A cautionary tale

[Justin my mind]

I’m 23 I have cerebral palsy and I’ve been disabled all my life. I watched a lot of this content. I really enjoyed the encouragement to think for yourself, but I don’t believe in a lot of the epistemological stuff I try to practice, not knowing as much as possible that video has helped me a lot, but also hurt me breaking through the illusion of separation has kind of been disoriented for me being disabled makes me have to rely on others way more so I never got the illusion of having my own separate independence. There are things that are in my direct experience that I try to question all the time because I don’t want to look like I just believe in what other people say, I do stand-up comedy now and have a life purpose gonna try to make more YouTube videos what scares me about the illusion of separation. I know I’m the source of love and the apparent others are just reflections. I just get fascinated with some of them and it feels like a part of me is rejecting myself my therapist I should look for non-spiritual ways to ground myself and book recommendations or other resources. I’d very much appreciate it.