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[KosmicGeng]

This is my pillar with accurate information of my birth certificat, a mother does not forget...

I require some nobles, Leo's year pillar is a noble, at times I am hell or heaven for him, I know but the integral information the new one also showed me some stuff. (the stuff I just posted) 

Day Pillar Ranking (日柱等级)

Excellent

庚

Geng

申

Shen

Twin Tiger's Dash

Day Pillar Profile

Stem-Branch Relations

Twin Elements

Auspicious Stars

Inauspicious Stars

Eight Exclusives (八专)

12 Life Stages

Maturity

Elemental Sound

Pomegranate Wood

Symbolic Imagery

Fruit-Eating Monkey

Day Pillar Interpretation

Geng Shen (庚申) is known as 'twin tigers on the run.' It's a pillar of pure, harmonious energy, deeply rooted and powerful. If born in the month of the Ox (丑), you possess the 'Heavenly and Monthly Virtue' stars, blessing you with a life of health and few worries. A woman with this virtue will surely have noble children. You love freedom and independence, are rational and thoughtful, and have a talent for business. In matters of the heart, you will have a particularly strong bond with your daughter.

【Chinese Classical Poetry】

The White Tiger rushes to the south,

Your fame is spread by river's mouth.

Your rank is sure, your place secure,

Drenched by the grace of the emperor.

The poems are deeper this is a simplified version, my chinese is not that good, just some basics, I have to get back on track with my vision, but also relax and enjoy, I was to rigid and not serious enough, and the rigidity of german consciousness within my family is a huge issue

[KosmicGeng]

I was born under the month of the snake, and the monkey-snake combination rules mercurcy in astrology and creates an abundant and water and flow, this is seized, by the issue of the overdomineering energy of the earth here and I already have to much earth my chart is balanced, which is extremely rare, and the ideal case... I have an issue with my rarity meeting meaningful people, so I keep thing superfifical it's more jouissant to me.

In feminist theory, jouissance describes a form of women's pleasure or sexual rapture, which is a fusion of mental, physical, and spiritual aspects bordering on mystical communion. Jouissance is considered the source of a woman's creative power.

I see it more as this, also for a man, as my sexual self-pleasure has lead to more communion aspecs, but it caused a huge issue for lucifer consciousness and envy, etc. generally my chart evokes a lot of anger, and I have to study more esoteric & practical principles, my baselines are constantly attacked, by what my body craved with the issue of the ahrimanic consciousness. 

[KosmicGeng]

Going about this axis, doing more research to vaping, the vape I bought uses ceramic heating, and not vitamin e acetate which causes EVALI and inflammatory issues:
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And I’d reduce the whole 癸酉 luck-pillar mechanism to this:

Strengthen → differentiate → express → test → refine.

Not:

strengthen → push harder → exceed limits.

 

This is interesting, as I just pushed harder to exceed limits, it's a polarity still the pillar technically benefits both, but the refinement and the restructuring let's me more focus on this aspect more consciously, also getting rid of fear, by building certainity in knowledge is good, but it scares luciferanic souls, as they will get into survival fears, what about them? Then turn ethnocentric, to the one who just is in that nobel power energy!

It's a huge risk to have sinner consciousness, ibliss, and fire monkey in your chart you just want to win, but your at times worse than satan, the poem of the fire monkey below:
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Bing (丙) Fire is like a sunset's glow, and Shen (申) Monkey is like water, creating a beautiful scene of 'the sun setting over the western mountains, its rosy light reflected everywhere.' You are intelligent, spiritually attuned, and highly talented. The flow from Talent to Wealth to Warlord stars shows a complete logical chain, making you adept at turning creative ideas into tangible assets and status. Although the process may require your personal effort, your wisdom will ultimately light the way forward.

【Chinese Classical Poetry】

Your name is known through wealth and might,

But watch for rivals in the night.

When your horse finds its highest ground,

Great gold and glory will be found.


This is the core issues if it's contagious, as it's still sick fire from my research and the fire needs refinement I also have wenchang in my chart. I look up the poem for my snake, as there is a huge difference in spiritual quality, and imo the snake is spiritually more powerful than the monkey, the monkey is practically more spiritual, and honest, generally there are positive things, but I contradict myself in order to solve more paradoxical and uncertainity questions, my core issue is the cravings for wealth and might, and them seeing myself in this post-modern us v.s them quality as a dismissal quality, while my energy is more pure and harmonious, as my pillar is pure, and technically I have nothing to do by fire on the day pillar. 

