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[KosmicGeng]

This article is also interesting to my chart, I really enjoy connecting the simplified life purpose with astrology/cosmology to work on character and virtue, but to transcend it ultimately, but I still require some guardrails, but I love stretching and testing limits also.

https://baziadvisor.com/posts/four-roads-to-prosperity-bazi-auxiliary-stars?returnTo=%2Fblog%2F1&returnLabel=Blog

My strongest energy amplified via pattern is the builder, it's funny how the monkey in the pattern is the sky dog and benefits from punishing enemies, some copycat it to much, due to yin-water/yang water dynamic fire-water harmony might just be r&b?

[KosmicGeng]

I tested, the stuff it works, some minor electronic stuff where there is not enough information to the seller, and I'd be required to have an a degree in electronics most likely, in order to calculate I listend to some music and I wonder, why I even like this and what the core development and issue is with such humans, as what it evokes, even if it's healing to me is odd, it's deeply inspiring, and at the sametime hynotizing and foolish, but it feels very good and I should trust my emotions partially as I know I am like this also, but this is exactly the core issue I saw with lack of responsibility and just being a male boy, where I and my mother struggle to reconcile and we don't have that much time, idk how long she will life, even if she is strong and has super vibrant tendencies, she still has 7k, the new boyfriend should do her well, I don't think the R&B guys go beyond insight with any actual integration, and what I experienced as a man with such women, with men/boys who transcended that it's odd as it's the divine feminine, to me or an expression of that, but the core issue is, it makes me just like them, and I have indications that are just like them most of it is a physical transformation, for e.g this song after I had the white light experience and golden aura experience a lot of that energy leaked into the universe, and I saw it reflected in art, I often creatively alternate music in my head in order to fit the truth I experienced and learned. 

For instance this to me is beautiful, but when I contemplate the maturity of relationships, and the core issue of money, economics and the core underlying envy causing this type of music as vice, not virtue I reconnect to an inner child, I know a part of me is different, as I enjoy a lot of Tory music also with a raw, stage red side that goes into alchemy for me, but it clearly shows also a dismissal to men themselves and I wonder why they can't bring any divine raw masculine, their charts are generally more leaning towards Yin, IIRC and it shows a core beauty to me idk how to frame it, but it creates the issue of infinite success, and the limit of it, it shows spirit and light or white light to me, I have shoes like this I can partially move like this, but also my body requires Psychic/Doctor levels or Paul Check levels of analysis in order to heal and deal with it, idk it's odd to contemplate this. 

I enjoy it, but part of me shows some core biases, lack of understanding of black history and newer creations, and from them the dismissal, as I am more white and have a higher IQ as soon as I start to do a bit of what I do there my mind switches bilungual and turns this into a bilateral white light type of YIn-Yang dynamic with 3-4 generes running through my mind, depending on knowledge and intuition. Anyhow...

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this on the side with some music starting cleaning soon:

I'll chart Lenin meanwhile. There is still an issue with Gui-Si and explanations we have that cross currently

The guy has a Fui-Kong Metal Drake Month on EG on F that naturally causes bolshevistic tendencies, as they yearn to rise and rise and see the good in friend archetype, which is classically communistic to me, the issue is similar to what I see intutively what I read yesterday briefly. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yu_the_Great

There is a difference, I also don't enjoy Geng-Wu year it clearly is a very radical executor, my mothers new boyfriend/man, is Geng-Wu, and I can clearly see it, it's annoying if another horse comes, it's just a blow-up of temperament in private etc. 

Yu the Great is clearly more of a saint, but I watch it on the side.

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[KosmicGeng]

38 minutes, after cleaning and listening to music, what I can free-recall and interleave from what I know, I checked some learning techniques, and what I did was beyond perfect also, the issue was I was required to keep training the body and keep my enviroment clean, but these communistic sex tendencies of the german/east etc. is complete anti-thesis to what I listen to with spend whatever she wants etc. I don't really enjoy sharing with men, without transcending it and accepting it as fantasy, there are already so many power dynamics doing a lot of live masturbations and what partially my body craves at times, due to some issues that simply come up. this is also a classic difference of why I hate this horse in BaZi, it takes forever to win and pushes itself as a human into every endeavour even if endearing it has to be post-modern minimum to be good.

