What is Beauty?

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I really need this one figured out.

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And so too with -

What is Love?

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What is the relationship between Beauty & Love?

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Well lets find an example:

What could possibly be more Beautiful than a Datura bloom?

Do you Love the Datura bloom?

Why do you Love the Datura bloom?

Do you love it for its Beauty?

Or is it Beautiful because you Love it?

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Beauty comes in all forms though. Not just visually.

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is this Beautiful to you?

Why do you find this Beautiful or not?

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For Love!

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21 hours ago, No1Here2c said:

What could possibly be more Beautiful than a Datura bloom?

Perhaps the only higher Love is to Love everything exactly the same as I love the Datura bloom.

Just a thought. Not saying its true.

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I see how I can sit here for hours posting ever more examples of things I find beautiful and still never get to the bottom of what Beauty actually is.

What are the ramifications of this?

How do you get to the root of Understanding Beauty?

Can beauty be effectively described?

My basic understanding is that beauty is a relative thing. Although it seems to have a deeper root when I truly investigate.

I need to do more contemplation on these two:

Beauty.

Love.

What is the best way to communicate beauty?

What is the best way to communicate love?

Is there a universal way for beauty and love to be expressed/experienced?

A flower can teach many things.

Beauty

Love

expression 

addiction 

Madness 

Fruit/ seed bearing/ dispersal

Attraction 

Deception 

Direct vs indirect transmission 

...

What is a course in life?

How is my life trajectory determined?

What ultimately determines my lifes course?

What is a decision?

How do my decisions influence my course in life?

How do I make a decision?

What is will?

How does will work?

What is the difference between will and intent?

How do will & intent influence our decisions?

What is an influence?

What does influence do?

What does anything do?

What influences me?

How can I influence myself?

What is the best decision that can be made right now?

It is easy for anyone to see how distractions could lead quickly to death.

For example, while driving, merely a momentary lapse in awareness is all that it takes to wind up dead.

What is not so easy for people, is to see how long term, consistent "low-level" distraction can also eliminate them.

This is very dangerous territory here. Reality. It seems now it is death by distraction, or else the Truth will get you.

But what is Truth?

How is Truth derived?

Death by distraction?

Better to die by distraction quickly or slowly?

If you think reality does not contain the capacity for ruthlessness you misunderstand this work.

What is a Lure?

What is a Trap?

What is Seduction?

Where is the origin of Seduction?

Where exactly does cause lie?

In she who seduces? he who is seduced? Somewhere in between?

Where does fault lie?

How does allurment work?

What about temptation?

How do these differ from each other?

How do these differ from attraction?

Why do there exist connotations?

What is Intelligence?

How does intelligence work?

What is cleverness?

What is tact?

Strategy?

How about zero sum?

What is a game?

One of the things in Chess that I love so much, is the rule that:

upon relinquishing grasp of your playing piece, that is where it shall remain.

 

This quite nicely is a wink and a smile from Truth.

 

But why do I forget this?

 

Ahh I see.

It is not necessarily death by distraction.

Because the moment of death is actually the exact moment of contact with Truth.

So there technically is no "death by distraction"

Although it is useful terminology.

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What does it mean to get hooked?

What is a barb?

What is the purpose of a barb?

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What is a poison?

What is insidiousness?

What is a trick? 

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What does it mean to captivate?

What is attention?

What is the conductor of attention?

What guides attention from one place to another?

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What us subtly?

What are the subtle things in life?

What is appreciation?

How does consciousness appreciate itself?

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The moment you say i understand you have lost it.

What is understanding?

How can understanding understand itself?

What is knowledge?

How is knowledge understood?

Is knowledge to be assumed true?

What is truth?

What does it mean for something to be true?

And which truth are we even talking about here?

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I choose Truth

I will speak of Truth.

And that is a lie.

What is Falsehood?

How does falsehood work?

How does truth work?

What are the mechanics at play?

Is it mechanics?

What are mechanics?

What is a dynamic?

A spinning top?

An inevitable collapse. 

What are misunderstandings?

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What is seriousness?

What is determination?

I should be writing these things pen & paper.

Burn it into my mind.

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Here i will transition– back to pen & paper.

No use picking up the broken pieces now.

They will return in due time. I can only pray.

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Eliminate all distraction from your life?

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What questions lie as yet unconscious?

What could hold my attention away from such powerful questions?

It seems any frivolous thing.

But where else is there to go?

This seems to be the world we have constructed.

And so like ants we shall be.

