My recent “philosophical enlightenment”

[Alexop]

The past years were rough for me because a serious change in my understanding of the world was happening. Especially since diving deep into power dyncamics, biology and masculinity vs. femininity. This went much deeper than I thought and were the missing pieces that are starting to complete the big puzzle of how reality works. I say “starting to complete” because I am always open to going deeper. I was quite confrontational here on the forum and in other places, I even annoyed Leo by erupting on a user. But now the big resolution is close.

The big AHA moments and insights I got recently:

-You need to be born with a specific personality trait and brain structure in order to successfully pursue truth, otherwise you are just licking your balls, you are chasing your tail. Specific deterministic factors have to happen in order for you to reach Truth. You should be born with this trait and experience heavy suffering. That trait will determine how you react to that suffering. Most people react by finding cover. I reacted to the suffering as a challenge to be embraced, for me it was the beginning of the hero’s journey. I was born with this trait and those who were not, should just be let alone in their mental masturbation. If they alone don’t realize that they were not born for seeking truth, let them be, don’t tell them this. Sorry to blackpill you guys but this is how it is. Blame God. God is blackpill. At least these people should just stop watching news and politics if nothing, because they won’t understand shit and will fill their lives with suffering.

-If you don’t understand masculinity vs. femininity you are FUCKED. I mean you cannot  properly understand how reality works because you don’t understand yourself. It goes beyond relationships. This will affect you even if you are asexual. This is one of the most problematic things with my generation and Gen Z in the West. They are being brainwashed into not researching this topic, and they will live a life of silent suffering. If modernism sucks ass with their stupid materialism and science, post-modernism will be even worse, because it will confuse the shit out of people. At least modernism gives you a fake base, like religion does so it keeps you away from nihilism and cognitive dissonance somewhat.

-Spirituality is not enough! I don’t care how much you meditated, how many retreats you did and how much psychedelics you took. This connects with the first insight. If you are not born for Truth, you will just pursue some Stage Green spiritual non-sense. If you are not a born contemplator, the same way a cat is born with the instinct of licking her fur, you are mainly wasting your time with spirituality. If your are wise enough it will help you, if you don't build a spiritual ego. But  without a good philosophical base, there is a high chance you'll build more ego with your enlightenment experiences.The same way if a hard ass Christian has an NDE, he will become even more fundamentalist. “I saw the light of heaven, The Bible is so right bla bla bla” And even if you reach the end of suffering through enlightenment in an Eckhart Tolle moment, you will still be affected by not understanding how relationships work, how nutrition works, how politics work, how your psychology works, how other people work and God forbid losing your health.

-I lost interest in socialization. I mean I don’t even care about making friends, and it feels good. I just go to my activities: dancing, boxing, climbing etc. do my stuff, have some laughs and some short small talk then I go home. I realized I am very introverted, if the conversation is not about stuff that stimulates me intellectually or emotionally (mainly masculine-feminine dynamics with a woman), I don’t give a fuck, I feel like I am wasting my time, I get very very bored. Especially in nowadays social environment where everyone is so childish and get offended by anything, Don't like babysitting everyone I meet so they don't wet their pants. Don’t socialize in the same way you do it on this forum, don’t expect anyone to follow truth with you, socialize for fun! If you can’t have fun by talking “normy” shit then it means you don’t need to socialize that much (take this advice carefully!).

-I stopped fantasizing about finding a woman that will satisfy me. I am sure you guys had that fantasy of finding a woman who will philosophise with you and shit. Forget it! There is a high chance that will never happen and it is completely OK. Most people, I mean MOST, no matter if men or women, have no fucking idea how reality works. I literally contemplated thousands of hours alone at home and in the forest in order to understand all this stuff. I was laughing alone because of the epiphanies. How many hours did you partner contemplate alone? Don’t expect a woman to make you happy and don’t push this philosophy shit on your partner if you see they are not interested! She can eventually make you happier by enriching your life with femininity, but stop dreaming of a relationship where you both pursue truth and shit, because you might live an unhappy life in this way. A lifelong carrot and stick effect. Hell, that might happen, but don’t long for it as socialist activist longs for the end of capitalism. Don’t long for very low probability things to happen the same way these woke people live a life of suffering and taking bags of pills because they hope for a change that will never happen. "But Alex I am philosophising with my partner and it is awesome". Yea you are bullshiting yourselves together. This one was too honest, I am very sorry 😐.

 

There is more but enough for one post. Thank you Leo! Thanks Teal Swan, David Deida, Ken Wilber, Byron Katie, Gabor Mate, Helen Andrews, Eckhart Tolle and more.

Edited Sunday at 08:25 PM by Alexop

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