The paradox of mental state and practicing not knowing

[Justin my mind]

I have been going through a paradox been noticing in my dreams how spirituality has caused bypass. Been trying to reconstruct my reality. But at the same time, I've noticed not knowing even though it's made me dissociated. I have been able to open up to by my dad from a space of forgetting everything 2nd order my question is how can I stay embodied while also practicing not knowing and not go crazy. Thank you 🙏🙏

[Hezbollah]

Forgive and forget yeah