Mood swings + meditation

[SmartMonkey]

Hey guys, first post here. Thank you for the opportunity to post on this forum. I've been watching actualized for 2+ years. Young 21 year old male. Been meditating daily for 1+ year.

I've seen Leo's videos on Ego Backlash and Dark Side of Meditation which explain what I'm going through quite well. Mostly I am posting to find others who can relate to this. I'll have 2+ day periods of feeling on top of the world. Like I can conquer any challenge, like I can reach out and grab anything I want in life. Feels like the limitations have come finally come off my mind. Sometimes is accompanied by a selflessness, but more often than not it is accompanied by egotism. Like power is flowing through my veins. Then I'll have 1+ weeks of the exact opposite. My mind is hitting me with every negative thought I can come up with. Every insecurity, every negative emotion is just hitting me all at once. My thoughts will tell me my goals are impossible, I'm stuck, will never make it to where I want to go, etc. Cycles like this are pretty much where I'm at 24/7. I never really feel just calm and normal.

I've been meditating over a year for an hour a day. I've sort of always had these emotional oscillations. But the meditation has certainly taken the lid off it. I have reframed all of this as spiritual purification, purging, growing pains, etc. I don't intend to stop working through this emotional turmoil, but I wanted to reach out and ask about others' experiences starting meditation.

Wow, when I started personal development, there was an expectation that this was going to take ~6 months and all my problems would be solved, haha. I'm getting a lot more than I bargained for. I certainly see the growth, but damn is it more painful and confusing than I could have expected!

Appreciate any replies. Thanks!