2026

[Deziree]

 

Within every woman there is a wild and natural creature, a powerful force, filled with good instincts, passionate creativity, and ageless knowing ~ Clarrisa Pinkola Estes.

 

My mind was soaked in fear. Fear of the unknown. I was fearing my family. The fear of judgement. I felt like I was under hypnosis regression. Traveling back into a parallel life where I wanted to live the high life, free spirited, earning lots of money, taking risks, my family wasn't happy with my decisions. I encouraged someone to drink beer. There were people close to me who quickly dog piled on me asking why would I want to associate myself with something like that. A battle of virtues.

This indicates a fear of moral judgement.

 

I do make plans which are sometimes not successful. Yea I want to visualize a clean environment. Yea there are people in my life who hold me back. But I am trying to navigate that.

 

I'm aware of things. In fact I am aware of things everyday. Been through ups and downs. Just be there for yourself. The world doesn't change. Yesterday another neighbor died of a heart attack. She was an old woman. 85 years old. Her son took good care of her. Yet life is so unpredictable. I have to persevere harder. Time will go by. It will be difficult to keep up. My heart is with the one. I have been struggling with some health issues. Things are still fine. This is the end of the year.

 

[Deziree]

 

 

[Deziree]

8th December. 

[Deziree]

Mind boggling.

 

 

[freddyteisen]

@Deziree Saw a YouTube short with this girl, which is your profile picture.

The person filming saying the girl’s sweater is cute.

What a coincidence.

Are you that girl from the video?

Edited 12 hours ago by freddyteisen