Is this the right question to ask?

[YIDIRYIDIR]

"How can I embody Love and align my life and attitude with it so that my work flows effortlessly (not neurotically) and naturally contributes value, while still caring about survival (financially)?"

is this the right question to ask at this phase of my life and iterate to figure it out, I'm 23 and running a freelance business after quitting university last year. and I still need at least 1 to 2 years of building in order to be comfortable financially, and building phase requires a lot of work and focus.

or should I stop at the level of practical self-help right now and leave alignment for later? (routine, time blocks, deadlines, discipline, optimization, productivity stuff…)

[Leo Gura]

@YIDIRYIDIR Is that the right question for you?

Why do you feel compelled to ask it?

[YIDIRYIDIR]

I think it is, because even if I'm dependent on what I'm doing, i decided to start this business out of growth and higher values.
i was lucky enough to have entered enough relationships in my university years, went to a top-tier university and experimented with leadership inside the university. i figured that's not fulfilling to me and I prefer creativity, growth and autonomy instead, and freelancing is just perfect for that at this moment, i get to combine drawing and writing skills in my offer. but the problem is sometimes i really struggle to get things done and always wondered if it is lack of alignment or i should just experiment more with self-help tactics and eliminate more distractions, and this phase is supposed to be hard anyway (but I think this is neurotic).

 

Edited 20 hours ago by YIDIRYIDIR

[Leo Gura]

@YIDIRYIDIR What's so bad that would happen if you just focus on building your business for a few years without worrying about alignment to higher values?

Edited 20 hours ago by Leo Gura

[YIDIRYIDIR]

That I will struggle with execution and drive out of having a small picture frame (focusing only on business). because I don't care about fruits of business, it just seems like the next thing worth doing and that is meaningful, but I gotta do it in a certain way or it won't work due to survival (consistency, repetition, productivity stuff, conforming to market...). and survival isn't a good motivator for me. the more i try to just do it and use willpower, or implement a productivity tactic, the more it backfires and sometimes i enter these nihilistic rabbit holes that make it worse.

[Leo Gura]

Yeah, well, survival is key in business.

Is your business robust enough that it will survive without your constant attention?

You gotta build up some wealth before you run off into passion projects.

[YIDIRYIDIR]

 @Leo Gura also, this quote of yours inspired that question. it is from the "The Ultimate Structure Of Reality Explained" video:

"How do you get rid of attachments?

How do you fundamentally grow yourself at the highest level?

Not by disciplining yourself and forcing yourself to do stuff in life.
Not by telling yourself, “Oh, I have to read books. I have to meditate. I have to do what Leo says. I have to watch another video. I have to go to this seminar. I have to go to this workshop. I have to do this retreat. I have to do these psychedelics. I have to do all this stuff in order to get to some place that Leo talks about.”

No.

That’s a neurotic way of going about it, and it’s not going to get you all the way. If you want to get all the way, the way you get there is through love." 

[Leo Gura]

Pursuing love in business assumes you've got the resources to do it.

There is a trade-off in business between passion and finances. If your finances are excellent then you can do whatever, otherwise you gotta be much more careful.

Edited 19 hours ago by Leo Gura

[YIDIRYIDIR]

1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

Yeah, well, survival is key in business.

Is your business robust enough that it will survive without your constant attention?

You gotta build up some wealth before you run off into passion projects.

Okay that's a good harsh truth, it's good to be clear about that so that I know where to invest my energy.
so, the answer is the right balance? think less about alignment (still will be in the picture) and more about figuring out execution.
 

[Leo Gura]

Just now, YIDIRYIDIR said:

Okay that's a good harsh truth, it's good to be clear about that so that I know where to invest my energy.
so, the answer is the right balance? think less about alignment (still will be in the picture) and more about figuring out execution.
 

When I was at your stage, I focused all my energy on building up wealth even though I hated it, because I knew I needed it later for fuel my dream.

[YIDIRYIDIR]

1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

When I was at your stage, I focused all my energy on building up wealth even though I hated it, because I knew I needed it later for fuel my dream.

okay that makes sense, i guess what i needed is to hear that harsh truth. things are much clearer now.
also, i think what's holding me back is fear of being neurotic.

anyway, thank you so much for the help and everything else. i will contemplate on this more and adjust accordingly. 

[Leo Gura]

@YIDIRYIDIR Calculate what kind of resources your dream requires and compare to your current position.

If your business is making good money, stick with it for a good while to gather up that wealth which you will need later. It is not smart to let a profitable business just wither away.

Edited 19 hours ago by Leo Gura

[YIDIRYIDIR]

Sure, i will stick with it and make clear distinction between survival and passion/alignment. 
 

Edited 19 hours ago by YIDIRYIDIR