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[KosmicGeng]

Also socializing and just gaming, some basic survival and health pushed me towards the love of life, I really require that, anyhow I stop here I don't yearn to be understood, GOD does that automatically I had to many pointers and there is to much lucifer in art, I prefer ahriman, and I have avalon energy, stil learning, I am very radical, but not a zionist, just a radical at times, that aggression is neccessary for pushing myself towards god, if there is no light or power there is no hope for me, I am tired of this white power luciferian nazi, KKK shit, I see it in me etc. this got very complex due to survival and complexity of german language etc. 

Anyhow I stop!!!!!

[KosmicGeng]

I should push some music that leads me to god into some playlist, it's been a massive issue I neglected survival, but generally I am more of a hermit, I still have a lot to work on, especially financially, I have been sabotaged several times, ever since Trump &  Elon run amok

Now, I have the trouble of the law, anyhow... I will face reality, I faced 10 cops as reality, with the CCTV state that they are building, I am very glad I lived in London, but lucifer is also very present there, I am glad art takes me to spirit generally and transcends the survival impluses and make them obvious.

Lucifer is a mechnical god, you can see it with the ox, that is already more satanic, in nature, due to love in family in my experience
 

I hope I can change my lifestyle with the new knowledge european modernism is lucifer soul invested the church...

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[KosmicGeng]

Some small relefctions with GPT, to get behind subtle energy, GOD itself is a solo-healer, and has always been, the core issue of Healing is the community I asked about some other demons.
 

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In Steiner’s symbolic language, the answer isn’t to harden back, because that’s his terrain. It’s to stay warm, awake, and alive. Keep your body animated with small physical things, walking, stretching, even just cooking a meal with your full attention. Let yourself feel something real, music, honest talk, or a moment in nature. Practice clear, grounded thinking, but keep it humble. Use logic without worshiping it. And pick one small moral action each day, something that affirms you’re more than a function. Even something simple like choosing patience. Rhythm matters. Sleep, meals, movement, because rhythm gives structure without rigidity. In short, you don’t beat hardening by getting harder; you meet it with warmth, truth, and steady, embodied presence. And if at any point this feels less like a metaphor and more distressing, ground in the basics and reach out to someone you trust.

 

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[KosmicGeng]

Did 15 minutes meditation, I am still working out the mess:

I was at 1h daily with retreats, but survival ever since I wanted to do a Ph.D studying , working and gf, the gf was pure lucifer soul, thats why I am listening to this or iblis, a lot of quaran and islam stuff here...

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[KosmicGeng]

I like this picture more from my visionboard, some I won't share, but this is fundamentally the archetype of Mitra, and some others I use in my work, to naturally gravitate more towards the stuff I want etc. and make it more abstract, less conceptual, and get to a point where I could generate zen-like archetypes for actual spiritual work, the 15 minutes currently are deep enough with the practices, I had going the most important part are retreats, and this was fucked basically, by the core structure of this moder/integral tech mixture that does not touch being enough

[KosmicGeng]

I choose pile 2, good tarot readings help survival immensely, some people have good psychic intuition, some stuff is not an illness, people in the psychatric ward showed me the difference eventually later more, I also enjoy the art of the cards, this is the best unbiased reader I found so far, that just has a healthy business sense also etc. 

[KosmicGeng]

I see more of the pattern of the devil defining definitions and reinterpreting in order for it to fit it's mechanicalness, not intutive insight, that does not mean mechanicalness is bad, but it's better reflected, the consciouness and evil the devil does, or a luciferian soul is exactly the advocatus diaboli, I partially had to play often, but I saw it more as a reflective innocent and at times neccessary part, so I did not flip words, sometimes I bet I did, but I don't have a true lucifer soul, just anger at times or a competitive spirit, the role of being a reflector that takes the agaonist is fine, but the core issue of the mechanicalness, the devil used it against me to bind it to more work, instead of focusing what is really essential, it's a lack of conscious leadership I witnessed very often. 

Learning mechanism, helps with survival and patterns, but leo is right the devil uses it against you, intelligence and consciouness is important, but definition is not intelligent, hence it requires truthful intuition or logic to break the pattern, recognizing a mechanism is like recognizing the devil, creating a law in order to fit it's agenda, I am still studying stuff.

For the BaZi video:

Shadow combine -> Void God -> Same Element & Ressources => Super Vibrant chart => Help from nobles that are higher ups.

Break of pattern:
Noble appears in chart, the combined void god is filled => useless god filled

Most simple definition, most important thing is I get the difference between a supervibrant chart, why it's bad or good, advantages & disadvantages, mine is not a supervibrant chart. I have a destruction, punishment => water generation which both generate wealth, but restrain day master, HO generates creatively my wealth. 

 

[KosmicGeng]

Interesting, just had a bunch of insights did not know a real sage created a divination method very interesting! It's survival, but got damn it survival is awesome I forgot to enjoy it and play with the illusion properly, still learning moderation!
 

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Regarding the fortune-telling method of Bodhidharma's One Palm Scripture

The Dharma Palm Scripture is one such divination method. It is said to have been created by Bodhidharma, a Buddhist patriarch, and further developed by the Tang Dynasty monk Yi Xing. Through continuous summarization and analysis by successive generations, it has reached its current scale. Since Buddhism believes that all beings in the world experience karmic retribution for their good and bad deeds, a crucial core concept of the Dharma Palm Scripture is the cycle of cause and effect. The Dharma Palm Scripture uses a person's lunar birth date (year, month, day, and hour) to deduce the karmic causes and effects of their previous four lives, determining which realm they were in. These twelve elements are used to predict the fortunes and misfortunes of the person's parents, ancestors, siblings, spouse, and children.