The Geng-Wu aspects, simply shows the core issue of being on peak energy all of the time it's in death and emptiness, so no wonder he was attracted ot the godlessness of power holders, who have neither faith = white light or Truth = transcendent beliefs, and just gun for power, I really dislike Geng-Wu for example Travis Scott is a Geng-Wu I enjoy and Wu generally pushes power to it's ultimate, while the Goat is more of the protector ironically, from what I can read symbolically from what I enjoy, or liturgically in terms of it's archetypal symbolgy that is used in what I enjoy, anime, games etc. especially also some transcendent consciousness thoughts. 

I bought some great audiobooks for realizing GOD, the course of miracles one is the most powerful audiobook I ever listend to, I still want to enjoy that on psychdelics and see if I can transcend some states at least, I cleaned half the floor now wipping I generally enjoy it very clean, to the T, due to the 9w1 and 1w9 dynamic 9w1 is more forgiving, but struggles to get joy out of work, let's see eventually my mother reconciles quickly her chart shows maturity for the combination. 

I can analyse Lenin more, he already must've had some marxist influence via culture, I hope I can get the video done and continue, the knowledge in this university and from germany goes a bit further imo. 

[KosmicGeng]

I finished the first video, at the end he speaks about the informational state etc. there are some documentaries I saw recently that go deeper into Hitler, and the east and the war simulations I play I do my best to reconstruct a benevolent position out of war so far. I still have so much stuff to do and got more archetypal insights, I do have to calm down a bit, as it's paradoxical and involves sex, the main reason I see for such humans they are unable to get to needs of humans and build happiness. 

[KosmicGeng]

Ugh to much german stuff going against Leo's videos idk what to say due to art...

I'd be required to itntellectualize art and transcend this space finally

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[KosmicGeng]

Cleaned most stuff...

[KosmicGeng]

Like what is this guy predicting and this happens partially in my life no joke watch the video a bit more educational than the two videos about Russia, but I asked for it, I got some answers from the art here,

Watch even if you're not German you should get it this album is insane!!!

This is a completely different take from my D.N.A as Ji-Si month etc. I miss pumping my own Geng-Shen alpha D.N.A but it#s already attenuated towards GOD and balance, a short clip to show my mind currently. 
 

 

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this, idk what will happen, I fixed some stuff, but I steadily have to take freak alternatives in order to survive currently, A.I still has a bad rep etc. I had Caltech lectures in ml I just checked, not MIT or Stanford etc. Idk what to take currently etc. 

This was the prof the lecture was based upon. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yaser_Abu-Mostafa

[KosmicGeng]

I just read there are not enough long-term studies, it was a shame to mesh myself into such much new development, it's still a huge issue, I yearned to be more god-like, but they cutted time like a sterotypical nazi and I require more time, now I have to push myself above the limit and experiment. 

I do my best to be grateful to Leo, via the gratitude journal, so it's more experience based, it's difficult with my persona, as it caused some massive issues, with the hyperlogic issues I face with my mother and the need for coherence etc. 

[KosmicGeng]

Did a 15 min small workout to get back on track with health and include the changse, and the trauma, also and what I did when I was at the psychatric ward, just meditating, working out, socializing and reading a bit, but they realesed me quickly, the issue is the sheepish mentality of fear still, when true strength is shining, I am still kind and modest usually, but there is a lack of character of people who never built their body, and I am still fairly upset about it, the gratitude exericse and the meditation kicked in.

[KosmicGeng]

Watching this

[KosmicGeng]

Just went through a bunch of stuff, and I keep cleaning-up to find alternatives, the issue of the hard-nosed, Leo caused massive issues, as I did not accept and immediate job, but I also have to take care and trust a little more, love fooled me, but not my spiritual practice and insights, he has faith in it, but I also feel deeply sorry, and require some more advanced help, now I can deal with the issues of society....

