Mushroom Trip 027 - 7g of GT w/ the Dirt

[ZenSwift]

Previous Trip Report: 

 

> Dear reader;

> The trip report is mostly written while I am high. 

> Text with the chevron “>” in front of it is text I put together as a comment after the fact.

> I edited out lots of jibber jabber in an attempt to just leave in writings that may spark some insights for you.

> Things that I found particularly impactful will be in bold, underlined, or my top insights/musings will be in a different colour. Like Green.

> So If you want to skim through, focus on the bolds, underlines, and most importantly, the Green.

Comments about Mushroom Trip Report 027: I was depressed, jobless, living in my apartment, endlessly distracted with YouTube, TV shows, etc. Staying at home not being active in society, etc. I could barely focus on any projects I had, partly also because I don’t think I have that self-starter entrepreneur personality. 

 

Mushroom Trip 027 - 7 grams of Golden Teachers with the Dirt

Jan 18th 2024

7 grams, lemon Tekked.

Drank the tea WITH the powder. Literally drinking a cup of dirt. Yes it’s gross, But I’ll happily thug it out for those consciousness gains.

Strain: Golden Teachers

Taken at 3:03pm 

 

Intention: What is best for me right now? 

Next time 5g will be plenty!

• Work out every day.
• A human degrades from a lack of challenge and a lack of work.
• Life is not about having a purpose. It's about finding where you fit. Perhaps Cal Newport is right with what he said in his book: “So Good they can’t ignore you”. If you can find autonomy, competence, and relatedness, you’ve got it pretty good. 
• I need to awaken. 
• I need to be pursuing the challenge of life alongside a full-fledged pursuit of Awakening. 
• Own your life.
• “Choose to challenge yourself in life precisely because it is unnecessary” - Leo
• You are born alone and will die alone. 

I have to choose to not be a self to create. 

 

Here’s a thought that came to me:

Jesus was loving his crucifixion as much as he could. 

 

Are you going to own your dream?

> Taking responsibility in life is owning the dream that you're in and choosing to work with it and not against it. Taking full responsibility over it, as a personal challenge to love and accept it all, owning it as yourself as if you are the one responsible for it. As if you are responsible for the dream that you find yourself in.

The dream is going to go on without you, are you going to choose to participate? 

God invented being born to help me appreciate the creation power of God. This is a stepping stone to help me love my own crucifixion. Because when I can love my crucifixion I can own the dream of being a selfless self happily merrily merrily owning all of it. I need to learn to appreciate the real suffering of reality. 

Doors only open if you look for them. There are people that I can imagine that will have specific problems that I can help with. 

 

How can we lean into having more direct experience? 

>How can I lean into direct experience more? By cutting away distractions. 

 

You need to choose what stream of consciousness you want to catch. You need to choose what stream you want to go merrily merrily down because life is but a dream. (Row row your boat song)

 

How can I help other people own their life? 

Relationship exercise: Sit for 1 minute, stare into each other's eyes, and say nothing. Watch how much that allows what to enter into your mind about the relationship. 

> This actually ended up to be a powerful exercise.

> It is important to always draw sharp distinctions between what is distraction and what is focused work. If you cannot get this right, you will be lost in the maze of reality. You have to be extremely persistent with holding this sharp distinction in your state of consciousness at all times. Constantly asking yourself what is important, what is the most important thing to be focusing on. It's devilishly easy to get distracted.

 

Notes From Trip Sitter:

What did I learn today?

To own your life, you have to choose to own all of it. Own it all, including some of the more difficult details.

 

In what ways are you like others?

We are all struggling to find new ways to live. We are not fighting anymore to survive. We need to create stories to survive.

>Survival is more than just living to see the next day. 

 

It's a choice to own that life. A choice to exist. Will I choose to take control of what I created? Will I choose to play a part?

 

God is the MOST powerful.

It's a choice to understand reality.

 

I am beginning to understand the power of deep awakening. An infinite mind will create anything, reality will find ways to actualize its creation…

 

Movement in the mind. 

 

If we experience a day in the life in Africa, we will learn.

Choose to see pain. Experience different parts of the world. 

 

When we want to feel more alive, choose to own more of reality.

 

What is best for me right now?

I need new experiences and more direct experience to forget my problems. Find people to help. Maybe take on more clients. Create more experience to help others and teach others.

In becoming useful for others, you end up becoming better off yourself. Helping others will help to enter a healthier state of consciousness. You can choose to create these people in your life to help. God will just spawn these people into the dream of reality.

 

Alternatively, you can choose to make this dream into a nightmare. Fundamentally you can make reality anything. Pain is what keeps you dreaming. Even though pain is a part of the dream.

 

War is started because we need something to do. It's a choice to see reality as perfection. If you want to create, you cannot have a self. Do you own your life today?

Life will run on its own.

 

For some, sexuality can be a choice.

 

If you make a choice enough, it becomes your mind.

 

We need to kill the dragons while they are small. We need to kill the dragons before they grow.

I need to own my own dream.

I can choose to be lucid in my dreams. When I face the fear in my dreams, it gives me strength.

 

To choose to create as God, you cannot have a self.

 

What do you get excited about? I need to own that state of consciousness. Create videos about the pain. I need to do something about the pain instead of numbing it.

 

Stupid people that are teaching you, they are not acknowledging their pain. Beauty comes with owning pain from the fountain of God.

 

When we own our pain, then we choose how we participate in the dream.

We must also choose to own the other people's lives and their pain. 

 

God created reality for you, what are you going to do with it? 

 

Choose to let go of being a self, to create. 

>This messaging came to me over and over again throughout the trip. Crying, shouting: "I CANNOT BE A SELF IF I WANT TO CREATE"

 

What is other? It is questioning the dream. 

“Other” is God creating around you, and you can choose to participate. 

 

Animals reflect the state of consciousness you are not owning because they are highly emotionally intuitive. 

 

I choose to love reality, the nightmare. I choose to love the nightmare to death. 

> This was profound for me. When it comes to the life you want to live, you must start with the dream that you have already dreamt yourself in. And if it is a nightmare, then own that, love that, let your love penetrate that fully.

> Any time I have really turned my life around was when I chose to love the nightmare. You have to love through it all. Choose to be curious about your bad habits and behaviors, treat it as a project to become completely conscious of to see how your mind is constructing all of it. 

 

Slowing down to the speed of love.

>Slow down your life such that you can learn to love it. Stop distracting your self with high speed distractions. 

I have to choose every moment to be a lucky gift. Every moment is a lucky gift.

>You didn’t have to wake up this morning. Every morning that you wake up is grace. 

 

What now?

I have to choose to spend money on my self to be healthy. Like a Gym membership. 

I need some money coming in. I need to find some work. 

I need to help people and I will become more valuable.

I need to listen more.

Choose to be selfless, to create.

To choose to help others is to choose to participate in the dream.

When I help others, it will give me a dream I can love.

 

Because I have so much gratitude to be in this moment. Any argument, decision or conflict never mattered. It was all created in the empty canvas of God.

 

End of Report.

Edited 3 hours ago by ZenSwift