7 Handshakes with 5-MeO-DMT

[ZenSwift]

7 Handshakes with 5-MeO-DMT 

June 3rd 2025 - June 12th 2025

 

Table of Contents:

• 5-MEO-DMT Failed Attempts
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0001
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0002
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0003
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0004
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0005
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0006
• 5-MeO-DMT Trip 0007

 

5-MEO-DMT Failed Attempts:

5-MEO-DMT Attempt 1 0001 - Dose is way Too Low

My Scoop is the small end of the yellow double scoop.

(Pictured: The microscoops)

Date: August 4th 2023

• 2:31 plugged half scoop at 6mm mark. Felt nothing of note.
• 3:10 plugged 1 scoop at 5mm mark and stood up immediately. Felt nothing of note
• 3:37 pm snorted half a scoop
• 7 minutes in: Feeling tingling in my nasal cavity as I sit here with my head upside down for the first 10 minutes. I felt the burning in the back of my throat as I felt the substance leaking back there lol

 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0001

Date: June 3rd 2025 

Context: In Ireland with my fellow Actualized.org enjoyer friend. We have no Microscoops or anything of that sort. Just a pair of eyeballs. So we just put a couple grains in an oil burner pipe, and used a normal lighter, and off to the races we go. It's pretty ironic that the most powerful substances are the hardest to measure. In the future, I will invest in an e-mesh setup, and use microscoops. Right now in the current scenario I find myself in, this is not accessible. 

 

As expected, shortly after taking a hit for the pipe, within a minute you are fully skyrocketed into the state of consciousness of the dose you just took. This psychedelic experience is not beginner material.

 

The set and setting was indoors sitting on the floor wrapped in blankets, sitting cross-legged. I have my trip sitter directly sitting in front of me where we hold hands and maintain eye contact and have verbal affirmations of love of God to aid in grounding. 

 

HIT 1

The come up was gnarly. I just had a few grains, but overall it was very well handled. Due to my already established experience with other psychedelics, I was able to “hold on” and not reject the experience. However, how deep it went with just a couple grains was completely unexpected, but I hung in there nonetheless. I'm glad I just did a few grains! I had vibrations in my hands and I made a comment around the emphasis of how stable I was 5 minutes later.

 

I had a little bit of tactile enhancement, feeling in my hands, increased body awareness. I tried to take a look at my hands to see if there's anything extremely noticeable in these different states of consciousness, but nothing that I could penetrate right there, the dose is too low for anything obvious to be revealed to me.

 

((( For Context...

Personally, the attitude that I take with psychedelics now is that things will reveal themselves with a proper high enough dose and with the proper focusing of your consciousness. For example, when I became conscious for the first time that I have no head when I was on mushrooms, it was just obvious, I was focusing on "what is actuality", and I realized that there was no physical head present. Or when I was on another trip of mushrooms and how everything around me was revealed to be made out of nothing. Nothing IS going on. This became completely obvious. The room felt holographic. Or another time when I was tripping on 6.5 grams of mushrooms, and the fact that I was the only experiencer in reality became completely obvious. With all of this in mind, I am assuming that what is to be revealed to me on 5-MeO-DMT will just become obvious and apparent.

 

In my experience, the best insights come from just having a good contemplation practice sober, and then letting that sober contemplation inform your direct experience in these Peak States Of Consciousness when you're on a psychedelic, paying attention to the truth of direct experience. 

 

I have yet to use LSD-like substances and just practice long bouts of contemplation on a continual basis. I’ve done this with LSD Trip 002 and LSD Trip 004, and it was powerful.

At this moment of my life, my contemplation muscle is relatively weak to where I need it to be.

 

So I don't try to force any insights, they just come when they do. I just go through the motions of contemplation and pay attention to the actuality of direct experience, and see what comes up.

 

Now with these initial doses, I'm pretty much just trying to get used to doing the substance. With experience, I will be able to integrate much more contemplative thought or intentions into my trips but I think just getting myself to that higher state of consciousness is above all, the most important. The studies and contemplations that I've done sober will ultimately feed into those heightened states. 

 

I noticed after just reading through parts of the book “God is Nothingness”, nothingness was immediately more understandable and accessible. So likewise, I gotta study more into the Nature of Consciousness. I've gotta crack Leo’s book list wide open and read the crap out of it!

End of Context...))) 

 

It was an intense come up like a ton of bricks. Like a Tsunami that hits you before you understand what's going on. 

 

The most important thing that will ground you through this experience is focusing on love. This is my experience so far. 

 

I would rate this an overall come up intensity 7 out of 10. This psychedelic will immediately demand your seriousness. It slapped away any hint of jokiness or tomfoolery attitude out of my consciousness. This was the real deal, this is serious work. 

 

I understand now why shamans are so serious with the song and dance that they do. Although I believe it largely to be unnecessary to have all the rituals, I understand why it is done with the utmost seriousness. The song and dance is just a medium through to practice an attitude of seriousness and devotion to set the tone for the psychedelic. At the end of the day, it's how your state of consciousness IS, going INTO the 5-MeO-DMT trip, and your level of readiness.

 

I can understand now, how you have to want God deeply with your entire heart; coming from a place of intense yearning and wanting to know God like a man whose head is on fire wants a pool of water. This level of desire for God will be the bridge to let go of yourself and to endure your fear, to really lean into the experience to cross over into a proper ego death, and breakthrough. 

