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[KosmicGeng]

This article is also interesting to my chart, I really enjoy connecting the simplified life purpose with astrology/cosmology to work on character and virtue, but to transcend it ultimately, but I still require some guardrails, but I love stretching and testing limits also.

https://baziadvisor.com/posts/four-roads-to-prosperity-bazi-auxiliary-stars?returnTo=%2Fblog%2F1&returnLabel=Blog

My strongest energy amplified via pattern is the builder, it's funny how the monkey in the pattern is the sky dog and benefits from punishing enemies, some copycat it to much, due to yin-water/yang water dynamic fire-water harmony might just be r&b?

[KosmicGeng]

I tested, the stuff it works, some minor electronic stuff where there is not enough information to the seller, and I'd be required to have an a degree in electronics most likely, in order to calculate I listend to some music and I wonder, why I even like this and what the core development and issue is with such humans, as what it evokes, even if it's healing to me is odd, it's deeply inspiring, and at the sametime hynotizing and foolish, but it feels very good and I should trust my emotions partially as I know I am like this also, but this is exactly the core issue I saw with lack of responsibility and just being a male boy, where I and my mother struggle to reconcile and we don't have that much time, idk how long she will life, even if she is strong and has super vibrant tendencies, she still has 7k, the new boyfriend should do her well, I don't think the R&B guys go beyond insight with any actual integration, and what I experienced as a man with such women, with men/boys who transcended that it's odd as it's the divine feminine, to me or an expression of that, but the core issue is, it makes me just like them, and I have indications that are just like them most of it is a physical transformation, for e.g this song after I had the white light experience and golden aura experience a lot of that energy leaked into the universe, and I saw it reflected in art, I often creatively alternate music in my head in order to fit the truth I experienced and learned. 

For instance this to me is beautiful, but when I contemplate the maturity of relationships, and the core issue of money, economics and the core underlying envy causing this type of music as vice, not virtue I reconnect to an inner child, I know a part of me is different, as I enjoy a lot of Tory music also with a raw, stage red side that goes into alchemy for me, but it clearly shows also a dismissal to men themselves and I wonder why they can't bring any divine raw masculine, their charts are generally more leaning towards Yin, IIRC and it shows a core beauty to me idk how to frame it, but it creates the issue of infinite success, and the limit of it, it shows spirit and light or white light to me, I have shoes like this I can partially move like this, but also my body requires Psychic/Doctor levels or Paul Check levels of analysis in order to heal and deal with it, idk it's odd to contemplate this. 

I enjoy it, but part of me shows some core biases, lack of understanding of black history and newer creations, and from them the dismissal, as I am more white and have a higher IQ as soon as I start to do a bit of what I do there my mind switches bilungual and turns this into a bilateral white light type of YIn-Yang dynamic with 3-4 generes running through my mind, depending on knowledge and intuition. Anyhow...

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this on the side with some music starting cleaning soon:

I'll chart Lenin meanwhile. There is still an issue with Gui-Si and explanations we have that cross currently

The guy has a Fui-Kong Metal Drake Month on EG on F that naturally causes bolshevistic tendencies, as they yearn to rise and rise and see the good in friend archetype, which is classically communistic to me, the issue is similar to what I see intutively what I read yesterday briefly. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yu_the_Great

There is a difference, I also don't enjoy Geng-Wu year it clearly is a very radical executor, my mothers new boyfriend/man, is Geng-Wu, and I can clearly see it, it's annoying if another horse comes, it's just a blow-up of temperament in private etc. 

Yu the Great is clearly more of a saint, but I watch it on the side.

Edited August 14 by KosmicGeng

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38 minutes, after cleaning and listening to music, what I can free-recall and interleave from what I know, I checked some learning techniques, and what I did was beyond perfect also, the issue was I was required to keep training the body and keep my enviroment clean, but these communistic sex tendencies of the german/east etc. is complete anti-thesis to what I listen to with spend whatever she wants etc. I don't really enjoy sharing with men, without transcending it and accepting it as fantasy, there are already so many power dynamics doing a lot of live masturbations and what partially my body craves at times, due to some issues that simply come up. this is also a classic difference of why I hate this horse in BaZi, it takes forever to win and pushes itself as a human into every endeavour even if endearing it has to be post-modern minimum to be good.