And ant seems to be pushed and pulled by the colony and its subtle, yet amazingly complex system of coordination, rather than containing any much agency in and of itself.

Does it contain awareness this ant?

I dont know.

I can absolutely image so.

What that would look like? God knows.

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It seems that humanity is in just the same silly situation as these ants.

Do we have the capacities to achieve otherwise?

Maybe? Some of us?

Anyone?

Hello?

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Anyways I really ought to be on ink & scroll.

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One last thing.

You can hold the dot in your mind too y'know.

Little told secret.

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What does it mean to lose a thing?

Have you ever misplaced your entire life?

Just for a little while of course.

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What does it mean to get lost?

 What does it mean to be lost?

How does it feel to be lost?

How does it feel to get lost?

is it always recognized as it occurs?

What is Navigation?

What is a collapse of navigational skills?

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People of wisdom watch their back. people of foolishness dont.

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Your self-interest should be interest in the self.

Seems impossible in our current constructed society. 

What is a possibility?

What is possible for me?

A whimpering retreat into death?

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A crayon & piece of paper can give you more insight than anything.

Why not in crayon?

Do I speak Truth or Lies?

Red or blue?

Does it even matter?

That is the crayon dilemma...

Maybe stick to ink.

The roll of a ball is much more clean and efficient than a smudge of wax anyways.

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Do you target the middle of the herd or somewhere on its periphery?

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Is it a we have to do this and its going to hurt, but you'll understand why later situation?

Which possibilities should the mind be opened to?

Do there exist misleading possibilities that I have the potential to open my mind to?

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Which tool to use and when?

I am currently searching for my pen.

I like to put a little stripe of red crayon on my blue one, and a little stripe of blue crayon on my red one.

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Leo should make an endless video on the dangers of existing.

Thats okay God has one of those.

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What is Existence?

What does it mean to Exist?

How does Existence work?

What are the mechanics of existence?

What is nonexistence?

How does it mean to be nonexistent?

How does nonexistence work?

What does it mean to be nonexistent?

How do nonexistent & nonexistence differ?

Is it in quality or tone?

What is the difference between existence and nonexistent?

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Pen and paper I say.

I also want to share. This is another dilemma.

Although this one may be more serious to be had.

The choice is clear.

I must say, the question mark is shaped more as a hook than a dot does.

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What is distraction?

Destruction.

Is distraction equivalent to death?

What is distraction?

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When I said the choice is clear I referred to utilizing pen & paper. I meant keep my concentration there.

Yet I find myself on this platform again.

Do the ground work before you to the construction.

Couple questions. Where should you hide such a notebook?

Where should you dispose of such a notebook?

My assumption here is that it will become outgrown and not needed in later stages of my development.

I like to keep sentiments, but right now I can barely even keep a roof over my head so there is that.

Sentimental objects. I should specify.

Is this disgusting?

Is this a character flaw?

The desire to cling onto sentiments?

Well it deepens my personal love of life.

There isnt much more valuable than that. Is there?

I'd say there isn't much personal love of life if there is no person.

This means survival must be as or if not more important. 

What is the difference between importance & value?

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What is the most valuable question to answer?

What is the most important question to answer?

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What does it mean to overlook?

How easy is it to overlook a thing?

How often are things hidden right where you left them?

How often do you happen across what you were looking for right in front of your eyes?

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Must be very careful to distinguish between consciousness itself, and perspective.

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What would distraction be useful for?

Perhaps that list itself would be an endless distraction?

I think the first few juicy bits would be sufficient.

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What is the most important question to ask?

For what?

Thats vague

For what specifically?

What is the most important question to ask in regards to consciousness work?

I am limited to my own understanding of consciousness work. As such is the nature of this thing.

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Luck of the draw or draw from the hip?

The proof is in the pudding.

Or rather, if you wish, the putting of your mind to great work.

How to succeed?

Who knows?

Death is never too too far.

A guiding hand?

They say its the quiet ones you have to watch out for.

Death dont make a sound.

The process of it sure can.

Well what is left in death? 

Do I really know?

Cannot just assume here.

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What is an animal?

Can animals be trusted?

What is a Plant?

Can plants even be trusted?

What is deception?

What is survival?

What is the greatest deceptionist of them all?

What is confusion?

What is wondering?

Does wondering lead to confusion?

Or does confusion lead to wondering?

Or guess instead you could just say to hell with all this.

So often I find what I am looking for right under my nose.

And perhaps it is a mild blind spot.

