Te Journal 2.0

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Te Journal 

Te ONLY 

Goals/Targets

Daily Action/Metrics

Trajectory 

W or L day 

1. OUTCOME Goals : 

• This is a continuation of previous Te Journal 
• But More refined
• Less posting, 80/20 only
• Possibly only 1 post a week
• .. This may even be my final post, as this even the journal section of the forum is a stilll a distraction funnel, an ADHD gateway

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1. I commited and emphasized Te, discipline, material results, momentum  

• Getting lean, losing bodyfat,
• Making money, logistics, power
• throwing away cheap pleasures that dont fulfill me (junk food, binging content, porn ect..) -
• These are "cheap" and dirty pleasures, but actually very expensive ; time and focus cost ... and money (junk food can add up to thousands of dollars a year without realizing)

2. Something has happened to my brain and body, I dont know what happened - basically months ago i was easily able to stay off the content, avoid or minimize sugar, junk, futile spending, wake up early ect.. but somehting has actually happened to my brain and body on a physiological level where i feel like im a daily walking ball of addiction, hard to explain what i mean lingusitically, but its like i started to just introspect the trappy addictioness in my body, you know, like its not just like "hey let me ban youtube on my laptop to limit content use (its valid) but the deeper layer is moreso, "what's actually going on in my body that makes me keep retreating into this energetically, why am i so stuck, because its not exactly depression, its something else), hard to explain but addiction is widespread, systemic and sneaky as fuck, it creeps in, i have had multi year periods of almost no junk, and somehow im eating junk daily again, somehow i am spending multiple hours a day on content 

How do i find myself again? 

1. Te - Consistent, cyclical, daily, weekly, monthly Te - Goals, Structure, decisiveness, mastery planning, review, written lists, feedback, accountability, coach, goal setting, audio reminders, alarm clock reminders, notes,  self honesty, tech blockers, declutter, mental clarity, commitment, regrounding to purpose, that my time is so valuable, that my talents are invaluable, that I deserve success
2. Introspection, feeling into my body reguralry if i do get into these states or addiction loops 
3. Written reminders and drilling in, day by day goals, to do, to not do, to stop doing, targets, metrics ect.. 

Edited March 11 by Optimized Life

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Avoidance Te : RUNAWAY RUNAWAY 

1. Actualized.org - Leos blog 
2. Actualized.org Forum - All of it 
3. Actualized.org in general for now - Blocked, Te journal 1*/week only 
4. Youtube - blocked 
5. Google/microsoft browser ads, suggestions, feeds, blocked 
6. Epstien and conspiracy content - blocked 

*None of these things are inherently bad and can make life interesting, but I have extremely high standards for work ethic (not merely as a principle, but i wasnt born with a silver spoon, I have to work my ass off just to get a chance at a decent life, i dont have time for this, but i will allow myself conspiracy content, podcast, whatever, for 30-60 minutes if i have successfully done a 14-16 hour work day that ticked off the boxes for momentum driving material results that i set out, then i can unblock youtube for an hour or soemthing, watch something then block it again

Move towards Te : 

1. Work (money), 600 million in the bank 
2. Logistics, passports, power, multi country man, transcend beauracracy,
3. Cold approach, multiple girlfriends, dating abundance, 15 mothers, 40+ children, 
4. Hobbies & Practical/useful learning (foreign language practice, marketing/sales, 
5. Gym, low bodyfat cut
6. Start making content myself, mostly for personal hobby, personal brand, self expression, creativity, intellectual development and expression,  money not the agenda of this at all, but could be a side effect. 

Decisive bold, discplined, abundant, creative, flexible, fast acting warrior time, once again. 

Edited March 11 by Optimized Life

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Reminder : This forum is cringe, Leo is a boring nerd who dresses like some college professor dork, most people on here are dorks, i dont want leos lame life, he's a vibe killer, i do NOT take this forum seriously, its a fucking joke to me, how could u take leo seriously? lmao hes a nobody dude 

Yet im still here, because the journal structure is good  

Im here for structure, im here to journal, here for fucking results. 

No silver spoon, have to work hard always inlife. 