The Geng-Wu aspects, simply shows the core issue of being on peak energy all of the time it's in death and emptiness, so no wonder he was attracted ot the godlessness of power holders, who have neither faith = white light or Truth = transcendent beliefs, and just gun for power, I really dislike Geng-Wu for example Travis Scott is a Geng-Wu I enjoy and Wu generally pushes power to it's ultimate, while the Goat is more of the protector ironically, from what I can read symbolically from what I enjoy, or liturgically in terms of it's archetypal symbolgy that is used in what I enjoy, anime, games etc. especially also some transcendent consciousness thoughts. 

I bought some great audiobooks for realizing GOD, the course of miracles one is the most powerful audiobook I ever listend to, I still want to enjoy that on psychdelics and see if I can transcend some states at least, I cleaned half the floor now wipping I generally enjoy it very clean, to the T, due to the 9w1 and 1w9 dynamic 9w1 is more forgiving, but struggles to get joy out of work, let's see eventually my mother reconciles quickly her chart shows maturity for the combination. 

I can analyse Lenin more, he already must've had some marxist influence via culture, I hope I can get the video done and continue, the knowledge in this university and from germany goes a bit further imo. 

[KosmicGeng]

I finished the first video, at the end he speaks about the informational state etc. there are some documentaries I saw recently that go deeper into Hitler, and the east and the war simulations I play I do my best to reconstruct a benevolent position out of war so far. I still have so much stuff to do and got more archetypal insights, I do have to calm down a bit, as it's paradoxical and involves sex, the main reason I see for such humans they are unable to get to needs of humans and build happiness. 

[KosmicGeng]

Ugh to much german stuff going against Leo's videos idk what to say due to art...

I'd be required to itntellectualize art and transcend this space finally

Edited August 14 by KosmicGeng

[KosmicGeng]

Cleaned most stuff...

[KosmicGeng]

Like what is this guy predicting and this happens partially in my life no joke watch the video a bit more educational than the two videos about Russia, but I asked for it, I got some answers from the art here,

Watch even if you're not German you should get it this album is insane!!!

This is a completely different take from my D.N.A as Ji-Si month etc. I miss pumping my own Geng-Shen alpha D.N.A but it#s already attenuated towards GOD and balance, a short clip to show my mind currently. 
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this, idk what will happen, I fixed some stuff, but I steadily have to take freak alternatives in order to survive currently, A.I still has a bad rep etc. I had Caltech lectures in ml I just checked, not MIT or Stanford etc. Idk what to take currently etc. 

This was the prof the lecture was based upon. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yaser_Abu-Mostafa

[KosmicGeng]

I just read there are not enough long-term studies, it was a shame to mesh myself into such much new development, it's still a huge issue, I yearned to be more god-like, but they cutted time like a sterotypical nazi and I require more time, now I have to push myself above the limit and experiment. 

I do my best to be grateful to Leo, via the gratitude journal, so it's more experience based, it's difficult with my persona, as it caused some massive issues, with the hyperlogic issues I face with my mother and the need for coherence etc. 

[KosmicGeng]

Did a 15 min small workout to get back on track with health and include the changse, and the trauma, also and what I did when I was at the psychatric ward, just meditating, working out, socializing and reading a bit, but they realesed me quickly, the issue is the sheepish mentality of fear still, when true strength is shining, I am still kind and modest usually, but there is a lack of character of people who never built their body, and I am still fairly upset about it, the gratitude exericse and the meditation kicked in.

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this

[KosmicGeng]

Just went through a bunch of stuff, and I keep cleaning-up to find alternatives, the issue of the hard-nosed, Leo caused massive issues, as I did not accept and immediate job, but I also have to take care and trust a little more, love fooled me, but not my spiritual practice and insights, he has faith in it, but I also feel deeply sorry, and require some more advanced help, now I can deal with the issues of society....