Not as egregious as some of the others I've seen.

Is not the act of finding your blind spot a type of mysterious seeing?

Or is it simply the lack of seeing?

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Do I enjoy distraction?

Is distraction a way to ease the discomfort?

The discomfort in what?

What is not comfortable?

Pain isnt very comfortable.

I dont like suffering either.

90% of my life is spent avoiding these things.

Maybe 10% is what i actually extend toward the seeking of Truth.

And this may even be an enormous lack of foresight.

Who knows what this work entails.

How powerful is a Human Being?

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Doesnt there have to be something to distract in order to be distracted?

Or is it all tied up in itself? I cant tell with this one.

What are complications?

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I am open to "answers" here and guidance as well. 

It seems I've been limited on the number of individuals posts I can make in a 24 hours periods and so i must edit the one I have been.

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What are corrections?

Should corrections be made?

What corrections are worth making?

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What is Worth?

What is Value?

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Perhaps it is easier and more comfortable for me to type on a mobile device than it is write pen & paper.

But is value lost in the disconnection?

What is easyness?

What is comfort?

Why do we need these things?

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What is Interpretation?

Does Interpretation introduce complications?

You could easily take a video of this and decipher my entire thought process. 

Or at least a great portion.

Well, easy is an understatement.

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gosh I melt right in.

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What is music?

What does music do?

How does music work?

Can music create active effects on the flow of consciousness?

It depends.

You'll find thats a recurring answer in this work.

Do we want music to have active effect on our conscious state?

It depends.

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Is there sonic devices which can take me further than music?

Eventually a time will come when all limited devices must be shed.

But for now they are useful for survival.

Ah yes survival out favorite.

A double edged sword

The prolonging of suffering and the anticipation of death. 

With hits of love, beauty, pleasure, understanding, and insight interspersed througout.

Of course this is general if I was more specific id be here of an eternity. 

And while yes ultimately I do have one of those, the me myself i does not.

Am I just a memyselfi?

To hell with being human, let me be a memyselfi for a little while, would ya?

Ah yes the stages of grief...

Not exactly linear.

I fear the worst.

Death is death is death is death.

Anybody chime in here?

Sometime outside guidance can eliminate self deception.

Now of course it often time reinforces it as well. This too we must be aware of.

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Not sure this is the right word but it all feels like quite the gruesome process here.

It is but it isn't 

Because its also just so damn gorgeous.

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Need to contemplate more on addiction.

My most prevalent threat should i become a gypsy.

Well among others...

Its not looking good for me

Outlook: Bleak

Gotta love it right? the magic of life?

This is important work here. I feel it and I seem to be enjoying. I just worry that my days are numbered.

Precious Precious thing I feel to have.

How can I ensure survival?

I mean truly what is beauty and what is love?

Not sure if it is having lived in such a reclusive state, for so long, that people have become foreign territories for me.

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I love everything the best I can

Why not?

Certain states that i have been in are more constrained than others, but this is by feature and design it seems.

To look back upon previous years I notice significant level of progress. 

Though I lapse quite frequently. 

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What is the most important question for my consciousness work at this instance?

So many to choose.

Depth may not always be better than breadth.

Do I even understand what breadth is?

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What is awareness?

What is the depth of perception?

Or is it better to ask

What is the breadth of perception?

What is the range of perception?

How is it held before the scope of consciousness anyhow?

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Perhaps meditation is so hard for me because im constantly having insights and the compulsion to express them had not yet been realized.

Dont know what tense im talking in clearly.

Nonsense perhaps?

Who really cares anyhow?

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There has got to be more here yes.

But there has also got to BE something more.

That is what I want.

Work on the case of being alive.

Nobody will pay you but it will be worth it.

Now put that pipe to good use.

Running out of battery life here.

Came prepared.

Hopefully it can at least hold the line.

Wouldn't want anything subject to unnecessary death.

But there is also necessary death so be aware of that too.

Or is this all a dream?

A cloud of dust smoke and wind passing through

Will I end up okay? who knows?

Death is fate.

Will I be okay even in death?

Will I be okay throughout the process of dying?

What is death?

How does death work?

I would like to stay around to appreciate some things but I cannot seem to get out of this dark pit. 

Pitch blackness? 

No silly.  No blackness in death.

Colors are a thing of life.

So it will be pointless?

Whats a thing without a point?

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Why must awareness be given a measurement?

Is this dysfunction?

Fight to the death it is, to constrain this beast.