 

 

[KosmicGeng]

Interesting! But I used the solar calendar not lunar, I found more information, but that will take time, most of this is true, I was held physically weak to not injury my growth, I wish they could've just feed me better food...but yes I was oversensetive and still prone to anger, that changes, I still have sometime before I reach the middle ages, next year the day pillar / sun will start, my moon is positive, but I made some wrong decisions, astrology & astronomy is recommended and has great usage for my survival in decision making, I tested just meditating and going about it with shadow work, discussing things with trusted ones, if you can't trust nobody any tool that does the job, simply does the job of generating new insights, and yes even spiritual ones! 

I am not quiet there yet, I am redefining pattern polarity v.s mechanism reality to deal with the identity issues within a larger company, I worked for two large and one small company, generally I am an unseen business men, but nobody gave me the creative freedom I required to build my own business... 

Life Palace

* Represents basic personality traits in this life and future fortune.

The poem says: My fate is in the Mao palace, encountering the Heavenly Destruction Star; even fleeting wealth and honor are often fraught with hardship.
How can I expect others to enjoy the beauty of their flowers while I am left desolate and unhappy?

Interpretation: The Mao Palace, with the Heavenly Pardon Star, signifies generosity and open-handedness. When in power, humility is paramount. People born in the Mao Palace tend to be physically weak in their youth, but become stronger in middle age. When they are young and vigorous, their overly sensitive nerves make them prone to anger, often leading to disputes over trivial matters and experiencing many setbacks. As they grow older, their character transforms into a rigorous, self-disciplined, and self-reliant individual. They possess exceptional observational skills, able to see deeply into people and events, clearly distinguishing between good and evil, as if seeing into the heart and lungs. This makes them more likely to attract sympathy. Their understanding of life and exploration of nature also have unique insights. This is the characteristic of the Mao Palace. If they encounter unfavorable years, physiologically, it may affect the genitals, causing kidney stones, hemorrhoids, rectal prolapse, blood poisoning, and other ailments.

[KosmicGeng]

I get so many good inquiries with GPT, for things that are non-obvious via GPT, also vaping helps me currently to keep away the alcohol, as it favours alcoholism, and alcoholic parents in my chart, via BaZi which was and is very true, and I dealt with this during my masters studies idk, why this came-up, but limiting alcohol to mostly beer, if at all was also a good tip, I enjoy it at times to much, and I am very athletic, but my body just requires a lot of healthy ressources then. 

I can't test all of this, but a lot of tech still misses, a lot of good technical descriptions in order for people to logically figure out problems, I moved myself into a position, but creating a company was just neccessary and more neccessary, not only pumping knowledge for a company, I felt my integrity was hindred partially, as they yearn to form identity, like pedophiles grooming kids, not letting themselves unfold their own identity and giving tools for exploration, just fucking up the IW archetype was the worst decision they could've made, there are so many lies in this economy.

[KosmicGeng]

Just while gaming, I had some core insights, how much I pushed survival into consciosuness and god, and whack most of the silly manipulative tendencies other humans have and how well my success for others felt, as well as my authenticity, but I have to rely on healthy stage red being pushed into TIER II, I was close to reaching TIER III, but a lot of social conditioning went into stage red, and even during these times there have been plenty of enlightend people, it also makes more sense to me, as my name is dedicated to a war saint, or via a greek perspective to agriculture and demeter, often times others abuse the core idea of benevolence to push down my success, while others take joy and humour in my character and personality, which is mercy. 

That is a nice insight from Deepak Chopra.

My core issue was here, these kids around here steadily approached me after my meditation practice and acted like pestering overcurious cats, as they sense the true spiritual gift I am at, but I still have kriyas and samskaras, which is natural.

Somehow this mixture does it for me, idk this guys music just punches the corruption out of me with lines of Truth, especially in survival, also my bias recently with Islam, I would require someone to translate the new audiobook it's 50h on islam.

I might meditate again, but tbh I confused my survival with spirituality, as the karmic world, just constantly acted out it's samsara, and I still have to find ways to work around it facing it directly, just showed me a slave mentality that is not good to build natural healthy dominance and the fire energy or agni, I also confused that avalon is a celtic legend, I somehow connected it to Iran, anyhow I stop here. 

This song still shocks me, as I attended an NGO and I thought at one point this could just happen how corrupt and open people can be, it was odd. 

 

[KosmicGeng]

I do also have a gut feeling about knowledge and survival, I stopped being more mature in power = knowledge, and pushing myself conceptually, also to transcend, my core issue is simply I dislike spiritual normies, and "clean cleans" who just scream perfect perfect like immature 2 year olds, I had enough ungrateful bastards in my life, I did a lot of practice it takes a lot of maturity to convince me working with a lot of Phd's and other humans showed me also the issue of the creative space and maturity, where this alpha music just kills the inner wussi in me absolutely, it aids a lot of survival tendencies and projections anyhow I stop again. 

I still have some different perspectives, I can deepen my archetypal work, but I have to be careful not to go overboard and also not to hang-out in these green health spaces, anyhow I stop again... I changed a lot, This is still art, at times I take it to serious, but learning from the mistakes is valueable.