[KosmicGeng]

I am organizing a shit ton of stuff, this has been hell ever since, I had this 0 commitment relationship while I doubled-down and trusted the experience, I am still learning from the heart break, as I yearned to build a spiritual relationship, but often times, women just love me for my working energy and fall back to stage orange modernistic dynamics, after I did this course this will go on till your 60 or so, the underbelly of freedom and exellence, I yearned to get it out quickly, the injury kicked-in this has helped me tremendously, but I require the strength of management to be seen, and the hurting officer hour pillar, some behaviour does not change that fast, and others are secretly more hostile, then me 100%. 

Some stuff is blatantly racist, I don't know how to get over with it, I do my best, but the unfair social advantage has been an issue, ever since Trump came to power, and I don't even think I would have an issue with him personally, it's the masses that follow the delusion of the white race, human race etc. and stuff I wanted to study, now I am in this hell of confusion, and I am multi-talented but I have to double-down what I am exceptionally good at, which was biology, mathematics and sports, even from the course and as I grew-up my social skills and entrepreneurships increased, but the laws and regulations that Trump released did not help the surviallance state of the EU and it's an odd space currently tbh. 

[KosmicGeng]

Still processing a lot of stuff, I sent out some e-mails, due to the massive breakdowns which I personally see as healing I had, due to the extremeties of these life events, I don't have it easy, never had, I put a lot of work, in my writtings and contemplations, when I go to deep I absolutely have an emotional break down, my body has not processed fully what happend, but the conscious information is healing, I do have to master the Rahu aspects in my life time, and the archetypal work with Leo's course does wonder for the short periods where I am meditating, I can't be that super serious the whole time, and many don't get how much I studied BaZi now and have my own intuition I heal a lot with A.I and generally move faster my core issue is the quality of health and the difference in D.N.A, I still have to do my own research and be more serious not rigorous with the scientific process I enjoy. 

The practical work is mostly done offline, reflecting offline causes to much depression to me, I had this, I defnitely require to show-up to some extend and be seen, I don't know if I will ever be married, but I notice some shifts, but I will explore sexuality more deeply to some extend and put up a vision, I already changed values, and choose more fitting and complex names that generate meaning. I should learn to be more cautious and calculating with ChatGPT, especially it works wonders for decision, it then depends on the human qualities, I had the priviledge to train that, and I am very good at it, I am just not good at warm empathy ever since I hit TIER II, I should specify for a burst, then interleave, I am still contemplating with ChatGPT, most of my issues stem from not eating the right foods or being intelligent about the adaptation to environment. 

I changed the setup, so I can start today/tomorrow with more serious work of my interest, I have to see where this goes, I can't drink any alcohol, besides a few beers or the occasional party, being to clean is to radical, and moderation is still something I am learning, I had the benefit of multiple Ph.ds backing me and supporting me, the issue was the false peers I had and the competition, where I already had to leave, and some goodness I reject that I have to integrate etc. 

Anyhow I stop here, I defnitely require more casual female friends and sex relationships, to build depth at times life is paradoxical the most causal thing has more depth, then depth itself which can be shallow if depth just yearns to be right. 

[KosmicGeng]

Boah, I try to masturbate it's not working my mind is an information processing machine I chart so many live girls via, BaZi in order to get psycholgy more holistically, and the jump from subtle to causal, but I have to get to the core of the information and get back to the foundations again... 

I got hacked twice, it's a lot of stage purple attacks, after I've read, I will use Obsidian and if notion works back again integrate the older foundations, I made major mistakes here ChatGPT saves me with technical information that is simply quicker to source, analyse and breakdown, then my humand mind can do I am a better interconnector and creative, alternative generator and experimentor, as well as manifestor. Anyhow, I hope I can find more to God when I am older, what I did was already to mature to be true, and the leadership etc. was lacking, I have to put conscious leadership in a term and be serious, not rigid, that is imporant some level of rigour is good, but it will take some time... 

[KosmicGeng]

Alright, it did work, it's odd posting this anonymously, but a part of me craves to have some sort of healing for the sexual aspects, and that it's more dirty and enjoyable, to always pushing myself towards god/enlightenment during sex was an issue, I really gave it all and at times I forget.

Watching this taking some notes, I am not 100% where I want to be, in terms of understanding using energy more probably, but most of my reading itself, I can only put into private notes, this is more an open contemplation. 