It seems human illusion is reinforcing human illusion once more. The charger i brought is not only holding the line, but also pushing back against demise. 

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Life sometimes can feel like one of those random chess puzzles. Except you only have one try. Like a real complex one.

This is my experience.

Experience & imagination work well together.

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Try confusion.

At first it may taste like bad medicine.

But I promise you its delicious

Some of these things just come to me i dont even do them.

Or perhaps technically all of them.

Depends actually. 

It all depends.

Depends on the paradigm/worldview I am looking at it from.

But what determines worldview?

Experience?

Maybe

Worldview does shape experience.

It seems plausible that experience  shapes worldview too.

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Trudge onwards we do.

Can the mind be picked like a lock?

What would allow for this to happen?

Is this even something I would like to have occur?

What does that mean? It is a useful metaphorz but what is it pointing at?

Is there anything really there?

What is the Mind?

How does the mind function?

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What is fear?

Not prevalent in my current experience as of this moment. Not conscious fear anyways.

Perhaps this is a way for the mind to keep us from wondering about it?

Who is us?

Am I not the very thing I speak of?

I cannot tell. I cannot tell. Which i suppose does leave it open.

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How much more ravaging must occur?

How far really am I?

Gosh I cannot even tell how far I am.

I must be blind stupid or deceived.

Little bit of all of them?

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And if all goes crazy wild, just hold the dot in your mind

 

                                            .

 

Easier said than done.

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Must I question the ramifications of everything?

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What does it mean to get lost?

What does it mean to be lost?

How does it feel to be lost?

How does it feel to get lost?

is it always recognized as it occurs?

What is Navigation?

What is a collapse of navigational skills?

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My god i look at everything up there quickly and feel like I have to review it all again from scratch somehow.

Perhaps a lesson to stick to pen & paper?

I doubt pen & paper is even enough.

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What is doubt?

What is uncertainty?

What is indecision?

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What is discipline?

That tricky beast? Who the Hell knows?

That serpent may be the death of me.

What is misunderstanding?

What is distraction?

Master of deception?

Also cannot deny the possibility that there may not be much here.

Well yeah I can. Through complete unawareness of it.

There at least seems to be a process going here of something 

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Silly human

Cat got your tongue?

What does it mean to know a thing?

Is it 2:00 AM or am I just happy to be alive?

Whats the value in getting things done right the first time?

Perhaps some incentive.

Is incentive of value?

I speak of internal incentive more than anything situated outside of me.

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What is a situation?

What are circumstances?

How do you find something you dont even understand you've lost?

Sheer luck?

Accident?

Happenstance?

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Ever got caught in a trap before?

I suppose some are more survivable than others.

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What is survival?

What is the opposite of survival?

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A healthy break & release is good from time to time.

Just dont go overboard. Nobody jumping in those icy waters to save you.

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What is Insight?

How is insight derived?

Editing has become quite the scroll of doom indeed.

Mobile devices are unforgiving monsters.

I say spin the clock around for a second.

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What are vulnerabilities?

How do vulnerabilities work?

What does it mean to be vulnerable?

Where hierarchies exists there is a lowest level.

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What is Existence?

What is Self?

What is Reality?

What is Consciousness?

What is Love

What is Beauty?

When you feel you must cry but you have none left?

Best go searchin' my friend

Surely the flames of God's inferno catch up to all of us eventually.

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What is a sacrifice?

What must be sacrificed for truth?

And i able to pull that off?

Whatever that is

Do it know what it takes to sacrifice for truth?

Or has my mind been so thorough warped?

Unfortunate to say. And even more enfortunate that I seem to love it. Although i do like love dont get me wrong

What is Love?

Can you like or dislike a thing you dont understand?

What is the purpose of )ove?

Is love even a truthful thing?

Can you even believe in love?

No its not about acquiring beliefs as if pokemon

I seem truly invested in this game.

Yeah life jas been a lot like that.

But ive played some more challenging ones here it seems.

Idk what is going wrong in my skull

Doom is inevitable right?

Why not have a little fun?

A little bit of thrill?

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What does it mean to think twice?

What does it mean to do a double take?

What does this most often happen?

Perhaps you saw something?

So what now is a trick?

How does a trick work?

What is a hook?

We are always under the influence.  Regardless of whether you have taken anything.

Cant be far now right?

Or is this different?

Is this something different we are approaching? 

Its no thing. Not for anyone like me right?

Water is a good thing. Maybe

I exist for a relatively short period of time. 

OK I see here. It got me for a second.

