Irony of all Ironies

[Revolutionary Think]

It's kind of funny and sad at the same time but, in a good way. In my childhood I felt so hurt and angry about all the things going on beyond my control that I wish were in my control so I just got mad and complained about them. I used to believe in being the good guy and getting involved and self development "making it" "becoming rich / known / respected / understood / validated etc etc.). 
 

Then I realized all the toxicity in all of it. When I started removing myself from so many things on the internet. Even this forum and other things. I deleted instagram, I deleted facebook, I deleted a whole bunch of my old emails lol. I just kept removing. Removing people from my contacts, removing things inside my place I wasn't using anymore, removing the need to be seen, removing the need to compare myself to anyone, removing the need for a mentor / teacher, removing my need to be agreed with online THAT'S THE BIG ONE! I got something that I never got before. A sense of peace and stability that I didn't have since I was a kid and both my parents were married. This has helped me remember I'm talking for myself than any of Leo's videos and in addition are the other stuff out there online. 

I was born into this world without my consent and since I started on that premise I started realizing I owe nothing to anyone. I don't even owe my past self that had all those dreams and aspirations anything either. Once I got to the core of that and started to understand the randomness of life and how things just happen and how some things are just beyong my control and the more I want things to go a certain way the more pain and frustration I introduce in my life. Then that slave driver in my head that kept telling me to do more and be more died. I've never felt better. 

[Elliott]

@Revolutionary Think BEAUTIFUL!!! 👊

[Ramasta9]

Well said, I had a similar childhood and have taken a similar path. To attain knowledge we add things everyday, but wisdom comes from removing / deleting things. So much more peace without social media, tv, news/politics, gossip, small talk, then true richness and wealth arises from inside out.

At the end of the day, you gotta smile first to make the reflection / universe smile back, if you wanna make a change, it all starts with the man in the mirror. Ironically, one of my favorite songs as a child was Man in the mirror by Michael Jackson, and yet i only ever realized the full depth and meaning of it when i woke up to myself again. 

This forums and utube is the only thing I am using at the moment, otherwise its me, myself and eye  and ironically, i find even more peace not using this and sometimes even the utube can have a drug-like effect too. When i am not in the city, i just camp in the woods and read books, meditate, commune with nature, its a completely different level of being and peace and far richer than anything in the modern drugged out world.