[KosmicGeng]

What I can take out of the epsiode strucurally & obersavtionally:

(Old classical interpretations without TIER II dynamics, shadow work and meditation)

The three favourable:
-> DW, DR, (EG), DO

The four unfavourable (often more called in times of need, seen as negative from a conservative not liberal perspective)
-> RW,7k,IW, (HO), IR

The neutral:
-> F

Structural Example Of Conflict Paradigm (without special structures):
Wood Conflict Metal & Vice-Versa <=> Officals and "Friend stars" being structurally represented!
Generalized principle => the conflict not the clash geneartes the pattern of: "Officals & Friends conflicting"

Inter-Cross-Paradigmatic-Interleaved:
For example:

Wu-Xing Elements, conflicts are based upon oppositions 180 degrees (I hope tomorrow I can turn on my blue switch keyboard or soonish, I cleaned the black keyboard with brown switches it was overpriced) 

-----> (1.1) Leads to baseline polarity of "official stars" meeting with "friend stars", for each element to expand & interconnect the conflict the example given above with structures.

-----> (1.1.1) Example above with Wood & Metal conflict, if any of these are the day master and metal is present in the heavens stems it creates a conflict. Water & Earth are conflicting stems, Fire & Water in heavenly stems, also form a conflict, these are special patterns outside of the circle of control, production, and consuming cycles of subtle energy

(Wilber goes into the western perspective of Wu-Xing etc. in ROT, I do have to re-read it, instead of listening I am quiet tired)

Graveyard Pillars in month: Xu, Wei, Chou, Chen (未，丑，晨，狗) . for lack of a better character I use gou interchangeably for xu)

Special rules to create structure, for example:
 -> Month Pillar requires: hidden branch to be protuded in order to build the core structure/character in Wu-Xing structure/model
->  If there is not a grande trine = Triumvariate the pattern is also not build
-> Ancient teachings allow the pattern if energy is strong and clear in the month. 

Year Pillar Caveat:

•  Same element in earthly branch revealed in year pillar from Zi-Pings school leads to you see what you get polarity, for example Xin-Ji, seeing Xin Metal in Hour Pillar (example from video 10:34)

Hour pillar revelation of RW = Unfavourable, why?

Generally -> RW pulls and manipulates DW, and takes pride in pulling from pride from others
---------------> Very competitive if chart favours a strong daymaster, can be to rough with ups and downs
----------------> Hour pillar forces later periods of life, the last years, starting approx. 62+ age
----------------> Observe more


What is/are the core essential interconnetions?

• Year, can reveal honesty/integrity in heavenly stem -> I see it as a Uranus interconnection, to spirituality, but not quiet good, but the emmanance of god, the 61.6 <=> Alien consciousness via human design
   
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Adding this as an intersection, for further contemplations & practicing content generation!



My core take is the following there have been geniouses and pioneers regarding this, mostly why I take all of the ancient and past stuff and look for more advanced principles etc. but that also takes some time to make the distinctions, the principles alone, if they work are quiet good, generally the quote is quiet good, as I had this fundamentally with the bias of practicality and mechanics over the core interconnection of domain knowledge, science and making proper distinctions.

After doing some calculus, I hope when I sleep I can go back to the statistics and other courses I bought, to build on the foundations I build in NLP, Mathematics etc. and continue with the knowledge of the bachelor mostly solo, and continue to advance to some level, contemplate furhte with ChatGPT, I fucked up some serious stuff, due to the post-modern issue at universities and the issue of modernity it was a huge clash, way worse then Wu-Xing imo, that was the only thing somewhat making sense, as it felt quiet archaic, eventually on another day more. 

I have to take a break, I am up forever, and, after this b.s I found some intelligence again, to study. Taking a nap or smth. it's a wonder I fixed all of this with the bad descriptions etc. 

[KosmicGeng]

I am rewatching this, while gaming a bit I took a nap, I saw the new quote.