Whats is truth?

What is reality?

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Wow i  almost disrupted silent hour  :}

And of course must pay dues afterwards.

4:00AM is twice the fun as two is.

Almost sadly approaching daylight hours.

I love my long nights of solitude.

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What is a Truth seeking method?

What is a process for coming to Truth?

How can you know whether a Truth-seeking process is trustworthy?

What is sense making?

What does it mean to make sense of reality?

How is anything understood?

I feel myself to be a mystery

Why so mysterious and magical i dont know.

And by that i do not mean happy all the time

I feel to be not so powerful here in the course correction on my life

Look for the Master of the Design

Will anything be found? 

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What is feedback?

What is a feedback loop?

What is any loop at all?

What is a loop and how does a loop work?

What is the purpose of a loop?

Are loops inherently self reinforcing?

It seems redundant to call it a "self-reinforcing loop"

What is a loop? and by that I do not mean a ring shape.

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Whats the prognosis?

Certain death?

Beautiful.

Just look how gorgeous. Look how precious this becomes.

And so what now is Love?

Why cant we hold onto it?

Have you things painted in your mind?

What is mind?

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What is Existence?

Why so abstract?

Isn't that just this?

This must be seen Truly.

This must be seen with the correct interpretations.

Whatever this may be

And whether that perhaps means dropping all interpretations to begin with

Is dropping interpretation a possibility for me?

Or am I trapped in a perspectival existence?

What would the ramifications be of living from a perspective existence?

What are the advantages?

What are the disadvantages?

What is survival?

Why is it so deeply woven into existence?

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What is Truth?

We must be constantly circling back to the same recurring questions.

Now that may be true but is that Truth?

Little bit of everything all tied into one nice little bow?

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What does it mean to get lost?

 What does it mean to be lost?

How does it feel to be lost?

How does it feel to get lost?

is it always recognized as it occurs?

What is Navigation?

What is a collapse of navigational skills?

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What is a skill?

How do skills work?

How can they be developed?

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What is life?

is anything really as it seems?

Is the presentation a truthful representation?

What does truthful refer to in this case?

how do you speak of such little known item?

Not exactly sure.

We must go back to innate wisdom

Wisdoms of the mother earth herself

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What does it mean to get lost?

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what is confusion?

The call of a mourning dove?

Gosh I really ought to be busy survivin' right now.

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Such a silly time waster.

Is anything what you think it is?

Trick of the mind?

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What is awareness?

What is attention?

What is concentration?

What is potency?

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What is death?

How potent is death?

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Its a good day to be a migrating goose.

Silly one too for that matter.

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It is approximately 8:30 AM and I wish to continue my contemplations.

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It is truly a remarkably beautiful day today.

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I shall appreciate for a moment but I must be on my way.

Smell the roses but dont get caught up in their thorns.

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What is Truth?

Life is a bramblebush.

Is this relatively true?

Yes. It would seem.

Is this true in all cases?

What is a case?

A case of the inescapable doom?

The classic. Some much fun.

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What does it mean to fixate?

What things do I fixate upon?

Is fixation inescapable?

What is even worth my time?

Anything?

Anything at all?

Outlook: Bleak 

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Cat again.

Got my tongue.

What is fun?

Does fun have a purpose?

What is the purpose of fun?

Just to kill you?

What is distraction?

What is the most prevalent thing in my life?

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A looming sorta sense

Feels as if the gig is up 

I think that has occurred a couple times here now at this spot.

We aknowledge every day the fact of our death.

But why does it be so?

A slow painful painful full of unconsciously self inflicted injuries along the ongoing developmental path?

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What is hope?

What is despair?

What is the act of creation?

A balance between the two of everything?

Are there any things that can't be done in reverse?

How will the ramifications of any possible discovery impact our lives today?

One the razors edge?

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What us distraction?

What us falsehood?

What is deception and trickery?

Is anything worthwhile in life?

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Its this work a faithful thing to do?

Why does it require faithfulness?

What is Time?

Most valuable asset?

Time uncertain?

Sorry

I am lost lost lost lost lost lost lost.

Lost as can be.

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What is a magnetic force?

What things have a draw in life?

Does the nature & origin of this lie in the thing itself or the mind in contact with it?

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What is contact with reality?

What is impermanence?

What would a completely unified form appear as?

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How sneaky can a trick or a trap be?

Why is a lure so tempting?

What is a lack of integrity?

Conscious or unconscious?

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it does often ultimately appear as though a it is better luck next time for me.