[KosmicGeng]

I am organizing a shit ton of stuff, this has been hell ever since, I had this 0 commitment relationship while I doubled-down and trusted the experience, I am still learning from the heart break, as I yearned to build a spiritual relationship, but often times, women just love me for my working energy and fall back to stage orange modernistic dynamics, after I did this course this will go on till your 60 or so, the underbelly of freedom and exellence, I yearned to get it out quickly, the injury kicked-in this has helped me tremendously, but I require the strength of management to be seen, and the hurting officer hour pillar, some behaviour does not change that fast, and others are secretly more hostile, then me 100%. 

Some stuff is blatantly racist, I don't know how to get over with it, I do my best, but the unfair social advantage has been an issue, ever since Trump came to power, and I don't even think I would have an issue with him personally, it's the masses that follow the delusion of the white race, human race etc. and stuff I wanted to study, now I am in this hell of confusion, and I am multi-talented but I have to double-down what I am exceptionally good at, which was biology, mathematics and sports, even from the course and as I grew-up my social skills and entrepreneurships increased, but the laws and regulations that Trump released did not help the surviallance state of the EU and it's an odd space currently tbh. 

[KosmicGeng]

Still processing a lot of stuff, I sent out some e-mails, due to the massive breakdowns which I personally see as healing I had, due to the extremeties of these life events, I don't have it easy, never had, I put a lot of work, in my writtings and contemplations, when I go to deep I absolutely have an emotional break down, my body has not processed fully what happend, but the conscious information is healing, I do have to master the Rahu aspects in my life time, and the archetypal work with Leo's course does wonder for the short periods where I am meditating, I can't be that super serious the whole time, and many don't get how much I studied BaZi now and have my own intuition I heal a lot with A.I and generally move faster my core issue is the quality of health and the difference in D.N.A, I still have to do my own research and be more serious not rigorous with the scientific process I enjoy. 

The practical work is mostly done offline, reflecting offline causes to much depression to me, I had this, I defnitely require to show-up to some extend and be seen, I don't know if I will ever be married, but I notice some shifts, but I will explore sexuality more deeply to some extend and put up a vision, I already changed values, and choose more fitting and complex names that generate meaning. I should learn to be more cautious and calculating with ChatGPT, especially it works wonders for decision, it then depends on the human qualities, I had the priviledge to train that, and I am very good at it, I am just not good at warm empathy ever since I hit TIER II, I should specify for a burst, then interleave, I am still contemplating with ChatGPT, most of my issues stem from not eating the right foods or being intelligent about the adaptation to environment. 

I changed the setup, so I can start today/tomorrow with more serious work of my interest, I have to see where this goes, I can't drink any alcohol, besides a few beers or the occasional party, being to clean is to radical, and moderation is still something I am learning, I had the benefit of multiple Ph.ds backing me and supporting me, the issue was the false peers I had and the competition, where I already had to leave, and some goodness I reject that I have to integrate etc. 

Anyhow I stop here, I defnitely require more casual female friends and sex relationships, to build depth at times life is paradoxical the most causal thing has more depth, then depth itself which can be shallow if depth just yearns to be right. 

[KosmicGeng]

Boah, I try to masturbate it's not working my mind is an information processing machine I chart so many live girls via, BaZi in order to get psycholgy more holistically, and the jump from subtle to causal, but I have to get to the core of the information and get back to the foundations again... 

I got hacked twice, it's a lot of stage purple attacks, after I've read, I will use Obsidian and if notion works back again integrate the older foundations, I made major mistakes here ChatGPT saves me with technical information that is simply quicker to source, analyse and breakdown, then my humand mind can do I am a better interconnector and creative, alternative generator and experimentor, as well as manifestor. Anyhow, I hope I can find more to God when I am older, what I did was already to mature to be true, and the leadership etc. was lacking, I have to put conscious leadership in a term and be serious, not rigid, that is imporant some level of rigour is good, but it will take some time...