The point that I experienced with this is very often the case people with a luciferian soul or luciferian tendencies, I have ahriman soul from my analysis which fits more with health or unhealthy stage blue, instead of red, and Lucifer was incarnated in the 16th century according to steiner working with some enteties and other things, I wanted to get at, the biggest lesson I learned is the issue of christ consciousness and principle and perfection, the mechanicalness can only win against the devil if it's at least the now, god comes in as a state experience or the christ principle and consciousness, the ex has the whole thing defined, and I speculate that this causes most of her issues, as she abused the goodness of my mechnicalness, for her evil input, but I really enjoyed the sex. I often admitt wrong-doings that is the largest part of my maturity, and do my best to correct and work with more advanced and basic knowledge, or new things that simply work. 

Using definitions against me has not been working only when I open my heart and I am vulnerable, becoming more aware that the devil has luciferian soul or even a satanic soul and his highly intelligent, and some other new information that is esoteric, but will take some time to work with, especially with health as it costs a lot of money, I often look for real evidence, instead of relying on the mechanicalness, but I also have to explore the devil in order to understand what it is.

The point is then what is good about mechanics? Mostly the experience of transcending it and accesing the flow, and enjoying the true nature of mechaniclness itself which is god, if I get more structure down, I can dive back into the course of miracles this audiobook was so powerful for realizing god and principles that break this satanic and devilrsh soul. She even had the right or left cross of contagion, I have never meet someone so hideous, but I notice my core soul is simply to strong to fully be broken, the healing process is painful, but it also forces some dark knights out of me. 

[KosmicGeng]

On the episode fake spirituality:

Where I was right

• Doing hardcore meditation retreats in silence with bio-breaks to treat the body and don't forget physical care and intuition, as my body is very unique, with the scar I have since birth, unique situations arise, that force me constantly to surviva and love the world more.
• Using new mantras that force god and love upon me
• If it does not translate from the cushion to real life and reality it's not a genuient spiritual practice which does happen
• Starting to do solo-retreats at home for 2-3 days max, as I don't have more time, see later points on survival I got wrong and conflated
• I killed boredom towards GOD, the core issue is the karmic lethargy from a 9w1 mother, and the core issue of the complexity of self, the more I understand the relative parts, the better I can deconstruct, my intentions are often read wrong, and I start to self-sabotage, I forgot to remind myself of the self-sabotaging qualties of engaging with others survival, it sneaks in and catches, you the new mantras help me to find a middle ground
• Trusting my intuition about survival, different needs
• Upgrading my health, now I have to get back to a baseline, enjoying survival was also right, but I conflated it a bit with the spiritual
• Using tarot as a tool and entry point of spiritual inquiry, asking the ancients, and ancient times, what types of inquiry lead to their god-experience, when I was fascinated with it
• That the meditation experience I had could've pushed me to mahasamadhi and I would be gone from the depth of samadhi, I am very glad I was asking nature & god itself
• My D.N.A and my training in my 20's was very high and ethical, I have to be careful to not absolutely kill myself, I have been spiritual my whole life with the priviledge, of being an only child, but I still require to show-up and be seen to master survival more, have a better environment, not afflicted by war traumas.... I am sorry at times, but I absolutely lost it pulling me into war, is nothing that I have to do with purpose
• I don't enjoy being made fun of
• Esoteric & occult is fine, as long as the spiritual practice is real, and can be used as pointers
• Knowledge pulls me into god, not concepts, that is a core difference concepts always evoke self

Where I was wrong:

• Attacking others spiritual process, and correcting them
• Attacking others survival, instead of sharing experience
• To not notice how my genuient practice transcends survival,
• How much survival I still have to do, especially the social mask, I am to real at times, because I don't like bullshit, bullshit love etc. love comes automatically, and I have been kissed by GOD
• When there is survival focus on survival! When there is a time & space to go for god, do that! Don't conflate the two, keep a daily auto practice like I learned with Shinzen, I deconstruct daily, I am a natural deconstructor
• I can add more spiritual knowledge, in order to have pointers towards mystecism, mystical experiences and transcend survival, while learning from survival
• Survival goes deeper then I thought after I went into relationships, I had some deep spiritual experience, I still crave recognition for exellence which is healthy, after doing the Wilber course
• I am still sabotaging my body, based on the information I have, the level of health I can't build right now, I have to work with the satisfaction, but more core D.N.A minimum years at peace, then trauma starts and I have to transcend these emotions to move towards god
• I thought the body is a faster entry, to me it's the brain
• That I thought my practice is not spiritually flavoured, manifestation etc. is fine, I am a manifestor and using this and letting go and facing the reality of the manifestation, not some "lofty intent
• That others see the self

