Practice Journal

[Oppositionless]

The guest after Leo in that podcast was Formscapes, which is nuts to me bc I have been watching his videos and I was the first person to mention him on the forum.

but the real kicker is that this synchronicity happened right as I decided I'm gonna start making YouTube videos myself.

God is speaking.

 

the goal of my kriya practice right now is to heal executive dysfunction: it's really fucking hard for me to do basic self care things. Like buying the damn tripod. And buying a new pillow. And a new pair of New Balances. And light bulbs . Fuck my life sometimes, I could have started creating so much sooner if I could just fucking DO STUFF

Edited Friday at 06:45 PM by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

9 hours ago, Oppositionless said:

 

the goal of my kriya practice right now is to heal executive dysfunction: it's really fucking hard for me to do basic self care things. Like buying the damn tripod. And buying a new pillow. And a new pair of New Balances. And light bulbs . Fuck my life sometimes, I could have started creating so much sooner if I could just fucking DO STUFF

Today I bought a pillow, face wash, moisturizing lotion, deodorant, and two journals. Let's fucking go!!!

From my journal 

"It's not even close, this is the best I've felt in my entire life, all that's missing is spending more time outside with my shirt off."

The last time I felt this good I spent all day outside with my shirt off, but that was pre-trauma hehe.

 

first blog post is 90% finished. It should be posted by fairly early tomorrow. It's going to be on Substack and I'll drop the link.

I need to get a haircut before I make my first YouTube video. Lol

Edited Saturday at 04:20 AM by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

first blog post is done. this was brutal (fun) lol

https://oppositionless.substack.com/p/how-spirituality-prevented-me-from

the goal is still one blog post and one youtube video a week. I'm excited for making it, what I'm dreading is marketing. I don't want to post links on my personal social media but I will. 

Edited Saturday at 08:26 PM by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

Western esotericism reading list :

The Gospel of John

The Gospel of Thomas

The Gospel of Judas

The Gospel of Mary

The Gospel of Truth

The Enneads

The Corpus hermeticum

The timeaus 

I intend to read all these books over the next year , in addition to other books. I'm currently reading the Carlos Castaneda books

[Oppositionless]

I've never left my home town , even having spent 3 1/2 months living in a new city (Portland) working I came back because family is very important to me , but the lack of dating opportunites in my hometown is driving me crazy .

id love to move to denver or boulder 

aside from the lack of dating , I suspect I'll never be able to quit the weed without an in person spiritual community . Most of my current friends including myself are addicted either to weed or to kratom 

thread is open for replies 

also I have my first video filmed but I'm not sure I wanna post it. It's like the most basic what is enlightenment 10 minute ramble . I want to make videos like Leo and Kehlan (Formscapes) -- not saying they're stylistically similar (they're not) and im not interested in copying anyone's style, just in terms of depth and length.

Edited 3 hours ago by Oppositionless