Less individuals, more expression. Anyone else?

[theleelajoker]

Last year I had two "breakthrough" shifts in my perception of reality within few weeks (Vipassana, no psychedelics). I learned that talking about unity, consciousness, no self, etc. hearing about it, discussing it and experiencing it are two very different things.

After the retreats, the transpersonal dimension in everyday interactions became so obvious I could not longer not see it. Crazy coincidences and synchronicities that become less and less coincidental or crazy because they happen so often, it becomes ordinary life.

Often, as I go through my day, it's like talking to my own subconscious. Recognizing my reflections in other's words and actions. Lately, also appreciating these reflections more and more. But it was not always like that. 

At the beginning I was overwhelmed. Going through all the (bad) interpersonal stuff that ever happened and becoming aware how my new awarenesses recontextualizes EVERY SINGLE INTERACTION I EVER HAD. Took me about half a year and lots of difficult days to adjust living with this new found awareness.

Now I feel like I adjusted to "my new normal" of experiencing the world. So sometimes, I look at people and don't see as much individuals, but expressions of the same life energy. Like you see a tree now where you could only see the leaves before.

Sometimes I also feel like hints are dropped by the universal mind, statements that can be seen and understood very differently depending on the context. At other times, it's also blatant role switching without any ambiguity.

In any case, there's less and less external in my experience and more and more connection. Impossible to go back and see the world as I did for decades before. 

Also, I wonder: WTF do I do now with this new normal? Is it really only "chop wood, carry water?" Just continuing my role? 

No idea, but it feels like there's more fun to have in this reality...

 

What's the purpose behind this post?

For one, I just felt like writing it. 

Second, curious if anyone can relate.

Third, have nice evening and don't forget to feed the cat.