What I learned

• Leo is a better teacher, then I thought, especially sharing knowledge, I had to many issues with the pain of pure ignorance and neglicence of being lost in just being lost, that is a karma 9's in the enneagram have their are so lost, but then cause miracles & love
• Loving reality more & loving and mastering the illusion
• The better I do the more of it is a test, I faced a lot of envious lower class people
• I still have addicitve tendencies, the self enjoys, but it does not obstruct getting to god, it hampers survival
• Paradoxes 

Misunderstandings between me and Leo in terms of socical survival & perception (not all)

• There is a class difference in experience, were upwards mobillity is blocked by the conceptual mind and the not sharing of the conceptual mind, while I am more exellence driven, it transcends me towards god, but it takes meditating in activity often to reach states of samadhi
• I still require more concepts in order to understand and transcend, my core card in Tarot is the hierophant, and I have the right cross of consciousness and god, I am an absolut spiritual gift, but people corrupt me quickly, as I can delete myself also to quickly if done right.... psychdelics are fucking dangerous, even the baseline, even just weed etc.
• There is a class distinction where he does not recognize the seriousness of my inner warrior nobillity, that I miss, due to injury, there is a new wisdom arising, that is more akin to Odin archetypally, crippled depth and wisdom, that goes beyond god, there are vedic/hindu archetypes that point to this, archetypes are also survival!! But can be a good entry-point
• Fun is allowed, but we're very different, my giftedness is not fully unfolded and I am very angry at that, and leo has Yi-Chou, and gives a lot of guidance etc, learning about this survival has helped me to deal with the character creation and building, but this achievment drive at stage orange has to go, I've seen a lot of pointers, and I see it gone mostly in Leo
• I am more focused on survival, and he sees that correctly, it's neccessary, what I don't enjoy is the nefarious, anger tantrums of Yi-Chou, and the demonizing of the spiritual talent a lot of monkeys naturally have, where is Geng-Chen Month pillar aids more towards the monthly virtue of being a gift to humanity, Leo is a gift to humanity, even if I was a toxic, hostile ass, you're a gift to humanity, but we still work through the masculinity of the east both! Which is hardcore, I can only share with music to relate what I yearn
• We're both snakes with spiritual talent beyond comprehension, I see you're point, but your better at going directly towards god, I am better with archetypal work as pointer
• He sees me as something where he corrupts himself, I am very open to being corrupted, satan already fucked me at birth, I know corruption since day 0, the corse lesson it wants me to master survival and delete it out of my soul
• He was envious about the inheritance, like a lot of humans were I was genuient, humans are lucifer! FUCK LUCIFER FUCK LUCIFER GIVE ME LIGHT!!! BUT FUCK LUCIFER, I WILL LOVE YOU TO DEATH TILL YOU EAT WHITE LIGHT AGAIN!!! YOUR LIGHT IS CORRUTPED LIKE AN OCCULTIST USING FIRE TO FUCK BABIES TO GET TO LIGHT
• Mischaracterizing me as ill, due to years of racism, this is not out, due to survival competition, humanity lacks love, and I push myself to 0 love, and just GOD, there is no other choice, in that regard fuck LOVE!

Synopsis:

There is simply more!

I still have to integrate that level of masculinity I was at, with survival and my femine side, I do have to see, I received a lot of devlish, lucier souls, when I started to naturally spiritual lead, it just came from my practice, I am glad Leo is more like Kant, then Lucifer, Lucifer is the most intelligent devil possible, this place is full of devils, you can only give them Lichtwesen ins Gesicht, they are already in hell.

Survival automatically becomes mixed with spirituality, my point is my life just might become dangerous, by who I am and personality etc. I will see... being bold and couragus is something that I am, the 6'ish ahiriman safety is not good for courage, it makes you beta, transcending ahriman to GOD is important, generally subtle/causal archetypes at TIER III and TIER I elementals, TIER II seems only be affected at having point-access towarsd it depending on degree of spiritual openness