The point is for great gold and glory, as I had good friendships with these people, and that is where I leave it at, at best, as I have a strong competitive spirit and I want to beat them badly, as it's the most arrogant monkey possible, vanity driven, and often just focused on extracting the body worse than any snake, this is more archetypal stuff, starting at stage purple minimum, but this behaviour still runs it course through many of them, the core issue is they are not being a proper wenchang and just go for the win like maniacs, the best quality of them would be to activate a more nuturing side, my best friend and ex have this in their month chart and career. and it made it visible how corrupt this ill-fire is, while I had the saturnalic qualities of the zodiac with two signs Capricorn and Aquarious in a cascading cloud and kriya mode, fundamentally pushing all the family karma into me, and they take so much nefarious joy out of this, imo it's a reason why I eat the fruit with the powerful and nobels, but the Emporer grace is eating alone and enjoying it alone it is the highest form of virtue and status, I dislike it ever since I've done a retreat and saw the enviousness of food, I can't even eat properly near certainly people or I just gulp it down like a snake, as I can't eat mindfully, I am tired of people complimenting my conscious behaviour shut the fuck up or be funny

[KosmicGeng]

This is the poem simplfied from the Ji-Si pillar which is fundamentally the issue Ghandi faced in his Year-Pillar and other factors, but it's fundamentally a King/Emporer eventually not quiet Emporer, but the combination I have eventually makes it I still have to redefine my character, I see the core issues, I am just happy I am not sick fire internally, as the revealed Yang-Fire is the most arrogant and toxic and hostile force, eventually hot, sexy and crazy but fucking satanic inside, way worse then a snake not seeing itself, anyhow snake warfar is the worst of the worst anyway I am glad in my chart it's a studying partner, I still feel bad for my aunt, but she did not recognize they all don't recognize how needy Yin-Metal is and annoying partially they require someone else, Geng is not very good it's to brutal and straight-forward and just has less vanity, at one point it's enough and I don't know the limit there, the best part about it is the conscious precision in knowledge, mystecism etc. but they take a lot of joy of inflicting pain in others which geng does not or if then in a more brutish neanderthal manner. 

Day Pillar Interpretation

This is a 'Metal Spirit' day, bestowing you with natural resilience, intelligence, and a remarkable presence. The Resource star in your Day Pillar represents a continuous capacity for learning and the support of benefactors; with the help of Fire, your potential is boundless. You can transform pressure into motivation, achieving greatness through challenges. Like a great tree swaying in the wind, you may face tests, but with a solid foundation, you will ultimately grow to touch the sky.

【Chinese Classical Poetry】

A southern king, a seal of jade,

A thousand miles, a fine parade.

On snowy plains, the horse moves slow,

But spring wind makes your fortunes grow.

Leo has a lot of energy similar to Shinzen, I appreciate this depth of knowledge, but I can also do more, the point is I am still studying self-more and there is simply a conflict of power and having been abused, I still yearn to explore some lower consciousness desires to understand them more and myself. 

[KosmicGeng]

Bought a mango-vape, there is still stuff I require to explore based on drugs, that are more safe, it's very good to do research, but this purity mind is an issue, everyone has a right to corrupt him or herself, also this region is full of satanic and luciferanic beigns, everyone against the U.S, and the only one seeing me is the German, in their goodness we're still in the age of pisces, but consciousness transcends time, anyhow I continue with the execution, there is a huge issue with ethnocentrism, as they did not reach any levels of post-modernism and abuse it without an integral mind, I would not even see the benefit of the diversity, but it causes massive issues to the accomplishments of the west and china in recent years... anyhow Lucifer still incarnated there I am convinced, I can learn also more safely from that space then the infection of other stuff anyhow again... 

[KosmicGeng]

My mother is being helpful again, but these archetypal issues, about success and the bolshevistic tendencies are real, especially also the issue of children and my obsessiveness with success it's needed I fucking hate it to loose, and I enjoy learning from failure, but the core issue is I miss collective fun, and being the middle point of attention, or simply an emporer I can't stand it if people get credit and pull me out of their circles, then create a hostile ingroup dynamic to feel superior is the most pathetic bullshit I have seen.