Love Experience Sober Report

[AtmanIsBrahman]

So I had this experience the other day where I had a spontaneous love awakening. I was contemplating reality and trying to write a philosophy of everything from scratch. The idea was to value truth to a ridiculous extent that no human does and actually put it into written form. But as I was doing this, I was also gaining an insanely deep consciousness of reality.
It got weird when I suddenly had the clear impression that my cat, sitting on a hassock right next to me, was imaginary. It felt like I could sense the Universe imagining the cat into being in all its complexity. I saw through the cat as being both a mechanical survival machine and infinite intelligence incarnate at the same time—a manifestation of God in a finite form not knowing that it’s God. But I knew, and I think the cat saw that something was different and acted weird. 
I got kind of uncomfortable with this situation, so I decided to go to the bathroom and take a shower. At the same time, I was realizing love. I looked at my body and realized that it was Love. I had an insight then: that the reason you are allowed to be a human is because God loves you so much. The human is an imperfect creature, but God allows it to be so without judgment because that is the highest love. This love felt like too much to bear. I got in the shower, and was feeling horny from all the love, so kind of got to action if you know what I mean. At the same time I was aware that this is a finite and foolish form of love, but nevertheless God loves you for it so it’s okay.

The existential love still felt greater, though. As I was under the water, I felt like the universe was merging with the back of my head with the water as a medium. Eventually my level of consciousness came back down again, except I was energized and lucid.