Alright lets go 

1. Im in the hunchback habit of working slouched on my shitty cheap low desk and im killing my back and posture nad health. 

I need to stop this, its so easy to just normalise to bad stuff like this, kind of like how someone in cuba just normalises to poverty (people in general normalise to anything) yet i actually have a conscnious choice and ability to change it, i can get a higher desk, i can change my setup, i am not stuck in cuba. 

2. I am starting a 90H 100H workweek challenge to try and escape poverty and change my life. I am trying to move country, to get more visas, to have money in the bank, to be free, to sleep better, eat better, to have time to date and all this. It always comes down to money in this world, i cant complain anymore, i have to fight for it, im not lazy but im simply not doing enough, whatever u think it takes, it takes 10* more. I'm not american, i dont have a silver spoon, i have no one, i was giving nothing, no good schooling, no encouragement, no connections, no infrastructure, no ambitious friends, nothing, just a dawg inside of me, i have to honor that dawg, i have to work literally 90 hour weeks. not literally 90 hours on working itself per se, but 90 hours of total work output, 5 of those hours could be networking, another 5 could be cold approaching or gym ("work" = goal oriented output, not just performing a job) , but until those 90 hours are up each and every week, there is no sitting around, there is no youtube, there is no forum idling, there is no netflix. 

In fact, given that im incorporating a broad view of "work", i might have to upgrade my standards for work ethic as 100 hours, not 90, because a solid 70+ needs to be just actual money work, im including studying, language learning as well, getting smarter, then there's like creativity work, brainstorming sessions.

100H/Week = 100/7 average >> 14 Hours, 17 minutes per day average 

24H/Day > sleep 7 hours > 16/17 hours in a day 

Thats still 2/3 Hours not working 

makes sense 

takes like an hour just to get up in the morning 

hour to cool down at night 

Then lunch break whatever 

It's doable for sure 

100 H fucking work weeks.

Time to mog all you fucking lazy mfs 

Ok journal structure = report : 

1. Hours drifting (doing nothing/indecisive, being slow, durping)

2. Hours distracted (i am allowed to watch youtube or whatever, but i have to notice it, record it and time it with my stopwatch, every single time, then log it)

3. Hours of work 

With trend is feedback and dopamine from seeing the numbers go up 

Ideally id say fuck all this just start 100H workwee now fuck it dont think

But if that doesnt work, then i'll hit plan B, which is the tracking/dopamine, gamifying strategy 

AGGRESSION MONEY POWER PURPOSE IINFINITE SUCESS 100 HOUR FUCKING WORK WEEK 

Edited Sunday at 09:16 AM by Optimized Life

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1. Fix desk - no more hunchback 

2. 100 Hour work weeks scheldued, - 16-17H per day 

3. Get rich inmediately 

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Update : I have mostly wasted my day. 

I am holding severe tension in my body and dont know how to resolve it without alcohol

I feel the fear of aging, regret, time running out 

But its not some sutble thing 

I actually have such bad hyperbolic levels of tension in my body that i feel i might have to drink 

And yes caffiene abuse doesnt help, but that also comes from tension 

Catch 22 because i need to focus, but its not easy, the pressure doesnt just disappear, and the later u get into your 20s the worse it gets, im sure it gets even worse at 30+ 

Society is fucked, ideally wed all be able to get close to our peak at 16, overall, life money everything, so we could just start enjoying it from the beginning of adult youth, then by 30 you have no regrets but also you just keep enjoying it anyway big long happy life. 

In reality most people are still scrambling and panicking at 25-30 and still, only 10% of those people even make it eventually. 

Its a harsh world, and I need a fucking drink im sorry. 

Im not quitting on the challenge, but i have to start again tomorrow, i have too much tension, i dont have enough time in life, its running out. 

And i dont mean "its running out" as in oh no another 20-30 years until i get old literally 

I mean a few years or less and im dead. 

Ambitious people like myself dont fuck around, we dont settle for medocirty. 

Id genuinely rather die then live a mediocre, inauthentic normie existence.

Edited Sunday at 07:57 PM by Optimized Life