 

HIT 2

I took a second hit about an hour later, it was much easier, more stable, most likely also because I was playing a song that I deeply connected with emotionally and I think that becomes an anchor throughout the experience.

 

HIT 3

20 minutes later I hit the pipe a third time, and it was really easy, very stable, and I'm starting to get increasingly comfortable with the unique state of consciousness. And now I have noticed a really bad taste in my mouth from the substance probably being burnt a little bit. 

 

HIT 4

23 minutes later I hit the pipe for a fourth time, it was a slightly bigger dose, but it was handled seamlessly. It was very stable and I just had silence this time, I was very relaxed and calibrated. 

 

I can see how you can lose yourself completely, you're just gone, and you just completely dissolve.

 

I've realized doing NSDR before a 5meo hit could help significantly because it relaxes the nervous system

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0002

Date: June 4th 2025

Dose: Unknown. 1-5mg Smoked. 

 

Hit 1: Biggest hit so far. 

• Had to swat away the mind like flies. Thoughts about backing out have no good use here at all. 
• That trip was tough. 
• I was zoned in for a solid 9-10 minutes. 
• You need to weep to receive God.
• You need to want God from a place of deep sadness. Sadness is divine. There is something powerful in Sadness.
• God's eternal love is patient. 

 

Love = Surrender

Love = Death

Death = God = Selflessness

 

• I have a slightly heightened access to accessing the beauty of God in direct experience, and the love that comes from a state of selflessness. When you shut off your own thoughts that come from self-interest, you become much more understanding of others' need for love and you become a vessel of love.
• You lean into someone's jokes the more you love them.
• You can feel the polarity of positive and negative in your words and in your tone of voice.
• What is God's love?

Hit 2: about 50 minutes later: Felt half as strong

 

Hit 3: 5-7 minutes later

• Not much to write home about, still not as strong
• I experienced a lot of brain fatigue later.
• I can definitely see the value of plugging 5-MeO-DMT. To get that prolonged experience in that peak state of consciousness, to really soak in what is obvious in that state of consciousness. 

 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0003

Date: June 8th 2025

Just in the preparation of 5-MeO-DMT, I am noticing all of the ways I am a devil with my judgement. I have to cultivate an environment of love to create a proper set and setting for these trips.

 

This session I took several hits, starting with a very tiny bit, and then just taking hits subsequently, until probably about four to six hits in total. With some inhales more successful than others. Nothing experienced here knocked my socks off, like in the last session. 

But I had a positive encounter with an easy light caress into the 5-MeO-DMT space. 

The ego prevents you from being serious. That's its job to distract you from this work.

Selflessness = Intelligence

Death, ego death gets recontextualized into dissolving into love. I look forward to the exhaustion of dying to God. 

The previous days I've noticed significant more stress being held in my body with acne forming on my face, neck and my shoulders especially on my back.

I also had all the stress and fear get channeled into my hip flexors which artificially tightened them significantly to the point of inability to rotate my right leg outward. So my body was experiencing LOADS of fear. 

After today's session my hip mobility was significantly restored because my body was finally able to relax. Today was another session of experience to get comfortable with 5MEO.

 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0004

Date: June 9th 2025

 

Contemplations from earlier… 

All your problems in relationships dissolve when you own other people as part of Self. Because it IS you. There are no others. The realization of no others helps you own other people as part of your complete identity.

 

Smoked freebase.

During/After the trip… 

• The mind ceasing is not death.
• Fear is part of what you are. And you must own it.

Say a prayer of love with your mind as you inhale the pipe.

• Contemplate WHAT death is.
• Death appears to be the dissolution of the mind. And the mind is what the Ego appears to be. What you identify with is the ego-mind. So when the mind dissolves, you think you're dying. But that's just the ego-mind dissolving. 

 

Smoke the full intended amount on the first go. That is leaning into the intention. And into the fear. 

   

If you're taking 5-MeO-DMT, it appears that the best is to front your desired dose right away. Rather than smoking a little bit, then going for a bigger hit right after. 

For me just one hit is enough. I'd feel too fried otherwise.

Last trip I was fried from taking more than one dose.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0005

Date: June 10th 2025

Time: 5:36pm

1 hit. Very manageable

 

Tears roll down my eyes as I enjoy connecting with the Death of my dog. I imagine the connection felt with my mom holding the hand of someone in hospice dying. Holding eye contact. The sadness of the death of someone you love appears to be an anchor while you get eviscerated on 5-MeO-DMT. Focus on the death of someone you know of when you die on a psychedelic yourself.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0006

Date: June 11th 2025

Smoked. 

Good Solid Dose. 

I see that one must pass the threshold and lose your mind into bliss.

My courage and trust in you God will lead me through all fear.

I recognized that my trip sitter was not serious as I needed them to be, so he was very distracting. He got cocky with it. I'd rather of had tripped alone.

End of Report.
 

5-MeO-DMT Trip 0007

Date: June 12th 2025

Smoked. 

Easy dose. 

I need to have a much better dosing method for sure.

End of Report.

Next time I use 5-MeO-DMT, I want a much more controlled dose and measured dose. I also have thoughts around upping the dose significantly to create a sure-fire breakthrough. I think dosing too low poses its own risk, dosing high enough where your ego gets laser-blasted to smithereens appears to be useful here. Where the psychedelic just throws you off the cliff...