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So much to work on an so little.time.

There is something about vulnerability that i do enjoy.

To do degree.

Imagined or not.

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The theme of my life is I never live fully conscious.

Why do I do so much thinking?

Just endless thought after thought after thought after thought?

To ultimately do what for me?

Kill me?

There is nothing I can seem to do now.

Or is it thinking this way that condemns me to this fate?

Why cant my mind be trusted?

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I have many things painted into my mind. Some useful, some not. Some conscious some unconscious.

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What is a flood?

Quagmire anyone?

Why such a perilous game?

Is it even right to call this a game anymore?

Why is it that I feel the need to destroy myself unwillingly?

I fear conflict violence and destruction. 

So why do I partake in them?

On varying degrees every day.

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It seems i am caught yet again in another trap.

I will hopefully survive without too much permanent damage.

[No1Here2c]

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What is distraction?

How precious is the health of the physical body?

Isn't it a little concerning understanding the toxins surrounding us all of the time?

Most certainly a part of us at this point too.

Get the euthanasia it seems, right?

Nighty night.

What is the sting of pain?

Self awareness to no avail?

or self deception sucessfully deployed?

Life will always outsmart even a clever fool.

Too late already it may seem?

Or is there a way to put a stop to this?

Feels inescapable.

It is only a matter of time before a mistake that costs everything.

This is not even necessary true

 maybe just emotions trying to be described?

What is faith?

Nothing i say is necessary true or what i believe just passing thoughts

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How often do I walk into obvious danger?

This is jagged terrain. 

I may as well be doing it right now.

That is most likely actually.

Does anything happen for a reason?

What is reason?

What is a happening?

Why so many horrible things try to kill me

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What is solace?

Where is solace to be found?

Emotions are a broad spectrum.

~

Find solace in comfort. 

That is an option.

But what is comfort?

Why do I require external soothing for comfort to begin to be a possibility?

Why is my agency?

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Sharp teeth to sum survival up.

Flashing lights and a terrible screetching sound too if possible.

Corrosive toxins to exude

You name it.

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Survival is an all is fair in love & war

Raging on the forefront of death and insanity.

Anything goes. 

Something desperate measures

Why does it have to be so challenging?

Just look at how a fish acts when taken right out of the water.

Why struggle?

You will die quicker thay way

And panic never lets you think straight

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What is Truth?

I come to think this work isn't a race to the finish line but rather the longer you hold out the better it becomes.

Not sure i knew any better.

Still don't really. I am afraid.

Not like fear fear but just ever so slightly distrubed by something unclear.

~

Its like I dont even want to be okay i would rather cling to colors & sensations.

How do you arrest a thing?

Subdue its advancement?

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What is quality?

What thoughts are of quality and which one are of crap?

Why are my thoughts so crapful?

What is the the dead man's burden?

~

This place is a useful tool to practice willingness to be vulnerable 

Use it to try and keep focus.

Gypsy?

Wandering eye?

Pulled as a marionette by forces still yet unseen.

And its often excruciating

Like a whirlpool surrounds us upon our way to the promised land.

Dark clouds. Lighting. Thunder. 

It is a terrible feeling

~

The omnipresent sense that i have done too much damage already.

What is a miracle?

Your entire world of experience is miracle.

How does a miracle work?

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Total command or endless demands?

I notice the desire to retreat into distraction ever increasing.

Is a slight lapse allowed?

I took a nap earlier. Maybe a couple hours. But still I think things were processing.

Trying to justify that taking a lapse can be productive?

Its like waiting around here is a waste of time. I should be on my feet already.

~

What is reconciliation?

General principles of how to come to terms with?

Nothing can be taken with me?

But where am I even to go?

Oh yeah teetering-tottering thats right.

How afraid should I be?

Just in life in general

~

Sometimes distraction is actually a useful tool to help to get you to understand this work. But it must be approached with the proper observatory mindset that it requires to pick up on the insight.

Mindless indulgence will destroy you.

Tricky balance. Hard to keep one. Even possible?

~

What is a dream?

What are dreams?

What is dreaming?

How does a dream keep a position of reality before your eyes?

~

What is utility?

What is a use?

~

What is Trust?

What is mistrust?

What is distrust?

~

What is contemplative work?

What does contemplative work do?

How does contemplative work work?

What are open eyes & clear vision?

~

What are Mistakes?

What is the Beauty in Mistakes?

What is the value in a loop?

Recognition?

For some.

We are all on this carousel together.

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