Autism Awakening

[vishnusavestheday]

I'm so glad I quit listening to every spiritual teacher. At 24 years old, I recently diagnosed myself with Autism, because of how delusional I've always been. And my Ulcerative Colitis flare immediately stopped. 

 

Drugs are so masturbatory. I stopped doing drugs months ago. Speaking of masturbation, I stopped masturbating 41 days ago too and quit porn to only focus on pro-social sexual endeavors. To treat my innervated penile spasms, I use a penis pump 5-6x a week. Anti-social endeavors such as masturbation are suboptimal and do not enrich the self. We need to be creative to be pro-social in a connecting world. 

 

I am so happy that I'm actually Autistic. You have no idea how closeted I had felt my entire life. So many individuals think Autism is a meme or an RFK Jr. inside joke. It's real. It's the quintessential blessing and curse. I even tried to think I was queer, a psychopath, a sociopath, etc. Because of my Autism I kept anticipating possibilities. Spiritual cultures have tried to cultivate Autism for centuries. Look at all the Sadhus and you'll notice how they are stimming constantly, people think they are so equanimous in spiritual ecstasy. Believers are just overhyping meeting an Autistic man and revering him like a cat. 

 

Stop taking drugs! Just have unlimited Autism on me. The Autistic internet is so funny too!

 

Nobody will ever have as much fun in my body as me on Autism! Thanks Leo! You were just as unhelpful as everyone else in my life! But I like Autism more than any state of consciousness will have power over me! 

Edited 8 hours ago by vishnusavestheday

[Cred]

Hi! It fills me with joy every time I'm hearing that someone awakes to their nerodivergency. 

I have written extensively about the topic on this forum, and I'm currently working on an Ontology of neurodivergency that I call the Fragment. Based on how you write and the fact that you don't seem very active in the personal development section of the forum, I assume that you came to the conclusion of 

1 hour ago, vishnusavestheday said:

Thanks Leo! You were just as unhelpful as everyone else in my life!

Yourself. This is a big and important step in your development. I came to the same conclusion and made a post about it:

 

[Cred]

1 hour ago, vishnusavestheday said:

Anti-social endeavors such as masturbation are suboptimal and do not enrich the self. We need to be creative to be pro-social in a connecting world. 

You make a logical error when you say this. You have a wrong assumption which is that it requires an endless amount of socializing to find a mate.

I've written about this here:

 

[Cred]

1 hour ago, vishnusavestheday said:

Because of my Autism I kept anticipating possibilities.

Anticipating possibilities is not autism, it is what I call "Potentiality of Spirit". I've laid out my theory of the Fragment here: 

It's more closely related to the neurodivergency called "Schizotypy". I've written about it here:

You need potentiality of spirit in order to be motivated to chase enlightenment bc enlightenment is something that might potentially happen to you in the future and non-Potentiality of spirit people don't chase visions in the future like this. 

[Cred]

2 hours ago, vishnusavestheday said:

Look at all the Sadhus and you'll notice how they are stimming constantly

This is a really cool observation. Let's unpack this with the theory of the Fragment.

Stimming is something that people do who are non-Simultaneity of Spirit. My current definition of autism is: low Simultaneity of Spirit and high Sequenciality of Spirit.

But it's also something that HSPs do and my definiton is: low Simultaneity of Spirit and high Sensibility of Spirit.

So when you see someone stimming they are either autistic, HSP, or a hybrid. Spoiler: I suspect most people on this forum to be hybrids.

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Okay what does Simultaneity, Sequenciality and Sensibility mean?

When you have high Simultaneity, you are really good at processing a lot of information at the same time. This is done through the symbol and conformity. If a Simultaneity-being is in a stadium for example, there is a shit ton of stimulus. Yet the being knows exactly what do without processing every stimulus individually, bc they just do what everyone does and "sync up" (conformity).

When you have low Simultaneity, you don't have this efficient way of processing and struggle in environments with a lot of parallel stimulus. This is why you prefer simple singular stimuli which is what stimming is. Your advantage is that you are very honest and uncorruptible, since corruption requires conformity. Also, only low-Simultaneity-beings have the ability to critique culture and go against the norms, which is what a sadhu does.

Sequentiality- and Sensibility-beings feel affirmed in their existence through stimming like humming, but for different reasons. This is where it gets super subtle.

• Seq's hum because a hum is a sound and a sound is a wave and a wave is Spaciousness+Sequenciality.
• Sen's hum because a hum is the change of pressure of molecules which causes these molecules to interact and therefore sense each other. More simply: a hum is a sensation.

The reason why the Spirit (Atman) needs to engage in it's fragments is because there is no existence beyond the fragment. Boyond the Fragment, there is only emptiness (Anatman) non-existence. If the Atman and the Anatman are not in balance with each other, it leads to death and suffering.

Edited 5 hours ago by Cred