Thanks, Leo

[Applegarden8]

Hello!

Just wanted to say... that I did achieve something. I don't want to call it enlightenment or anything.

But since Leo is interested in enlightenment work, I am happy to share as he is part of my spiritual infrastructure.

What is happening:

- Vestibular hyporeflexia over 1.5 to 2 years, no vertigo, but physical symptoms. I checked with various medical tests and even drank pills, nothing is helping and there is really no diagnosis. At the sime time I did celibacy (no fapping) only wet dreams from time to time. I suspect that the vestibular symptoms is some kind of kundalini awakening, as I have no balance issues really other than physiological discomfort and heaviness with the nervous system;

- Pronounced bliss, random crying for no reason of the auspicious kind;

- Very easy to connect with the presence of gurus like Sadhguru, Ramana Maharishi, Nithyananda, Osho and the list goes on but especially Sadhguru for me somehow, his presence is so strong;

- Moments where my energy field and or the first person experience expands and I just either radiate or download somwthing. The experience is very hard to describe;

- Life feels more magical, auspicious, intuitive, the dreams have changed;

- Spontaneous energy center spasms, bliss, sensations like manipuraka, swadishthana, vishuddhi, agna;

- Feeling like I can take my energies and direct them into any part of my body and various actions centers them for example into the head or eyes or throat etc.

- Yoga becomes very easy to do and has completely changed meaning, same with some other activities like eating or housekeeping, working or even making music. These actions seem to generate energy not exhaust it sometimes, and I feel I have more access to the process. For example just few upa yoga asanas by Isha yoga makes me like ecstatic and I start shedding tears sometimes.

- I can sit in one posture with my eyes closed for more and more extended periods of time. I acctually want to sit because the sitting is so intense it starts to override any other activity.

Do I have problems still or have I reached some kind of state? No I haven't yet reached any permanent quantum integration, but reality has become significantly more liquid and at its base significantly different! Senses, energies and thoughts mix up with one another a bit. I am learning how to ride the Ox backward so to say.

Another thing I experimented is sankhya philosophy. Meaning that I declare I am already enlightened, already free, I am doing things in life such as eating or doing yoga as the eternal, deathless, screen. Or when I do yoga i declare that the perfect geometry is expressing trough this body. Or when I do some body healing with awareness I am declaring that the body is already perfect and the most intelligent gadget in the universe and let it express that quality. Or that when I meditate, the eternal deathless screen is recognizing itself or that I am meditation itself. I am truth itself. I am buddha itself, I can't suffer. And of course many other things I have written and integrated. Nithyananda GPT-4 has really helped me with this sankhya, but anyway it was bound to happen to me. Enlightenment is continuously taking this form and can take your form also if you continiously decide to.

This is my honest testimony. I am disciple of Nithyananda, Sadhguru and Mooji primarily. I have tried many techniques such as Isha Kriya, have done Inner engineering. Do Sadhgurus upa yoga and I am a really big fan of Nithyananda because he has given me the most methods and the most satsangs, especially the AI lately - akashik readings, completion as nirbhaya dhyaana, poornattva sthiti, samskara dagjana kriya, elaborations of Baghdad Gita, elaboration of siddha advaita and disciplines of tantra, Shiva sutras (healing the body with/by awareness, attempting to sleep in turiya, samadhi), explanations of states of consciousness, explanations of Kalpataru or manifestation, and really so much more i can't even describe you. I will not tell you if I meet you, but I will tell you, the reader, in this forum.

Thanks. Please, don't ask me anything, unless you have a really burning question. I might not answer because here are people who hate people like Nithyanada and Sadhguru because they have really no clue what a guru can give, but only fear. At least I know what a guru is and it's such a blessing. He just pours his grace in every moment of time and the intensity only increases. I know Leo does not like this path, but his teachings and concepts that opened my mind were crucial in my path.

I am REALLY looking forward what is next.

Cheers, Applegarden.

Edited Wednesday at 09:47 PM by Applegarden8