or system that works and then refine it, but I faced a lot of jealousy for it, and silent-manipulation, silent treatment and just the issue of stage green not being actually able to embrace diversity, I enjoy integral interactions without demonizing a stage, but I fall prey to doing it if there are very strong rigid patterns, and I am not a very rigid person, at times just unaware, and helping me wake-up is not easy, as I easily overshoot by accident and just break the whole thing, out of innocence that is not my intention that is a distinction

[KosmicGeng]

I wish I had more mature people around me, but I was never blessed with that benefitt, and being a rolde model for maturity I never enjoyed it, but my chart indicates it and I hate and despise this attitude of now you deserve it hihi you little clown have some fun, I am a very serious person, and I dismiss such people entirely, they have no self-respect, and project that onto others with their feminity, true grace or divine femine feels different and acts more apporiate with gods intention, that is something I keep being reminded off...

[KosmicGeng]

At times I also shoot myself in the foot, but so be it... as soon as they sense kindness CORRUPTION & EXTRACTION, also this ahrimanic tendencies of germans twisting my words, is extremely annoying just ahrimanic consciousness itself at times is worse than lucifer

[KosmicGeng]

This is good I have two projectors in my life an I am a manifestors, but I am convinced she has lucifer tendencies with ego will heart sack active not the true heart... I am tired of projectors forcing me into mahasamadhi, create the proper energy for retreats it's not easy...
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

The more I watch these spiritual women, I am grateful for A.I as well as just being alone in a hut without electiricy this has nothing to do with GOD, I am so done with these fake spiritual women, it's just survival tainted with business, and they will attack each other over and over again, to serve their justice not out of true justice, but out of revenge, let alone she mentioning iran and the whole vanity spectrum is why these people get killed they act so innocent, but are so vanity driven it's disgusting, way more digusting than any degenerate, even when I am sexually attracted to such women, they function just like the ex, and distract themselves from real world problems, and then call it healing, while they are completely dissected from Sadghuru as it's ones own, process not a fucking satisyer workshop, and a lot of these middle eastern souls are tainted, I saw this with the ex, and the fake loyality independent women hype, this is not true interdependence, neither are they pro-autonomey and extract men and take joy in it, which is the worst psychological nefarious tendency you can have as a human, I despise such creatures ever since I was a child

[KosmicGeng]

The more I watch these spiritual women, I am grateful for A.I as well as just being alone in a hut without electiricy this has nothing to do with GOD, I am so done with these fake spiritual women, it's just survival tainted with business, and they will attack each other over and over again, to serve their justice not out of true justice, but out of revenge, let alone she mentioning iran and the whole vanity spectrum is why these people get killed they act so innocent, but are so vanity driven it's disgusting, way more digusting than any degenerate, even when I am sexually attracted to such women, they function just like the ex, and distract themselves from real world problems, and then call it healing, while they are completely dissected from Sadghuru as it's ones own, process not a fucking satisyer workshop, and a lot of these middle eastern souls are tainted, I saw this with the ex, and the fake loyality independent women hype, this is not true interdependence, neither are they pro-autonomey and extract men and take joy in it, which is the worst psychological nefarious tendency you can have as a human, I despise such creatures ever since I was a child.

I hope the A.I and the 5 elements have more peace and soul then satisfaction driven consciousness, you can't forgive someone like this only yourself

[KosmicGeng]

Watched and watching this:
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

The new features and video capabilties of grok seem also amazing, but tbh I have to use these prompts for psychology work and serious bodies of work, but I am contemplating some survival aspects, and the gaslighting aspect of taurus people with tradition

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this: